createblog diary, v.6 Options

[BrokenDream]

dear cB diary,
I am getting sick of all these stalkers. first, my Mom asked me, "What are you on?" for about the 5th time, my friend Will calls me and asks, "What's up?" like he wants to really, really know, and etc, and etc.

I need my privacy, people! especially on the computer. this is a diary. I figured out my mom was looking at my diary. ooooh. Mom just asked again!

STOP!

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
Today is Stephen and my 1 year anniversary. Today was good so far, Thanksgiving Parade then lunch and then Rent <3. But I wish I could go home with him and eat Thanksgiving dinner with his family. Ah well, definitely next year <3.
Meh, I hate my mom. So f*cking much. All she does is complaing about how stupid I am, how I don't care about anything, how I don't even get accepted into my safety schools because I'm so stupid blah blah blah. I cannot wait to get out of here, wherever I go. Arg, they agitate me so much.
Meh, busy this week, and I really really need to get my apps done ASAP. I want to have fun.
Happy Thanksgiving!

[yourfriendsteph]

cB diary,
well today the madness of holiday shopping begins. my parents are currently out and about fighting around and with all the other insane shoppers. I feel very happy to be home, eating turkey, and on cB. Today should go pretty good, tonight even better. I'm burning an Awesome 80's CD for the car ride wherever my friends and I go...I'm excited!

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

Dear cB diary,
I miss him so much. It's too bad that the temperature is cold out. His father yelled at him for dressing too gangster in the cold or in his dad's eyes. Dressing in "feminine wear" I miss him terribly. I need a neck kiss
Sincerly, Me<3

[*danielle_x3*]

dear diary,
well, happy thanksgiving.
i'm thankful for all of my friends and definately family, especially during times like these. with the start off as the holiday season, it makes me realize that my father won't be here for christmas, or new years, or anything anymore. but he'll be with my in spirit, always. ALWAYS ALWAYS. i miss my dad a lot, sometimes i still think he's alive, and i'd wake up to him or something. but whatever, he's up there, not suffering anymore. my first thanksgiving without my father was lonely. i missed him a lot, and so did my mom. but he's watching over us. bleeeeeh diary. and my 'best friend' ditched me, i was so mad! but whatever, bye !

[*not_your_average*]

Dear CB diary,
Whatever happened to the cB chat? It used to kick ass with all the cool people in it. Now it's just dead. I miss all the people that used to come. Seriously. I want the old chat back.

[teeners4]

oww it hurts >< i didnt think it'd hurt so much. like it started out with you all over me and i was a bit scared, didnt want to take the risk. and now.. a little too late i realize i want to take the risk. and i think i love you. maybe i didnt. i dont know if i ever even knew the real you. how could you not tell me you stopped feeling this way? like seriously, i just noticed it recently and we just don't have time for each other. it's bad enough we go to different schools but we both have such busy schedules and lives... i guess it was bound to happen. but its so ironic. i thought i would end it, and i did, kind of. i finally took the initiative and i tried to hint it. but then i realize you already stopped feeling this way a while ago. why didn't you tell me then? why wait till now? it hurts so much. i never thought i'd cry over a guy. i never realize how people were in these situations, and now i do. and it hurts a lot.

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
OMFG..Can't believe parents are making me quit ROTC..I'm going to rebel on this..Even if they kick me out of the house..I am not letting them do this, ROTC is a huge part of my life..ROTC is going to be part of my future..I'm not letting them ruin my future..No way is that happening while I'm standing and alive..NO WAY..I think what they did is ENTIRELY their fault..Its not my fault for getting cramps..Sheesh..Mom should have at least understood..I don't care about my family that much...Seems like my family is adding more stress then my social life right now...Gosh..Hmm...I'm starting to realize who the right person might be for me..I don't know..Very confused..Don't want to hurt more people...I was sooo nervous and couldn't sleep till around 2:30 in the morning..It was nice of J to keep me company..He didn't have to...He made me see things I couldn't have saw by myself..He's really great...But maybe thats because we're friends and not bf/gf..I don't know..Maybe we're better off this way, although he really cares about me..He'll eventually move on and find someone better then me..Right now he doesn't understand that, but I know he soon will...
Hmm..Having 3 people like/love you at the same time is really stressful..I don't need more stress in my life at the moment...But I can't exactly tell them to get lost...So...What am I going to do?Ahhhhh..I should stop thinking about this..
Tomorrow's the parade..Hopefully I don't faint...I don't want J to worry about me...Grr...He's too nice sometimes..Even after how I treated him..He definately deserves someone better...
My life right now is screwed up real bad..So bad to the point where I can't sleep and where I start crying for no reason...I feel really weak right now...Both mentally and physically..Grr..Something is wrong with me..I kind of have the symptoms to depression, but I can't tell anyone that..Especially my parents cuz they don't care..I remember when I told them I was depressed, they said "go head, kill ur self..we wont miss u.."cant believe it..hmm...
going to try and sleep now..
good night..
--Nancy--

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

he came back. for thanksgiving break. OMFG I AM SO HAPPY. ASKDFJSDAKFJKG. i am so in love with him, and i don't even know why...

Maia
xoxo

[aera]

Dear cB Diary,

yesterday was so fun.

i did all my christmas shopping.

[BrokenDream]

dear createblog diary,

So, I'm back! Yay! The trip was exhausting. I know I am a little late. Considering I hav been back since yesterday. -shrugs- Anyho, the whole trip was amazing. I saw beautiful images and it was just...wow. I'm glad to be back. Home sweet home. Ahhh. -breathes in- -breathes out-

[*jooleeah*]

dear cB diary,
i love my friends. i really do. including the cB ones.

at 9 i'm going to get off and start thinking of christmas presents.

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

he left today. i am so sad. i just have something for him that i can't help no matter what...

i hope he'll be back for christmas break.

i am looking at a week ahead full of STRESS. seriously, at least 3 major shit is due, and i am so behind on all of it. i just wanna get my finals over with NOW.

Maia
xoxo

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

Went to the mall yesterday. Had lots of fun. Long story short, here's the summary:

left at 1. long drive. long wait for parking. got in about 2-ish. sanrio. cell phone stickers. spent giftcard at pacsun, bought some cute underwear (3 pairs). claire= beanie. Hot topic, very long time. Chatted with the clerk for awhile. he was nice. bought two shirts and some striped gloves. American eagle- shirt. Aeropostale, everything in the store was half off. woohoo! bought two sweaters, mom said they looked good on me. she actually helped me buy them. went to gadzooks for a bit, bought a green off the shoulers sweater with a design on the front. gray beret from wet seal. oh yeah, and i got an eeyore plushie from the disney store.

overall i had a good time. i spent alot, though. I've only got about 10 bucks left. I'm going back to dad's tommorow. In a way, I don't want to go back. Something is telling me i had homework to do that I didn't do over the break. Blah. I don't want to go back to school.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB diary,
wow this thanksgiving holiday has been the longest yet...its been terrible....well the days i've been here they've been terrible...i feel like dirt because SHE treats me like dirt. i dont know why i dont just move away...im so stupid...i guess i got to stop blaming her one day eh? i guess it really is my fault...i guess i shouldnt have caused her to clean my already CLEANED bathroom....again...thats my fault...*woops har har...thats just terrible.....grr i still have these stupid trial questions i have to do...so yeah...i better get to sleep so i can do it tommorrow...good night cB

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

f**king 48 percent? shutup. don't try to help me, please. you're all just making me feel ten times worse. I'M JUST f**king NOT SMART IN ANYTHING MATH RELATED, OK???? i don't even want to be. so please stop being so concerned. kthanks.

and by the way, i won't talk about how i'm feeling. i just can't. i'm so sorry, but i can't. and i won't. so please... just stop and leave me alone. i've made up my mind.

Maia
xoxo

[Mulder]

dear cb diary,
i apparently have no control over my own body. i have told my mom taht i dont want an endoscope, but apparently that doesnt matter. im getting one.

i might even have to have surgery. which sucks.

o yea. i failed a history test. there goes my average. my teacher was dissapointed in me..

ughh.

i want my A back!

-michelle.

[yummy_delight]

^ I'm sorry, Michelle. Hope the surgery goes well.

Dear Diary:

First day of school after break today and oh! how disheartening it is to come back after a week of sleeping in till noon and doing nothing whatsoever.

I've noticed that boys are all talk but no action. It seems like I'm getting more play on AIM than in real life. They're willing to say all kinds of things to me online, but they barely make eye contact and only make scant conversation when I see them around school. Is it me? Maybe I'm pretty on the inside, but I'm hideous on the outside. I don't even know anymore. I'm sure that I'm the problem, but I don't know how to fix it.

Why is it that everyone except me hooked up over break?

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

what the fcuk. it was such a good long weekend. it really was.
then they go fcuk up the end of it as always. its nothing much but no, they just like to ruin everything. they make me feel like shit and treat me like i'm 10 years old. sometimes i wish i could just die in some mundane way to say "ha, it doesn't take anything remotely dangerous to off someone." but no, no...they must be ridiculous about everything. for gods sake, anything could happen anytime, anywhere, it doesn't fcuking matter.
i'm sick of this bullshit. i'm sick of being treated like this. you say i'm growing up and shit but you never treat me that way. fcuk it. fcuk you all.

i just want to live my godamn life away from you and on my own.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
wow today started out terrible...for some odd reason my eyes were leaking so badly this morning...tears just kept streaming from my eyes...it was terrible...ah well...i finished my trial questions today during third block...lols thats a relief right? well tommorrow is the freaking trial. i'm kind of nervous and not really in any kind of mood for any type of trial...lets just pray that my day starts off well. please please please let it start off well....i need to do well on this trial thing or my grade will go down... gosh..i've been trying to hard lately to pass all my classes...im trying really hard for biology...it's hard as crap... grr...ah well...i just take my mind off things by going boom headshot! which im about to do right now....ciocio

[*jooleeah*]

dear cB diary,
Everybody has some sort of special talent, right? Then...what is mine? I've been through dancing, playing the piano, violin, and goh zhen. I've tried chinese painting, soaring academically in school, etc etc. None of the seem to stick. I'm no good at any of that shit that "asian kids" are supposed to do.
There's nothing special about me. Alex can sing, Christina can draw, blahblahblah. What about me? I can't do shit. Everyone has found their "special talent" already. When is mine going to pop up?

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

ugh. i hate coming home and realizing i look all crappy. maybe it's because i put too much emphasis on how i look. i know it's sad, but it seems like that's where all my confidence comes from.

sometimes i don't feel like hanging out with certain friends, and for no reason. i feel lik i'm taking advantage of people.

ugh.

Maia
xoxo

[yummy_delight]

Dear CB Diary:

I am foolish because I think with my crotch.

- Boring Lauren

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
wow..i never knew i can survive a whole day with only 3 hrs of sleep...i guess stress makes me stay awake...i know im not going to be able to sleep tonight at this rate...i feel tired, but i cant sleep...unless someone knocks me out or i take sleep medicine...which im probably not...
my gosh...everything is stressing me out...parents, grades, friends...ROTC is also kind of stressing me out..and the thing is i cant cry and let it out...no tears flow...i just cant sleep...its going to only be a little more before i have a breakdown...i know it..i dont want to eat food as much anymore...i dont care about myself anymore...i have to heal my heart before i cant start being truely happy..and i know that wont be for a while..hmm the song that best describes me right now is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson...Confused too much...Its not even funny...Can't believe how many fake smiles and fake laughs i did...its just not right...should do homework...need to stop procrastinating...especially since no one is going to be able to remind me to do hw except me..
--Nancy--

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

I seriously feel like shiznit right now. Drama? A lot. My life would be SO much easier without school. :[

- Kelly