-Sigh-, So there's this girl.... Options

[rAwritsgWeg]

Mmm. There is this girl. I wont give her name. Mmm, anyways. There is this girl and like, she means the world to me. We would talk everyday. All day. At first she was like a friend, and I felt that she was a really cool person. After a little while, I started feeling something. Mmm, I know it cant possibly be love. Not yet. But, I like her alot. its gotten to the point where I just cant live without her. heh. It's like, ok.....My parents had just sent me to this place, home where I'll be for two weeks...its just to get me away from them(parents) and like it sucks here, its boring, im lucky enough that i get to go on cB and whatnot....and like I feel so alone here. She is the thought that gets me by, and like idk....I just wanna tell her my feelings, well sorta have but idk...I'm always there for her and like I always do my best to help her. Mmm. she does the same for me...Now I'm just confused if About like asking her out. I know its too early but like Im not sure if she's ever goin to want to do it. Mmm. I know she likes me, she's told me. She's told me why she does too. People have told me I'm sweet...but something is telling me otherwise...maybe its cuz I'm down...Mmm. Im just not sure what to do. I fee like Im rushing things...from what ive said does it seem so? Mmm if you guys need to know more just ask...but pretty much I'm just asking for advice....also companionship....cuz im alone as fcuk here....


-sighs-

(stupid government.....12days till I get out of here...)

[lexaa621]

Mmm tell her how you feel Mmm yeah
mmmm if she likes you then just go for it

[rAwritsgWeg]

Mmm tell her how you feel Mmm yeah
mmmm if she likes you then just go for it

Heh. Are you mocking me?
I do say Mmmm. Alot, now that I think about it.
Hmmm, maybe...

[*Uronacid*]

Wow, dude... you sound like you're going crazy obsessive over a girl that you aren't even in a relationship with yet.

You need to chill. If you like her ask her out. If she says no, accept it. If she says yes, be happy she said yes.

I know you said you were alone. You need to get a-hold of yourself. If you keep being depressed and shit they will just keep you there for longer periods of time.

It sounds like you're in a home for kids who are depressed. I think you should make the best of the situation you're in. Look, you keep saying how and depressed you are. Something is wrong dude, and you need to find out what it is. It's not normal or healthy to sit there and be depressed all the time. That home is for people to help you figure yourself out isn't it... why don't you make those people do their job and make them help you.

[rAwritsgWeg]

It's not a home for the depressed.....I was sent here because my mom wanted to get rid of me for a while. She gave up custody of me, and I have to stay here for a little while....
Hmmm...Always this way isn't it...

[*Uronacid*]

jeez... why did she give up CUSTODY?

[rAwritsgWeg]

Mmm, I supposedly PHYSICALLY and VERBALLY abused my entire family. Now that isnt true at all...that plays into my depression. The fact that they believe her kills me, because I'm in this place and its like there are kids who are litterally crazy or just fcuked....damn -sigh-
this sucks....
im like idk really confused...

[***Lucy**]

this place souns terrible, im sorry

why don't u call her and tell her that u miss her?
or just call her 2 chat. i think it'll make u feel better.

[*Uronacid*]

Well, if you really aren't any of those things I suggest that you just chill for a while... If you really are normal then those "people" will tell your parents that.

Also, everyone has flaws... think of this as a really good time to work on your flaws. I mean, it's not like you're perfect or anything. No-one is perfect.

Listen, "There always a little bit of truth in every bit of criticism."

In this case meaning: Although you are probably not as verbally abusive as your mother says you are, I'm sure that there are times when you are. Everyone is. I know that at times I can be. Everyone yells or screams or hits something at some time or another. If you have been placed in this home to work on being a better person why not start? Is there anything wrong with trying to better yourself?

Maybe you can think of this as a break from your psycho family... >.>

[letsPlaydoctor.]

you said the word "like" alot.
haha.
sorry.

but if you have those strong feelings for her...tell her.
don't keep them bottled up.
but dont be like, OMFG. I LOVE YOU. I ALWAYS HAVE.
cause that's stalkerish. hah.
stalking isnt flattering.


but just tell her.
if she feels the same way, she'll be happy. and so will you.


as for your mom.
tell her to suck it.
:D
haha.

[angelrevelation]

I don't see why you SHOULDN'T ask her out, since she likes you too and all

[mzislandpinay]

it doesn't hurt to take a chance right? If she likes you.. and you like her. She`s most likely waiting fer you to make the moves.

if it`s kinda da same situation as mine.. i like him.. he likes me.. but it`s really going nowhere khuz da guy is not makin da moves.

if she`s afraid of da "friendship being ruined"; tell her it won`t. Tell her to believe with you. Show her confidence in the relationship and she`ll sure to follow.

sometimes it jhus takes one person to push the relationship further.. most jhus wait fer the other one to do it.

[*x1227x*]

i agree with elsie.

take a chance. tell her how you feel. even if it could ruin your friendship, you'll never know how it goes till you try it.

i hope you do something that'll make you less despressed.

feel better yo.

[itsnever4ever]

i think you should tell her how you feel, maybe even ask her out. If you still feel like you're rushing maybe just take things a little slow. Or get to know her some more before you ask her out. But tell her how you feel, or maybe she'll be like oh well i told him i liked him and he didn't say anything soo i guess he doesn't like me...

[*krnxswat*]

You can live without her. Trust me.
It's air you can't live without.
Get that mindset embedded in your head of yours.

[*Duchess of Dork*]

^ Definitely.

I know it seems so desperate right now, but just give it a little time. Time is pretty much the best medicine for anything. (Although one of the most annoying pieces of advice, ever).

[rAwritsgWeg]

So much time here though....and doing nothing....thats mostly why thoughts as such occur...
I cant believe that at one point, I wanted to try to kill myself......=\
Hmmm....
I'm confused....I'm trying to keep my mind of things by attempting to become a follower of buddhism...seems like it would help...

-sighs-

[*Duchess of Dork*]

Well, while I won't pretend to be an advocate of any religion, meditation is a very powerful mechanism. I know it's helped me a great deal. It takes a lot of concentration and a lot of patience though.

Do you write? Read books (for leisure)? If not, I'd strongly recommend you start. Also, try this little silly thing:

List, then prioritize your problems on paper. Take the top problem and write it down in a separate piece of paper. Keep it with you for a while (an hour, a day, five minutes, which ever you'd like) then throw that little piece of paper away.

Of course the problem doesn't go away, but you can at least toss it from your mind for the time being. I know, it's cheesy, but sometimes tangible symbolism helps.

[rAwritsgWeg]

Mmm...sounds like a good idea...I can give it a try, but no idea how long it will last..Hmmm gah. I have a killer headache...no sleep..Mmm. I have like a rubber band and like when I wanna cut I snap it on my wrist. Now its like beggining to bruise my arm =\ Mmmm. Gah. Now I'm getting to the point of confusion...I want to live...and I know I have like her to live for...but then the thought of suicide pops into my mind...
gah...
-confused-

[*a painefull euphoria*]

meditation is a very powerful mechanism. I know it's helped me a great deal. It takes a lot of concentration and a lot of patience though.

^i absolutely agree.
before you worry about a girl right now i think its best for you to clear your head even if its only 1 hour a day it does alot.
right now you need alot emotional healing
but as she said it does take alot of time and patience

[rAwritsgWeg]

^i absolutely agree.
before you worry about a girl right now i think its best for you to clear your head even if its only 1 hour a day it does alot.
right now you need alot emotional healing
but as she said it does take alot of time and patience

Mmm. yea...I'm going to attempt meditation....its seems to be the most plausible way for a clear mind and good spirit....hmmm...its just really hard. All the "problems" are like flying at me at once and like, its sorta hard to take them all in. I know i should take them step by step but something is stopping me from taking them in at all... Shit....my mind is becoming so clouded...

[*Uronacid*]

Mmm. yea...I'm going to attempt meditation....its seems to be the most plausible way for a clear mind and good spirit....hmmm...its just really hard. All the "problems" are like flying at me at once and like, its sorta hard to take them all in. I know i should take them step by step but something is stopping me from taking them in at all... Shit....my mind is becoming so clouded...

Man, that's a really good idea... maybe meditation would be a good thing.

Good ideas :]