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[*stephinika*]

I guess I'll write a little something...though it may not be as interesting or insightful as some of yours.

I had a typical life as a child and whatnot I guess...during my preteen/early teen years I became depressed though. I didn't have any real friends at one point and I was so self-critical and had extremely low self-esteem as I hated my body and I could always find something wrong with myself. It got so bad to the point I almost committed suicide. But then I got scared. I realized I didn't actually want to die so I started looking up and I became more optimistic in life. My self-esteem went up and I gained more confidence as I found some real friends in high school.
My first real relationship was amazing and it lasted for a year and 8 months...but I ended it. I ended up losing feelings for him, while at the same time gaining feelings for someone else. I felt so guilty and people starting making rumours up and calling me a slut. I had feelings for the guy but we didn't actually do anything, but we were best friends & because we spent so much time together, gossip ensued. Eventually we got together after my breakup with my now ex boyfriend and I'm still with that guy now and it's almost been a year, and I don't think I'll ever meet someone like him again. He's amazing and he's taught me a lot. Family life is okay. I'm an only child with a very up & down relationship with my parents. Nothing too dramatic though. I'm still rather self-critical of myself but I've gotten much better. I already talked about the dance part of my life...so yeah. I don't know what else to say.
I'll answer any questions if anyone has any.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

No sorry I didn't. I was reading what everyone else had said to your post about you've had a hard life and so on. Sorry though I didn't read your other posts. I haven't gotten much sleep and reading long posts give me headaches because the words are all together and lines and lines of words -_-' and I don't look at the computer when I type so It doesn't give me a headache when I type stuff I guess.
Well I had a boyfriend die, he got in a car accident supposedly. I stayed out of it for the most part. Long story. And had some pretty bad things happen to me in my past that were close to yours. I mostly stayed to myself and I'm always the one over in the corner of the room by themselves. Eventually I had really bad emotional problems. And then I trust or care about people to quickly and it turns out to the worse usually. Eventually later in life, I lost one of my really good friends in a car accident after he moved. And then I never told anyone anything. So on.

I have a headache now. I'll finish this later, perhaps. Don't know yet.

Ooh i know how you feel about losing friends and everything. For me, in sixth grade, everyone just started .. for lack of a better word dying left and right. Kelsie and then a month alter terrence and then 4 days later ashley and then 10 days later jesse and then more and more and more. And i know what you mean by never telling anyone anything either cos I hate talking to people about problems and feelings. But is is true what people say .. eventually it will all build up until you can't hold it down anymore and it will burst out and you most of the time wont know hwo to handle it. Eventually you have to find someway to express what you have inside instead of stowing it away.

Bella (may I call you that?) This topic was a great idea. Finally something serious in the lounge.

Who/what has been your inspiration?

Of course (:
I'd say my inspiration actually comes from different artists and music and people who have had hardships that they overcome, not just one person in general. I love music that speaks of hard things and then go into how about things get better and change, cos it teaches listeners that their is hope and if we aspire for it, things can always get better. And in people. And for people, anybody who has ever had times where they though things could get no worse and then pulled themselves from out of the dark will always have my respect and admiration. How about for you ?

[*This Confession*]

yea
well ive had plenty of people kill themselves and die in car accidents, so on so on.

Actually I can hold things in, and never actually let them out. But yea I've heard that though.

Sorry would have more to say.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Who/what has been your inspiration?

Bob Shank. This is the wisest person I know.. I can't even begin to describe how much he's influenced me.. It's incredible. I'm the person I am today mostly because of him.

[Gypsy Eyes]

As far as a person I know, it would again be my grandmother or my father. Recently I have gained so much more respect for him, he just got in touch with his first daughter that he fathered in college. They had to give her up for adoption because they couldn't afford it. I couldn't imagine having to do that.

[pshaa.shauna]

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Whats something in your life you really value and love ?

Art, Writing, and Music. I can express myself through art, and I love the way most drawings look(Digital Art is another story, I'm not so good at that). Writing, I love the way your emotions can just flow onto the paper,and afterwords, it's like it's out of your system, and the piece of paper you hold is your baby. And music, I'd die without music, there's no way to explain it. I cannot understand those people when you ask them what kind of music they listen to and they respond that they don't.

Who/what has been your inspiration?

My friends who actually appreciate me, the people I love, my brothers, my ambition to make sure my children have a, I wouldn't say better, because in all honesty other people have had worse childhoods then mine, but a less stressful childhood. I grew up too quickly, I want to make sure my kids don't.

When in your life did you ever feel so bored and lonely that you took almost everything for granted and you felt being "suffocated"?

Basically, my entire life, up until...oh end of November. I woke up. I had grown so used to the fact of everyone hating me, and then I met two people, who completely changed my outlook on myself. They say that you have to like yourself before anyone can like you, and that's not true at all. Sometimes you need someone to show you its okay to like yourself before you can. And at home, I learned to laugh and live when I got mugged. After it happened, I realized all I wa sthinking about was all of the things I haven't done yet, and all of the things I could have done.

at least you have a sence of humor

I've learned to laugh at things, its much more fun that way.

[Gypsy Eyes]

Sometimes you need someone to show you its okay to like yourself before you can.

Oh wow I love that

[doork]

Bella, way to go! After everything that had happened to you, you still manage to smile and move on in life. That is true strength.


Well, my name is Annie. I am 14 going on 15 on Sunday. I`m the opposite of Bella. People mistake me for 12-14 because of my height [4`11] and my babyface. People gave me the nickname, Sunshine because I am a happy person. I dont like dramas or violence. I`ll do whatever just to avoid it. Not much obstacles happened in my life so theres really nothing to tell. The only interesting thing that had probally happened in my life was the relationship between me and my ex. We were together for a little over a year. During last year`s summer everything changed between me and him. We both had to go to different schools, so I guess that was when he start having the urge to cheat. Just normal stuffs. He cheated, I cried, we broke up, and somehow we got back together then he cheated again and so on.. But then on Jan. 2 I got tired of putting up with all his games so I ended. I wanted to start this year off fresh. To this day we still talk, and he moved on. There`s a lot more to it, but I feel like stopping here. If you want to know more about me then feel free to IM me up or PM me.


life-altering experience: Nothing yet..

skill/ability: Manage to think about the positive even when I feel like .

what is your biggest childhood dream: Have a real family Thanksgiving dinner...

in that hard period, who was your most important person to support you? myself.



Everyones` stories is very interesting, and touching. I feel safe talking about my personal life on cB. I don`t know why..



Question:
What quote[s] motivates you?

Mine is " Cry your river, build a bridge, and get the f**k over it! "

[Gypsy Eyes]

^I honestly have no idea.

What is your biggest fear?

[*stephinika*]

My biggest fear: Being comletely and utterly alone with no one to turn to. Being abandoned by the ones I care about most.

[The Nocturnal Ph...]

Losing sight of what I want.

[pshaa.shauna]

What is your biggest fear?

To be forgotten. I don't care if everyone hates me and I only I like myself, I just don't wnat them to forget me. It gives an erie sort of feeling, like you never existed. You aren't even worth being hated.


To the quote thing- "I don't think of the future, it comes soon enough."

[doork]

What is your biggest fear?

Losing my family, the bestfriend, and clowns.

[*StanleyThePanda*]

Hi everyone, Im Kara.
I'm sixteen (will be seventeen on sunday), I was born on June 25th, 1989 at 7:24am.
I attend Cosmetology school, and am also a senior. I like reading, and writing (sometimes). I absolutely love movies and music, but I have television, unless there is something interesting going on, on the news.
I dont know what else to put. I suck at this introduction thing hahaha

Who/what has been your inspiration?

Best friends, and family.

What is your biggest fear?

Losing the ones closest to me.

[doork]

Hi everyone, Im Kara.
I'm sixteen (will be seventeen on sunday), I was born on June 25th, 1989

Hi Kara! I`m Annie and we have the same birthday but different years.

[*StanleyThePanda*]

^ oh, yay! You are... younger?

[push kicks]

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Where'd you learn about aaall the music and producers and new bands and all the music in general that you know about ? I remember you and Brandon knew A LOT and i used to wonder how you'd figure it all out.

when i was in middle school i sold bootleg cds and i had over 60 GB of music. there was this one site i always went to (itsbx.com) and they had every single album you could ever dream of available to download for free. i downloaded everything i could and i eventually started listening to them. there was no friend who introduced me to good artists so it is kind of amazing that i have such a different music taste lol

[doork]

^ oh, yay! You are... younger?

haha yes mam` 1991

[Gypsy Eyes]

Here's a good one:

what is your proudest moment?

[AngelinaTaylor]

What quote[s] motivates you?

Mine is " Cry your river, build a bridge, and get the f**k over it! "

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

Here's a good one:

what is your proudest moment?

When I went to provincial finals when I didn't expect it (piano performance), and then even better - to national finals (this Sunday).. I'm scared for my life though

[doork]

Here's a good one:

what is your proudest moment?

When I made my parents happy.

[The Nocturnal Ph...]

Losing sight of what I want.

Forgot to explain my fear... I meant, If i lose sight of what I want, I'd probably kill myself because there is nothing to look forward to in the next day or the one after that.

I sound so emo, but it's truthful.

[*This Confession*]

What quote[s] motivates you?

Take pride in your pain, for you are stronger than those who have none.

[AngelinaTaylor]

What is your biggest fear?

Deep waters. Also.. not being able to play.

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What's the scariest/most dangerous thing you've ever done?

[marzipan]

what's your favorite sport?

mine's soccer.