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A Message to Anyone, Version 20.0 |
Apr 13 2006, 09:33 PM
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![]() hello : ) ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 4,227 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,139 |
Dear You,
Today I took a drive. I wasn't really driving with any specific destination in mind, simply driving so I could be by myself and think of you. I love you. People think I'm crazy, think that I'm doing too much. I don't. Even if I was, I don't care. I want and need you in my life. That's it. Period. I just wish you could see it. I really miss you. Today I got offered to go with your cousin to prom. I don't want to go with another Park...I want to go with this Park, you. I was seriously contemplating asking you to prom but I honestly don't know anymore. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, Phillip. I pray for you everyday. Did you know? I don't pray more for any other person more or more consistently for anyone else - not even myself. I've been crying a lot more lately. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what is so wrong with me that you won't let me love you, that you can't accept that I do, and that you can't love me back. I really wish I knew. I would change it as fast as I could. Let me be there for you. Please, let me talk to you. This is killing me slowly. -Me. Dear You and You, Get off my mother freaking back and leave me the hell alone. Thank God I'm about to move out. I can't bloody wait. You two are so annoying. Leave me alone. I'm trying here and I'm sorry that I'm not the brightest in my classes and that my grades basically suck. I'm really sorry, okay? I know I f**ked up but I'm still here and I'm still trying. I get it. I get we need money. I get it and I'm trying to get scholarships but who am I to win them all? I haven't been awarded any of them and it's really by no fault of mine. Obviously they found someone better to give it to so leave me alone. I know we are financially struggling but it's not fair for you to put all of that on me too and then later say you didn't. You are. You are burdening me with your problems and bitching to me constantly. Well guess what? I have other problems too that I don't need a heap of yours either. -Me. |
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| *stephinika* |
Apr 13 2006, 11:45 PM
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______: I wish you could see without me having to speak any words. This truly just kills me inside. I don't know why and I know it shouldn't, but I can't control those feelings...it just does. It hurts so much just to even think about it. It's making me think horrible things I want to do that I'd never think of normally. Augh. Then I have an over-active imagination and thinking up the worst possible scenarios. I hate this, yet I can't do a damn thing about it...I wish you'd see.
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Apr 14 2006, 03:11 AM
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Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 2,343 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 17,767 |
That has got to be one of the most special times I've ever shared with you and will likely always remain that way. So simple, so honest, so amazing... you're so amazing.
I love your smile, I love looking into your eyes, I love you kissing my ear until I wake up. I've never felt so loved before... I didn't even think you could be like this. Thank you for holding me... so gently... man you turned me completely mushy. Did you see the way we were saying our goodbyes tonight?! Hahaha seriously... you're good. And I love you bum. Have fun up there. Talk to you in a few. It just keeps getting better... |
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Apr 14 2006, 07:15 AM
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![]() just jackie. ![]() Group: Member Posts: 7 Joined: Mar 2006 Member No: 389,406 |
Dear ____,
A lot of people tell me I'm too young to have been in love with you, but I know with all my heart that I did and will always love you. I wish I knew where you are now, I miss you terribly. I'm moving on, but it still hurts sometimes. |
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Apr 14 2006, 09:25 AM
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![]() Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 1,476 Joined: May 2005 Member No: 135,305 |
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i love you guys!<33 |
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Apr 14 2006, 09:46 AM
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![]() crushed. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 9,432 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 20,026 |
To ______ :
Please, please, please let me see you today. Please. Do I have to do it? I don't know. I feel so sad thinking about you all the time. Please, please, please... To ______ : Dude. I need to talk about prom plans with you. But obviously you're not here right now. Gr. I want to pay for something. We need to talk. We haven't mentioned prom once since you've asked me and I don't want things to be awkward. To ______ : It's funny. When you had him, you looked like shit every day. Now that you don't, you actually take the time to take care of your appearance. Please do that more often. I know you feel better about yourself when you do. --Teesa |
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Apr 14 2006, 09:49 AM
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![]() cB Assassin ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 10,147 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 7,672 |
Dear _______
I will love you deeply until forever. I promise you this, we'll always love each other no matter what. We'll see each other again. I promise. Love Eddie |
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Apr 14 2006, 12:56 PM
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![]() say maydayism. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 7,447 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 26,344 |
YAY I'm going to see you again today. :)
Love you both! :DD <3 I'm going to see every minute of it. |
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Apr 14 2006, 01:11 PM
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Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 3,102 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,162 |
the only reason i wish we had school today is because it's been a week since i last saw you and i feel like my insides have died and are sloughing off in great slippery sheets.
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Apr 14 2006, 01:59 PM
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![]() Being happy...is all that matters ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 765 Joined: Feb 2005 Member No: 102,284 |
To K,
I know I'm not supposed to like you...and you really weren't suppose to mean this much to me. I'm not supposed to care...or think about you, or get worried about you. You and I weren't supposed to be more than just acquaintances. But things happen. We got to be close. I get the feeling that you like me. I like you. But I know we won't ever be together. Because of your relationship with her. I didn't want it to be like this. I didn't want our friendship to hurt her...and your relationship with her too. I feel so bad sometimes. I know that for every second she sees me hanging out with you, her heart breaks just a little bit more. But I can't help how I feel when I'm with you. You make me happy. You make me laugh even when I don't want to smile. You make me feel better when I'm down. You make me feel safe with you. I know you like me too. Whether you admit it or not, I feel it. Or why would you be doing all those special things for me and not her? Why would you try to things to please me that much? Why would you be willing to go out with me? Why? Tell me why. I wish we can be together. I wish we can. But we probably won't. Staying friends isn't so bad. We can be close friends forever, and I'll settle for that. But a part of me will always wonder...wonder what would've happen if we were allowed to be together. |
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Apr 14 2006, 03:10 PM
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Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 2,343 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 17,767 |
I think this is the first time I've said this since we've started our relationship: I can't stop thinking about you.
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| *stephinika* |
Apr 14 2006, 03:58 PM
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: I've been thinking about since I woke. And I cried. Again. I miss you. I want to feel secure...its my own fault, but still.
: You are annoying. Please just SHUT UP. : Do you not like me that much anymore or something? |
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| *My Cinderella.* |
Apr 14 2006, 04:06 PM
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I really like how we're starting to connect more. I love today, it felt so pure. When we were talking how you'd kiss my hand.
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Apr 14 2006, 05:44 PM
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![]() cool by default. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 147 Joined: Apr 2006 Member No: 392,925 |
i dont know what's hurting me so much. i really dont. maybe its the fact that things arent even the same anymore. i really miss how things used to be. remember the times we used to talk on myspace? you dont know how much it meant to me everytime i saw the words "new messages" whenever i signed onto myspace. it hurts alot cause, i really do miss it all. i remember how i would love friday nights, cause that was when i knew you would be online on aim.. and i loved it when you would stay up late at night and we would talk nonstop. now.. i dunno. my problem used to be the fact that we would never be able to talk in person. now.. its like everything is flipped. we talk fine in person, but on AIM, you would always be doing something else. you would be on createblog.. or you would be talking to someone else.. i dont know. i just miss those long talks we used to have, even if they had no point to them. now i feel like there's no meaning to anything you say to me anymore. those hearts you give me when you leave.. i'm starting to feel like you only do it because you feel like you have to.. like its a routine or something. i dont know how you feel anymore, and i don tknow how i feel anymore. i just know that it hurts.. alot. ive never cried like this over someone. and i dont know why its hurting me now..
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| *Intoxique* |
Apr 14 2006, 06:00 PM
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I been avoiding you a lot lately. I just can't get over what happened ________, ______ & ____, You guys know how to make someone feel left out |
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| *My Cinderella.* |
Apr 14 2006, 06:41 PM
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Oh how I miss you.
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| *Intoxique* |
Apr 14 2006, 06:53 PM
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_______,
200 post _______, I want you very bad |
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Apr 14 2006, 07:24 PM
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![]() Being happy...is all that matters ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 765 Joined: Feb 2005 Member No: 102,284 |
Thankie for today. You rock. It's times like this that I wish for us to be together. I don't wanna admit it...but I'm slowly falling in love with you.
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Apr 14 2006, 08:55 PM
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![]() cool by default. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 147 Joined: Apr 2006 Member No: 392,925 |
where are you ..
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| *My Cinderella.* |
Apr 14 2006, 09:08 PM
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I wish our family never broke apart.
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| *xcaitlinx* |
Apr 14 2006, 10:30 PM
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Baby,
i want you to come home...now! i miss you so much and spring break hasn't been the same without you. i'm glad that we'll still have 4 days to be together when you get back from florida though. i keep thinking about next thursday and how amazing it's gunna be to run and jump into your arms and never let you go. like you said, this is the first and last time that you're gunna leave for vacation unless i can come..haha. i thought that it would be unbearable to be here in jersey without you but it hasnt been as bad as i thought. tomorrow im going to the boardwalk with my friends all day and today i went to the mall. ive been trying to keep busy so that the days fly by. before i know it, you'll be back and im gunna be so happy. i love you so much baby<3333333 |
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Apr 14 2006, 11:00 PM
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![]() hi. call me linda. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 8,187 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,475 |
Hey honey, thanks for today. I really enjoyed myself, even though at some points it seemed like I didn't. And yay for alcoholic drinks! Haha and that comedy club was funny heheh. And thanks for brining Kwan too, I did enjoy today so we should have more of it. Love you <3.
Sigh. I really hate you two. So fking annoying. I just wish you would get off my backs. You know I'm fking counting down the days that I move out? Because once I'm out, I'm throwing a huge party to celebrate my freedom. I just wish you would get out of my life and let me run it the way I want. |
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Apr 14 2006, 11:17 PM
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![]() you & i collide ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 324 Joined: Apr 2005 Member No: 131,155 |
Why can't you just talk? I mean.. is it really that hard? It's so frustrating. And why can't you be the one to IM me first?
You liking him.. it doesn't seem as special anymore. Even though I love you and everything, I'm rooting for her because I'm not really sure if your feelings are actually genuine. You switch from guy to guy so much. |
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Apr 15 2006, 12:52 AM
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![]() say maydayism. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 7,447 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 26,344 |
No chance of chatting with you on MSN today... >.<
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Apr 15 2006, 01:06 AM
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![]() hello : ) ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 4,227 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,139 |
Dear You,
You were on my mind all day and all night. Despite the fact that I'm out with friends I still just sit or stand there blankly staring and thinking about you. I love you so much. This sucks because it's so hard and I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do. I wish it was easier or more clear or less complicated. I wish I understood. I wish you would be thinking about me... but I doubt you are. Your prom is in two weeks. I wonder who you're taking...I really want to take you to my prom, but what's the point? What's the point of asking if you're not even going to give me the chance or if you're going to say no? What's the point of asking when most likely you don't even want to go to another prom and when nothing will result from it? I don't know...I'm so confused. I love you and I wish that that alone could solve everything. Too bad it doesn't. -Me. |
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