Createblog Diary, V.7 Options

[lisaaaaaaa]

dear CB diary,

i'm doing so bad in math. i have a d+, and i don't get anything at all. well. sort of. also, today in french, we finally recieved the chocolate to sell! haha. i got 30 to sell, for the quebec/montreal trip.

my friend and i went door to door selling. we were out there for an hour and half, and we only sold FIVE. my mom felt sorry for us, so she bought 6. 3 from each.

i've been feeling so lonely lately. i feel like this christmas, i should <b>BE</b> with someone. i already have someone in mind, but i'm pretty sure that he doesn't like me back. blah.

this guy really likes me, and i feel really bad, because i only think of him as a friend. he's really nice and sweet and stuff, but i just don't want to like....be with him. he asked me out about 2 weeks ago. i said no, because yeah. i just wanted to stay friends. :/

OHMYGOSH. 2 more days, and WINTER BREAK STARTS. yayyyyyyyy. i really need it. school has been so stressful -_-

-lisa

[*jooleeah*]

nicole: thanks.

dear cb diary,
i'm losing it. i have been selfish, bitchy, and moody.
i feel terrible.

i've been acting like a huge baby. last night, i cried myself to sleep...in front of my mother. how pathetic.

i wish i had held that in. but i guess getting angry was the last straw. i want to take all of this responsibility off my shoulders.

i am so disappointed in myself. really...i am. i need to stop pitying myself.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

i hate being sick. ugh.
and i wanna rant about stuff (more like people) buuut i don't know who reads this...but i'm a little annoyed by some people because they're being complete morons but meh. they'll get screwed in the end so whatever. lol.

[m.ar.i.a]

dear cb diary

i made a new cb id today, but im still gonna use the old one as well... thats alowed right?
2 more days til winter break! :D

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

i'm putting too much into just seeing him.

even though i really really really wanna today.
i don't know.

Maia
xoxo

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

aaaahhhh i looovvveee hiiiimmmm. Today at lunch we all hung out in that hallway at the right side of the school alone. it was me, Cami, Taylor, Aaron, Jacob, that other kid, and Katlynn. We just talked, and Cami and I went picture crazy. We had fun. We took this one picture where we sat on a painting of this naked guy and stared at his, um. yeah.
So then Kitty came over. She was annoying the shit out of me. She was like "uhh. Hi jacob. Omg. Fine. DON'T SAY HI TO ME. Gosh. COME ON KATLYNN, LETS LEAVE"
So then her and Katlynn left, and Cami followed them. So then it was me+jacob and aaron+taylor. Haha, how cute. The two couples. We got so nervous but we just sort of sat down and talked, the four of us. Then me and Taylor started to play around and chase eachother. And, uh, yeah. It was a fun day.

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

ohhh that's a hot picture of him. DAMN.
shit i miss him so badly.

but omgosh that boy is sooo damn fiiiiine. i wanna marry him & have his beautiful kids.

Maia
xoxo

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

sigh. this week wasn't quite as good as i hoped. spirit week was okay. got sick and feel like shit. he's sick too and i know he said its nothing and i know its probably just him being tired/sick etc. but he's looked so upset all week and it makes me sad...i wanna make him happy. and he said its not that he's not happy but...i don't know. i wanna be able to cheer him up like he cheers me up...
i hope tomorrow turns out.

[*not_your_average*]

Juliaaaa: *BIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGG* Bigger than the biggest hug in the entire universe/galaxy.
Dani: *BIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGG* Bigger than the biggest hug in the entire universe/galaxy.

Dear cB diary,
Ugh. School has been sososososo stressful, with finals and everything. At least I got my US History one out of the way. I know the Algebra exam isn't until Tuesday, but I am freaking out about that particular exam. I really, really am. I'm screwed in Algebra.

Aaaand, I wanna do makeup for Deborah! :D I think it'd be so much fun, and she'd look so prettyful. She already has great features, she just doesn't know it. ;o Hehe.

-Radhika

[m.ar.i.a]

dear cb diary
im kinda depressed today :(
1 more day til winter break!!

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
I'm so fking bitter; how could Cornell accept someone that smokes, drinks, does drugs, etc and is not that bright? Oh wait, she's a girl, so that makes sense.
Same goes for the MIT girl that's a minority. Those factors seem to outweigh her obviously low average.
Gah, why couldn't Columbia have accepted me? I am so bitter, seeing all these people I know get accepted. Especially if they're less than qualified...

[*jooleeah*]

Dear cB diary,
f**k. I am an emotional rollarcoaster.
I need to stop myself from crying today. It'll be the first time so far this week.
I wonder how I'm getting to winter formal after school.

Um. I think I'm becoming what I've always hated. A self-pitying bitch. wow....

Radhika: I love you. Thank you.

[*torngemini*]

Dear CB DIARY,

I need another attempt at Christmas shopping. I already have in mind about what to get my brother and a couple of friends but I am having trouble finding something for my best friend. I need to get her something incredible, something to show that because of her I wouldn't be the smily girl you people see today because she's been there through it all with me especially with the troubles of this early year and that tough tough tough tough month in August. I need something that will show there that I really do love her and show just special her friendship means to me but what do I get for someone like that?!?!? Why the hell am I so incompetent in shopping for people?!? LOL. ("because you touch yourself at night" as Moe Moe always says).

******

It's strange seeing people of my past. Especially ones that I haven't talked to in years. It's strange how one "hi" can lead to a long long conversation and lead to a "smoking buddy" or a potential good friend. It's nice in a way to be able to meet new friends, especially ones that you think you wouldn't ever be friends with but in my own little twisted mind, it hurts because it brings back painful memories of someone I met in my past that returned a couple of times leading to something that I thought was going to last. It's always sad how one little thing that could potentially make a person be closer to happiness still remind them of something that will just make them sadder. Usually to me, whatever happiness you had in the past will stay there and it's hard to get them back.

"I stumbled out into the courtyard to try to fee my misery, but of course we can never flee our misery"
-A quote from "Memoirs of a Geisha

******

Other than all that emo bullshit ... I am sooooooo glad that my bio final is done and over with. I don't want to think about it anymore. I might have failed it but I'll face that doom when the day comes ... for now it's on to Chemistry and I know I have much more fun with chemistry because I'm better at it. I'm looking forward to the weekend and to Monday because after my chemistry final I can relax, play some video games and celebrate a birthday of a friend.

******

I think the book I'm reading after Memoirs of a Geisha is "Da Vinci Code". I'm almost done with "Memoirs of a Geisha". I've just been reading it on and off because of finals. I barely have any time to do any extra reading but I am ALMOST done. I think I only have a few chapters left and I'm curious as to how it ends. But yeah ... DaVinci Code. I just saw the trailer for it and it looks wicked. I guess I just want to know about this whole conspiracy thing even though I'm not really sure what it is about ... all I know is that it is something to do with religion. Even though I am somewhat agnostic and all, I still have an open mind to religion since I am still exposed to my so-called "Catholic" background just because it is affiliated with my family. My mom actually read the book and she said it was really really good so yeah ... that's my next choice.

[*Weird addiction*]

I love him, i love him! He's the love of my life...but
there's a but, i don't know what it is...

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

ohhhhh it's the weekend bitches! (for me anyway) and
lalalalalalaimissyouuuuulalalalalalala

nuthin else to say except MERRY XMAS yall.

Maia
xoxo

[me1issaaaa]

DREW'S FLYING IN TOMORROW!!!!!!!!


I get to hold him and touch him and kiss him and hold his haaaaaaand in front of everybody and I get to squeeze him and play with his hair and go to sleep with him holding me and...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm so excited, but I'm so nervous.


Shit. What am I going to wear?! $#JKIG)O)#$$%*$EWR(IJOK%$)O

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

fun day. last day of school.
he gave me chocolates. i feel bad for not getting him anything. but i swore i was over the break. swear
we hug for long time after school. LONG TIME.
we almost kiss but get shy.
me and taylor go to winter concert at school. courtney sing veryveryveryvery good solo in front of many people.
me go to mommy house tommorow.

byebye.
- cassie

[redpeony]

Dear cB Diary,

this is the only day of my winter break that I get to sit around and do nothing. I love days like this. I just finished wrapping all the gifts and I need to finish writing cards... 15 more to go! Ahhhhh. My hand hurts.

I miss my boyfriend. I miss his big bear hugs. 3 more weeks. That is a mother truckin long time. At least I'm going to be super busy this break so it'll go by quicker. Tomorrow night is Keiko's Christmas party.. it should be interesting socializing with adults and old people! Hahaha.. me and --- get ourselves into very interesting things.. but I love it. I've seen so much this year. Monday night is ---'s party and then Tuesday probably some shopping with ---. Wednesday through Saturday is straight work.. but much needed because I NEED MONEY! Saturday night I gotta go to a church function.. but I really want to meet up with --- and hang out with him! I miss hanging out with him. Next Monday is the Canucks game with --- which I am So very excited abouttt! And Tuesday to Saturday is Winter Conference. Still don't know what's up for New Year's Eve yet.. but I don't really feel like getting smashed. After that is pretty much school time again..

quick break.. not really a break, even. My life is so hectic right now.. so many things to do.. and yet I'm so lazy. I gotta start working harder and get into University. Make some time during my break to do my homework..

Ahhhhhhhh. Main thing is I just wish my boyfriend was here so I could talk to him on the phone all night and have him hug me from behind while looking at the stars... but knowing that's not possible, I think I should just live my life and enjoy my break.. email and talk to him on the phone a few times, maybe send him stuff if I find out his address.. but yeah, that's basically it. I hope he misses me as much as he said he would.

That is all.

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

adsgkjaldgkj how am i going to explain this? please mommy, daddy, everyone, please just understand. ok? please please please that's all i want.
thank you so much.


i miss himmmmmmmmm & i wanna be his girl. damnnnn it's like he always in my head. wth i need to get over him. there's like 124983597 ppl out there and it's still him.

Maia
xoxo

[emazing]

Dear cB Diary,
It irks me when posers go around blasting their radios to the fullest volume possible.
:X It's stupid, really.
-
I can't wait until Christmas.
I can't wait until tomorrow is over.

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

he is so prettyyyy. haha that doesn't make sense but still. i wanna love him so so so so so so much.

ugh i haven't seen him in a long longgg time & it's f**king me up.

Maia
xoxo

[m.ar.i.a]

dear cb diary

i bought this self mixing mug or something for my dad and i really dont think he will like it ... so im gonna go refund it today. with my mom. -_-

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,

My winter break so far has been fantastic! Friday was a blast, even in school, although I failed my Bio test, literally. But then again, it was the hardest test everyone said they'd ever taken, so I didn't waste time over it =] On the bright side, I think I did pretty well on the history final..our teacher was really nice about it surprisingly. Then we had no Theory of Knowledge class thank goodness, so I was able to go home. I tried to sleep, but that didn't work.

Christina came over and I got ready and we went to the winter party. What fun! I really was not looking forward to it all, but I had one of the best times. Friends are wonderful. I loved watching the gingerbread house making, baking cookies, and running around for ingredients. I loved opening presents for Dirty Santa, I laughed soo much! Secret Santa was fun, too, except for one part which made the night a little sour. I hate when I tell people things and they don't believe me..I wanted to say, told you so!, so many times, but that would've made me look bad =P

Saturday was an also fun time! Jamie's surprise party was then and I loved it. We all got to hang out again and talk and watch movies and sports. Funn stuff, except for some people thought someone and I were dating or something. Um, no! Lol. I had a great time laughing and talking.

Sunday was fun too, even though I didn't do much. Some family friends came over and I got to open more presents! I got a new journal which looks soo pretty! I'm looking forward to starting a new one :) And the Avalanche won!

Today has been pretty okay too..got to spend time with the family a bit. And I got a little haircut, which I adore. I loved the way the stylist styled it at the end..it was nice and wavy/curly..I could never do that in a million years! lol, too bad I took a shower tonight. Anyways, tomorrow should be fun as well!

I love breaks! I love sleep!

--Teesa

[xblueradiance]

Dear CB Diary,

Memories. Change.
I really don't know why I keep thinking about my past, and thinking about how I should change myself, be less boring. What am I so afraid of? It seems like I have so many fears, but really, all the emotional fears all end up and come from one fear... and I just can't locate it.
I'm not depressed right now. I'm just in a pensive, thoughtful mood. I just think I'm not doing enough. I want to change myself. I want to work harder. But no. The most important thing I need is determination. I just shake my head at myself in the mirror. Try harder. Just try. And it has to work. The more you try... I mean, it's not like the saying, "You can be anything you want to be =D" or "Anything you dream of will come true!" No... That's not it at all. What I need isn't soem stupid quote from Disney World. Hah. What I need is...

Well, myself.

[redpeony]

Today was good times. Got to sleep in til 11:30 until my manager gave me a call to ask if I could work tonight. I turned her down really rudely and then realized how much of a b*tch I was benig and apologized. Haha... then I woke up and started making food that I was gonna bring tonight.. took a long while and it wasn't too successful but It's all good. Went to ---'s at about 6, arriving with ---. The girls arrived first and then the guys came by with a cake because some of them just got off work. We ate a loooooot and then me and --- went down to Choices to get eggnog.. opened our secret santa presents, watched the hockey game, then watched a movie. I love my friends.

I kind of wish my boyfriend would call me, though.