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[filipinopinay09]

well okay, i need some advice you fellow createblog members. .. okay, here's the thing.

there's this guy that i was with for exactly a month, but we ended up breaking it off since we're going to different schools. i know it sounds like a ridiculous reason on breaking up with a person, but it's not all that easy if we did stay together. i mean my dad has this thing with guys, which is i can't date until im done with my schooling. and if my dad found out if i was ever dating a guy, i'd probably be dead [literally]. the thing is, over this one month i was with this guy, i totally fell head over heels for him. he became my first real bf that ever treated me right and showed that he cared for me. i fell for him way too hard, way too fast. i knew gettin into this relationship i would end up breaking things off, but to tell you the truth .. i didn't even think it would've lasted this long knowing my reputation on past relationships.

now my problem is this, since our relationship is over .. i havent been the same girl i was [or so my friends say]. im not the happy-go about person i was b4. im jus way bent over "him". i know a month isnt that long, but i got attached and i don't wanna let go. my friends say that i should go call him up and tell him how i REALLY feel cuz he probably do feel the same way that i'm feeling at the moment. the thing is, i don't have it away with words as everyone seems to think. i'm probably just going to get choked up when i make the call .. not knowing what to say. or just not call at all. and i don't want this to be somethin i end up regretting. yes, i WANT to call him up and tell him everything ... i just don't know how to quite start. i mean i can't jus greet him a hello and start sayin all the shit that i have on my mind. he certainly doesn't deserve that. *sighz* where am i supposed to begin ?

i know i should just, "take the chance and live it like there's no tomorrow" but if you haven't tried it b4 .. it IS pretty hard. especially when it's dealing with a person you truly care about and love, you don't wanna mess thing's up. all i need is just advice from anyone out there. anyone who has been in a likely situation i am at the moment .. just anyone who can help me ...