createblog diary, v.6 Options

[*mzkandi*]

originally started by faithin_felix.

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Dear cB,
My first quiz is tommorrow. I may have to pull an all-nighter tonight. Hopefully not....

[shortiiex]

Dear cB diary,
i finally admitted to a person who i liked that actual knows him
finally got it off my chest...it just sucks i never get to see him

[*jooleeah*]

chrissy and steph- thanks guys. hopefully i'll get to the doctor by the weekend. =) thanks very much.

dear cb diary,
school couldn't get any worse. why do teacher have to all of a sudden pile up things before a break? it's just stupid and it rushes things- which isn't good. i had so much homework to do today- but no, i had to stay afterschool for freaking orchestra. I hate orchestra so much sometimes- but it was nice to hear the symphonic orchestra/philharmonic orchestra play. they did really well- Katherine and Stephie were really good. I feel bad for the people who got their personal items stolen...that must suck so much.

I hate all this coughing. I've been coughing SO much. I need to go to the doctor. Uhg.

you know what was depressing though..? finding out your grandmother was in the hospital for the 5th millionth time. I'm so scared. Again. This is what happens when I don't think about things clearly...and it just goes to show that anything can happen at any moment without you knowing it.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary.

WHY ME??

please, read this.
i am fighting with them, again. yeah thats right. cami and me. taylor and me. courtney and me.
all of them are fighting with me and it is all my fault.
i let it all get to me. i let all of my insecurities get to me and it put me in the wrong place.
i was so mad today, i sat there in my sweats and bad hair, and yelled at all of them.
now im fighting with three girls on myspace messages.
they all are telling me how pretty i am, and i just push them away. they try to help and i dont care.
im crying again. for the second time today.
but this time, they dont care.
WHY DO I DO THIS TO EVERYONE? i ruin my .. i mean their .. i mean..

I HATE ALL OF THIS.

all i do is make friends, complain tht im not as pretty as other people, get made fun of, complain, complain alot, get pissy, fight, depression for the rest of the year.

this happens tome wherever i go. i hate california. i wish i would have never moved here. in louisiana no matter how ugly i was they all still loved me.
in louisiana they had nice black people who liked you for whoever you were. in california they're just a bunch of stuck up gangsters who hate anyone that has white blood in them.
california sucks.
i remember the day i moved here in 5th grade. my first day of school here. they hated me. everyone here is just so stuck up.
i got made fun of for being the stupid hillbilly louisiana kid andhad no friends in 5th grade.
6th grade was shit. i was friends with brandi, bvut we got in fights every day and i always ended up crying. thats all i ever do.
7th grade. shit.
and now

im ruining it for me. i am on the edge now. i dont know what to say. this is all too confuzing. i have no support anymore. all i do is complain. i am no good.

f**k. goodbye createblog.
i will be gone for a few days. *runs off quietly*

- cassie

[Bobblehead425]

Dear cB Diary,

I like to think I love him, when I know it isn't true. But sometimes you have to take a detour. Today I *added him as a friend on myspace * ha. sends shivers.

[Retrogressive]

This is very much needed:


CASSSSSSSSSSIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We DO support you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Aoiro]

Dear cB,

Actually, Cassie. Noes! Don't leave! Your friends don't even seem like friends, they fight with you and seem not to understand you. We've done that all the time, but we worked things out. Those people are just bitches. The don't deserve you. You're pretty, truly, and very! We all want you back...

[redpeony]

I honestly don't think I'm going to get into University...
my history mark is ridiculous... :(
But man.. I have gotten so many lucky breaks for school.. that Geo essay, the English assignments, Math test, not having to present today...

I really, really need to start working hard. Tomorrow night-- come home from work and STUDY! Sunday-- go for the run and then to the library with bf to STUDY!

It made me a little sad tonight when he asked if I would still go out with him when he leaves. When. So It's for certain. I'm not going to do anything to try to stop him; of course I wouldn't. But I don't have much faith in long distance relationships... and blah. But then again that's in a while, and for now I should just enjoy being able to spend every other day with him. I love him.

[Retrogressive]

Dear CB diary,

Finally getting it.
There's this fish who lived in a little fountain on our porch, his name was Richard. He lived there for two years all alone in his little square fountain. He died today. He died alone, never knowing what it felt like to have someone who understood him. God- it's depressing.

I finally understand why people post lyrics on there xangas- because it hurts too much to write about. Wanna know something? I've never held her- she always pushed away. And he's dating someone prettier, thinner, and better than I'll ever be. And we all die eventually.

You know what I want more than anything in the world? I want a boy to just hold me, I want to bury my face into his shoulder and I just want to cry. That's, that's absolutely all. I don't want eternal bliss, I don't want millions of dollars. I just want that one moment that I will never have. Maybe it's psycological... fooling myself that I was a lesbian. But it all hurts so bad to be rejected constantly because I don't look like everyone else. I'm not asking for a boy to fall in love with me... even though God would that be nice... I just want to be held right now. I've never been held. God, now I'm f**king crying... I'm not supposed to cry. Maybe it's all because I haven't eaten meat in a whole month, I feel eternally hungry living on eggplant... I just want to f**king kill myself.

[mzbbc]

cassie- don't you DARE leave cB. we love you, and cB is supporting you NO MATTER WHAT happens, ok? we love you and you are the sweetest thing ever come to cB, k sweetie?

dear cB diary,

damn that was so much fun.

i wish he was there... but i might have done something that i'd be regretting...

Maia
xoxo

[dancingkait]

dear cb diary

i have so many mixed feelings right now it's crazy. how have i managed to like two guys at once? one is so sweet and caring and only wants to make sure i'm happy. but he wants to stay best friends, which is fine by me. he acts like we're dating though, which doesn't really work out all the time. he gets so worked up about little things and worries. it just confuses me.
the other is..well he's sweet, kind, always knows the right thing to say, makes me smile, and i never stop when i'm around him. yesterday he picked me up to take me to harry potter and as we drove away he said to look in the glovebox, there might be a little surprise in it. in the glove box was the new harry potter soundtrack (he knew i really wanted it) and a sweet little note taped to it. we spent the whole night talking, giggling, smiling.
am i wrong to feel this way? i mean, technically i'm not dating the first guy, we're just friends. and he's made sure that nothing has changed and that we'll be friends for good. and i talk to the second one about everything, including this guy. it's still early, i know. but i have this feeling somethings going to happen. i hope things turn out okay :S

i hate being so confused...

--kaitlyn

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

Okay so I'm stuck at home today. I'm super bored with nothing to do but go on AIM and eat. How have I been doing? I've been okay. Like always, just okay. I mean, there isn't really anything that's REALLLLLLLY bothering me, that's like completely changing my mood. I'm just feeling okay. Yeah. I feel like something is missing in me. I don't know what it is. I just don't feel complete. I don't feel like I'm enough , I don't know..I don't feel like..jdhga I don't know what the word is. I compare myself to people way too much. Okay, I'm not even going to try and explain myself because the words are not coming out.

Anyway, I feel like I want to just call my quinceanera off. It's so stressful. I had no idea it was going to be like this. I have less than 3 months to get everything together and I pretty much have nothing. Maybe I should just have like a sixteen or nothing at all.

Okay lets talk happy. Yesterday, I went over to Lauren's house and we made shirts. We made one for cailtlin that says "potatoes" and i made one for me that says "beandip" and we made one for lauren that says "rice" because we're the potatoesricebeans association.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

my friends! i did not mean i was going to quit fully, i was just gonna be gone all day today. aww. you guys are still sweet.

lifestill sucks with friends. all of us are fighting.

ihad to take a 6 hour flight to Houston texas today because im visiting my mommy ver thanksgiving break !!! :D

imhappy. i can finally escape all that california dad and friends drama and relax with my other side of the family in the huge malls and targets of the third biggest city in the country and my birthplace: houston, texas <333 *waves to hetaher and frankie.i think they both live in texas*

im feeling much better now. i got a webcam and phone for my bday from her.
no more drama. no no no no more drama.
yay for one week off of school. goingback will be shit, though.

i went to target today with her and got some leg warmers, shoelaces, and a new sweatshirt that wasa purple with whiote paintstains all over it.

whew.

- cassie

edit: patricia! ahh ilu. we need to go out again. to the mall or something. you're always there for me. ooooh, when they have the next cb yearbook, we are so gonna win real life bestest friends, WHAT NOW?

[BrokenDream]

Cassie - you... forgot about me. I live in Texas! I'm glad you are feeling a little better. it's Melissa! Melissa!

dear cB diary,
well, tomorrow we are going to East Texas! I can't wait. the trip is going to be long. i long trips. it will be worth it. i cannot wait to see what the cabin will look like. i know i have to get some sleep tonight sometime... i might go to bed like at 12:00 or 1:00 AM. ...that isn't really "early" as you may call it but HAH whatever :]
-Me

[Nugget]

Dear cB diary,
Ugh, I didn't do shit today. It's so gay. I'm booked on projects and I hate my 'old friends'. Augh, screw them..

- Nga

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

wtf the wrong with me. i have shit to do and 7 days before finals. soooo f**king retarded. oh god.

well anyway i just wanna get finals over with and move on. things will be like 100000x better after that.

(((and he's f**king sexy)))

Maia
xoxo

[BrokenDream]

dear cB diary,
we are about to go to east texas! and i mean right now. i gotta go get in the shower though. this is going to be so much fun. whoops, gotta go.

later.
melissa

[*chaneun*]

dear cB diary.

lately, me and this certain person have been talking about someone.
they're a bitch.
i think im a cow.

[Herizon Action]

Dear CB Diary,
Lately I've been thinking about writing in here but I really wasn't sure if I should. Now that I am, I think that I forgot what I was going to write about, so now I'm just going to keep rambling about how I don't know what to write about and how I'm wasting my time writing this and you're probably wasting your time reading it. I wouldn't get why you'd want to read this, but it's not up to me to say that you're weird or not for reading it.

Dear cB diary 2!,
I'm going to be special and write about how I'm getting tired of reading about everyone's insecurities. I'm not saying that people shouldn't write about it, I'm just saying that they shouldn't treat their insecurity like it's more special than anyone else. Everyone is insecure, and the people who complain about it are probably the more secure ones, so in fact they're not that insecure at all. They're just silly attention whores looking for anyone to feed them what they long for.

[*chaneun*]

dear cB diary.
i keep thinking that herizon is a cell phone company.
um, i wish i were a mackdaddy like sandy mac.
and thats all.

-beatrice-

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,
So, it looks like I may be going to another school. I'll be going to check out the Art Insitute of Tampa tommorrow. I cant imagine going anywhere but USF, but Mom thinks transfering may be best route to go rather that moving to St. Pete. I dont know yet........

-K

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
So, I got my ACT scores yesterday, and I like them so much better than my SAT scores (34/36!) but I wonder if it's too late to send them to Columbia...
Well, I'm done with my UMich app, just need to make sure everything is OK before I submit. Now, I need to work on SUNY Stony, CUNY honors and the supplements to the common. Arg. Too much college stress.
I really feel that I'm coming down with senioritis... I haven't really done my work and I have to present a story tomorrow in AP Spanish Lit! Arg, and there's government; we finally have work but I'm not doing it. And then, I'm failing calculus. I have never done this horribly in a math class, so I guess this is a wake up call. I don't understand it though, I understand the material but I guess on tests, I freeze up... Meh, I reallly hope I can get a 100 on the quiz on Tuesday so my average isn't too bad and my parents kill me... Meh, we'll see.

[yourfriendsteph]

cB diary,
well i found out what really happened this weekend. i punched a guy in the face called him a rapist and made him cry. it was epic
love, steph

[*lolita kitty*]

dear you two,
no, i'm not mad at you. i know who you were talking about. im sorry, i'll shut up now.

dear cb diary,
today was fun, yo. we went to ehmovies, all 8 of us. we saw harry potter. i have never reead the books, and saw the first movie when i was like 10, but this one was surprisingly good. =)
being out with my family is fun. oh, and tayloe told me to call today. i was scared too. she has been really angry at me lately.

[*jooleeah*]

dear cb diary,
this weekend was pretty great. i think it was well-deserved, i haven't been out this entire month. i missed having a life.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
this is my first ever entry in the cB diaries! yayers!
i still havent officially told the guy i like that i liked him yet, and to tell you the truth, i really don't see why i should. he's just going to give me the "i just want to be friends" line and see me as another girl. i mean come on. lets admit it, i'm just me, and i'm only average. well, below average. i mean, i saw one of the girls that tried to talk to him, and she's a MODEL....goodness. that just turned my chances into dirt. i'm pretty darn bummed about it too. i was feeling so confident. and then all of that just comes crashing down. geez, i'm so pathetic. oh well, what other is there left to do? to change the subject. my sister is still killing me. i've done everything i could possibly do to try not to get her mad at me, and all the sudden, she gets mad at me for no reason. theres just nothing i can do anymore...i dont know. maybe ill just "suck it up" and "get over it". ah well..things just turn out that way don't they? gosh, sometimes i just want to give up. i'm just not motivated anymore. theres nothing i can do. maybe its all of this stress...i dont know...i guess i am stressed. im trying to do my best in school, yet im so slow....like mentally slow. i still need to do a lot of homework, but i'm such a procastinator...my procastination just kills me...i want it to go away!!! anyways...i've been playing a lot of CS lately. it helps me take my mind off of things and lets me cope with my stress by shooting people...hehe its fun...ah well...that is it for today.
QuyEnNiEe aka queen =*)