Please don't ignore me, ... Options

[doubleaxel1951]

It's about how like when your good friends ignore you & it hurts
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I am standing here. Waiting for you. Still waiting. I have been standing here for years. I patiently wait like a begger. Waiting out in the cold, patiently waiting. I feel so cold and a lone. One more knock on the door today. Do you answer?

You give no heed to me. I cry on your shoulder, yet you do not feel anything at all. Your shoulder is as dry as it was; it's like a sponge absorbing all my tears as if it were as dry as it started. I scream in your ear. You give nothing. Not even a twitch. I yell in your face. Yet, you still hear nothing. I am standing right here. Do you not see me?

I am discouraged, as usual. I sulk back into my position of meek knocking. I knock on the door. I've knocked 10,000 times. Maybe another one will work. Yet you give no attention to me. Maybe you're not there. Maybe I'm just knocking in vain. Maybe there is not a soul. Maybe you moved. I was too busy in knocking I did not notice that you have left years ago. Where are you? I try to seek you. Perhaps you're not there at all, perhaps I'm just putting my hope into nothing. Just nothing. Are you nothing?

I look inside. You are no where to be found. I leave and I am with nothing. All these years, all my time and effort, everything. Everything I loved, I gave it all up for you. But you were nothing all these years. Nothing at all. Nothing but something in my head. You weren't there. And now I am with nothing. Why did you leave me?

Maybe something is here, but I gave no heed to it because I spent all my attentnion on you, nothing. I turn around and find out something is there. Something has been waiting for me. Something extraordinary. Just waiting for me to open the door. They have been waiting there for years. I never noticed, since I spent all my time on you. They were to give up all hope, just as I did with you. I opened the door of my warmth and let them in. Why has it taken me so long to realize this?

When you are with nothing and when all else has failed you and you found out I was the only thing you had. I will tell you, I have been waiting for years, but you did not care. You wanted things that made you happy then and there, and I was just not one of them. So when you come back with your apologetic cries. I'm not sure wether to give heed to them? Answer the door? Leave you waiting for years? I am not sure. Only time can tell...
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