Unsure where this is going.., any inputs or advice would make me :) Options

[Anime_gurl_4eva]

this sounds like one of those situations that would happen in a movie.

best of luck to youu!! <333

[seremela_culnamo]

this sounds like one of those situations that would happen in a movie.

best of luck to youu!! <333

That's what a lot of my friends said. Ever since the day he walked me home after knowing me for a week, it sounded like a movie. Everything just seems to perfect, but truly it's not because things happen.

Heh. Do you see it as a happy or sad ending 'story'?

Thank-you. I really hope it will all work out. I wasn't feel easy about it because he's nice to a lot of girls and hangs out with them. But my friend, one who actually knows him better than most of my friends, said never has Dean gone to this extent (i.e. meeting the parents, etc).

[anoniez]

it sounds like a happy ending =))
awwh hahah it's so cute! best of luck!

[seremela_culnamo]

Heh, right now, I actually am considering on telling him. But once I see him, I know I won't be able to. Okay, but for one thing, I am DEFINATELY giving him the gift tomorrow.

He was so sweet in the morning today, but too bad it didn't work out. So we have first period spares but I came later today. What does he do? He walks to my house in hope of walking me to school! But my mom just dropped me off at school awhile later. Like I saw him walking, but I thought he was walking to MacDonalds! Sigh* Time is such an important factor, eh? He was like..planning to surprise me. Meh. My mom's curiousity of what's going on is even greater now. But she thinks he's the one who's after me, when I'm the one who likes him. She thinks he is and she can be right, after all she's so good in telling what happens all the time.

Ever since the beginning of the year, this week, he has been asking me why I'm so shy or something whenever he wants me to do something and I'm unwilling to do it because I'm shy. Or simply when he wants to do something (i.e. skip class to watch my presentation), I won't let him because I'm nervous. So like in some ways, he wants me to be more opened or something. My friend says that he wants me to tell him, but I don't know. All these hints, all in a matter of 2 weeks from today.

Heh, I feel like telling him tomorrow when I give him the gift. But I'm not sure. Heh. Stuff happened today. Not good. He got into a huge argument with another member of our group work and yea. Then I got into an argument with my friend who was a total jerk to me. So after I yelled at him with Chloe screaming at him beside me, Dean argued with him. Like we are there for one another all the time. Heh. The girl on msn, she asked if I was good friends with Dean or something. It was a bit awkward. Then again, it's probably because I convinced him to talk to the teacher about it and like in class, he has ice cream. And he told me I should try it, but I was shy. He was eating it, but like I don't want to do that in front of everyone. Especially when it looked like he was going to feed it to me.

He's so sweet, but when he's pissed, it's scary. Glad that he was still talking to me though. While he ignored everyone else. I felt like giving him a hug, but then that's a bit off, since it's not like I'm the one depressed or anything. I hope you get what I mean. But on MSN, he was like "as long as you're happy, i'm happy". Then he has this concert thing hes trying to hold in May and I said I can help him, and then I found out it's only us 2. He tells me after. Meh. It's like, we're good friends, only. Then it's like, but I still like him. I don't know.

But you guys were right. After the "date" thing on Thursday, we are closer in some ways. We don't call one another up to just talk, but like, I can just tell.

[*liquidize*]

yeah, you should hand your virginity over to him on a platter!

[seremela_culnamo]

yeah, you should hand your virginity over to him on a platter!

What?! I like him and want to be with him, not to lose my virginity! o.O

[seremela_culnamo]

I don't know what to do. Semi-formal is on the 2nd of February and everyday since Thursday, he will ask me if I'm going. No wait, he asked if I was going and I told him I'm not because I don't dance and such. He knows I don't but he doesn't believe me and kept on saying that I should go because it will be really fun. Everyday since then. So I don't know. I assume he's going because he said it will be fun and stuff, but if I do, what's the point, right? It's not like he's asking me to go with him. He just thinks I should really go.

Then the topic of prom got brought up yesterday. I told him I wasn't going to that either and then for the next few minutes, he tried to convince me to go and then got into all these crazy ideas of making me go and such. I really don't know. Argh, what does he want? It's not like he's asking me to go with him. Even if he wants me to, he's not saying it directly. So if he does, is it because he's just shy or not sure since I have been planning not to go to either ever since grade 9?

My friends said I should go and if I do, I should go with him. But that's awkward..especially if they aren't going to semi-formal. & won't it be weird if all of a sudden, I will say I will go, but if he doesn't ask me to go with him or something? Hmm..

Guys are confusing ><

[*mipadi*]

It's fairly clear he wants you to go. He would probably like to go with you, but isn't asking for some reason, either out of shyness, or because he thinks you don't want to go.

[seremela_culnamo]

We aren't going to semi-formal anymore. A lot of people aren't going, so yea. It's too late to buy tickets anyway. As well, we both didn't really feel like going in the end.

Well, we are best friends now. On Friday, the night before, I ranted stuff out on my webpage. My friend saw it and said she will print it out and let him see it, since I'm too scared to ask him about what's going on. It seemed like a good idea, but then after he got it, I realized that I didn't mean some of the things I said. After all, I was just ranting and said stuff that I didn't want to happen. Anyway, basically, it said stuff like I wanted to give up on my friendship with him because I didn't want to hurt him in any way, like how I never open up to him and such. So it didn't go too well. He didn't try to show it when I was around, but he was really depressed and took it out on one of our friends in class. Then he had try-outs after school, and my friend told me that he wasn't himself at all. I felt worse than ever.

So one of my other good friends calls him to make sure he's okay and she tells him that I didn't mean anything I said in the update. That he should open up to me and call me if he decides to. He does and we talked for an hour. We finally opened up to one another. It started off with him asking me questions, then I asked him questions back, and vice versa.

He said that he isn't ready for a relationship right now because he doesn't want the same thing to happen with his ex (last year when they broke up. he moved here last year though. they broke up sometime around this month last year). Basically she cheated on him because he was moving too fast for her or something. Anyway, after their break up, he was really depressed and somewhat, almost went suicidal like and had to visit the therapy, take medicine and all that. But now he's completely fine again. So he said that he didn't want that to happen, and that one day, he will be willing to get into a relationship again. Instead, we are best friends now. Still good :]

So we made the conclusion that we would start off fresh as best friends, but in the sense we know one another and all that. Then he said that we will keep that up, and then one day in the future, we will see where our friendship brings us to. Like of course, we will be even closer and all, but can that mean from what he said about how our friendship my carry us further, mean that the only thing thats keeping us apart from being "together" is because of his past? O-well. I don't want to think of it too much because I don't want my hopes up and all that again. Haha, but we did make one another feel special when we told one another that the other was one another's fastest friend of the opposite gender to be this close :] After all, we have both known another just less than a semester, though it could've been a year, but we were both too shy to approach one another last year =P Haha. Yes, like he said, "we were meant to meet" =D

Whelp, that's all I have to say. Haha. It was fun when I went over to his house on Saturday though.

His room makes mines look as though a tornado just went past

[subtle_profanity]

Aww, that's sweet. Even if you guys aren't in a relationship now, I wish you luck. =)