message to anyone, v. 14 Options

[mzbbc]

hey baby i think about you so much. that makes me so sad, when i know that it's not gonna be like it was. i am confident that you and me are perfect for each other. but if it wasn't for these f**ked up circumstances, we could be together.

[*Azarel*]

I don't fucking believe this.

[xTINAA]

Dear Teesa,
It was good to talk even though it was for a total of like what, ten minutes? Haha. I miss 'us'. Y'know, Teesa and Christina, always hanging out together, like inseparable, having all the inside jokes and everything. It's just different and hard. And it's only going to progress like that which makes me sad.
-Me.

Dear You,
I'm trying not to care. Trying to be happy. Really, I am. But I do care still. I still wonder when the next time we're going to talk is. Sad thing is that I'll actually wait online and talk to no one for hours just in the hopes that you'll come online and we'll talk, even if it was for five minutes, because to me, it's worth it. Is that crazy? I'm not sure what to think of this whole ordeal, what to do, what to feel even. Hah, that's a funny, odd thought. Not knowing how to feel. It's not exactly like it's something that can be controlled but honestly I don't even know what to feel or how to express how I feel. The limitations of language are quite constraining when trying to express your emotions. Maybe thats it? Maybe I say I love you but only because that is the closest word to express how I feel for you? Here I go again. Trying to rationalize everything. I'm trying to stop. I'm trying to just trust everything will go okay. But I can't. I don't know when we'll see each other next and that kills me. I don't know when we'll talk to each other next and that kills me. Not knowing is killing me. Not knowing what we are, how exactly you feel for me, what's going to happen, when I can see you, when we will talk again, what we'll talk about, just not knowing is killing me. I dislike how you can control my emotions by either doing something or by not doing something. Either way, you control whether or not I'm happy and that's not good, not healthy. But I can't stop it. I don't know how and I've been trying. Secretly, I still sometimes cry. I try not to let people know, pretend that things are looking up, that I'm doing well. It's not true and I'm getting quite sick of this act I feel like I have to put up. Why do I miss you so much...I miss you more than you could know. I think that if we were to see each other, I might even cry from being so ecstatically happy just to see you. I'm crazy huh? Crazy about you.
-Me.

[redpeony]

I hate my frickin pride... I hate how I'll refuse to call you... I hate how I always make sure I'm the last one to recieve the text. F*ck... it's frickin pathetic and really shouldn't matter when I love you this much. But even though It's gotten to the point where I feel miserable because I'm not hearing from you... I still won't call you.
Please call me... I know it's unrealistic and stupid because the only person's actions I can control are my own... and I'm being sooo retarded.. but it's just... my weakness. You might be getting the impression that I don't care but I do, so much. It's just my frickin stubborn, stupid personality... Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... and I miss you.

[Looow]

______,
Silly goose! "Silly MOOSE" Ahahahaha. Oh my I don't know why that made me laughs o hard. Oh how I love you so. Wow, I really miss talking to you how I used to. Talking to you like everydayyy and all my recent phone calls would say your name and i when we both used to fall asleep while talking on the phone late at night. blah.


_____,
Okay. I have a crush on you.


_____,
That was so sweet. =]

_____,
stop acting akward.

[ANG33ZY]

mybestbeezy,

omg your new picture is cool

we got the same kicks yo.

like me and c nah mean. he don't wanna get them dirty you know what i'm sayin.

but quit with that purp shit you gay for that cause drugs are bad, mmkay.

no wonder you got sent to that school you bopper.

but we could still be best buds like spongebob & patrick.

love,
angie

[*stephinika*]

agh. i feel like crying again. whyyyyyy!?

//edit.
to a different person/people:
eff youuuuuuuuuuu.

This post has been edited by stephinika: Nov 10 2005, 02:23 AM

[*salcha*]

You can get so far in life, you know? You think it's jumbled. It all makes sense.

Find yourself. If I ddin't give up on you, you shouldn't give up on yourself either.

[redpeony]

3 hour phone conversation... talking about things that I have never talked about to anyone. Really weird how it came when I was talking to Him and getting really emotional about it, huh? When I was apologizing for my pride, disappointed in myself for not taking charge... knowing that I let Him down... then you call. Little miracles, they are. Anyway. Man.. I meant everything I said. I hope you did too. That was insanely crazy... how you said things, told me you felt guilty for saying them right after,... how we both have different views of this relationship... I really can't quite digest this right now. I can't believe I talked to you on such a deep level. I know we got the whole sex thing over with, too. We'll see if you can respect me for my decision. It's so weird, how I feel so close to you-- closer than I've ever felt to anyone. I've told you things that up to this point existed only within the walls of my head. But I know that this is a typical thing for you... you always talk to people about things like this. But you tell me this is the first relationship where you actually cared... believe that you're putting more into this than I am. I obviously thought the opposite. I don't know... I have no definite answers, you don't either. Who has answers, anyway? Life would be boring if it was all planned out for us. So let's see what this all brings... and the one thing I do know is that I love you.

[misoshiru]

i'm completely torn beyond belief, ripped apart. god, if you're there, why do you do this to me. is this what you wanted? someone broken, who's always willing to try and get back up, but when i almost succeed, you throw something in my path again and trip me over? is this what you enjoy seeing? damnit. this is what makes me agnostic, because i can't stand to believe that there's a god out there who intervenes in the world, and can subject someone to this sort of emotional pain. or subject anyone in particular to this sort of emotional pain.

[*jooleeah*]

: Every time I hear that song, I think of you. All that's left are questions in my head. What we should've...could've..would've done? Why didn't you tell me before you left? Now you're just some stupid shithead jock. I don't even miss you. I just wish you would have told me earlier.
: I'm glad you haven't said anything. Do it already. What are you waiting for?
: Drugs will mess up your head. Please don't take them. You're too smart for that shit. I love you too much to let bad things happen to you.

[boobooxpp]

i really like YOU.

[gr00vyswordsman]

:)

[Skyline Drive]

So I kind of have this gut feeling that you are my soulmate.

[*Programmer*]

that's really messed up....no that's just really messed up! >< i can't believe you!

[*reflection*]

bye cb, i wont be coming back

[dancingkait]

why haven't you been the same fun cute guy that i fell for lately? believe me i still do like you but you've been different. and then i get annoyed about it and you really don't help. i know you're sorry about today but you seem to be like this all the time. pleease stop

eff you guys...im tired of being bugged.

[Nugget]

Oh, I think I like you. I mean, love you. lolz.

[NgocQuyen]

you're absolutely wonderful and i can't take my mind off of you

[silver-rain]

I knew I shouldn't have brought it up. But, strangely, I don't really care that much. So what? I know that we'll make up later and it wouldn't matter. I just hate how you don't seem to care. I'm the one that's always saying something, but you just don't seem to care. And because of your attitude, I'm starting not to care. Maybe that's why I was all nonchalant. And, it really disappointed me how I won't be able to see you until next Friday, when Harry Potter comes out... Whatever, right? Meh, you know that I love you, but I just don't know about you. I just wish you would ask me about my day, like I'm always asking you. It feels like sometimes, we don't have that much to talk about, but I have a lot to say, you just never say/ask anything... I'm going to wait until after our 1 year, see what happens...
And, it really feels like we're getting really distant, just as my friend and I are getting closer. I just hope you feel better, and make me feel loved again.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I really miss you.
Really, really.
A lot.
Entirely.
Completely.
Fully.
Insanely.
Passionately.
Miss you.
-Me.

[redpeony]

Have fun in the states this weekendddddddd
I'm gonna miss youuuuuu
Tell me how that THING goes and what you decided to do about it.... ahaha
later gator. =p

[*stephinika*]

ilu. i can't wait until sunday.

feel better hon. things will be okay.

sigh...i can't help but be oddly jealous of you. *shrug* you're still awesome-ness though.

you are just annoying as hell, go away.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I don't know how this is supposed to work. I don't know why I'm feeling this way and why I'm crying. You make things so difficult. I'm so confused. I just want to cut off everything between us. Everything. Never talk to you again. Never see you again. But I know that won't help. That might even make things worse. I'm so confused. You keep hurting me. Even when you're not even trying, you're hurting me. I keep getting hurt. Nothing is the same, nothing will be the same. Why can't it be the same? I don't know why I keep spending time on you. Keep praying for you. Keep waiting on you. Keep dreaming about you. I don't know why I keep trying so hard. I'm trying so hard and nothing happens. Aren't I worth it? I want to be the one who brings you some good. The one that helps you. The one you love and want to be with. Why can't I be that one? I thought I was. Everything hurts. All over again. I'm crying again. Again I tried. Again I'm crying. Again I'm hurt. Again, again, again. Over and over. This is stupid, I keep telling myself that, but I can't let go. Why can't I let go? Why do I keep holding on? What are you doing? Why are you like this? Just be real with me. Tell me the truth. Stop playing your games. Stop being dramatic. And stop acting like you care. You obviously don't care. Stop pretending. Just stop.
-Me.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

I dont even KNOW.

Meeting him yesterday, was great. Hes obviously really easyyy to talk to. But i dont know. He probably will never even think of me that way, and i know, my mentality isnt helping. But im facing the cold hard truth. Its about time i stopped being so easy on myself and schooled myself in what ive ALWAYS schooled other kids who always ran to me for advice. But WOKBVOQVB0p9gvfw omgosh. I dont even know if thats how it should be.

You. Youve already put me through it. The hook up and break up. But walking home with you in the rain [ with of course jasons company ] was ... idono. You seem odd around me now. Like your uncomfortable. Which makes me think two things, you like me [ HAH i can cross that one off ] or you just feel plain awkward around me because of how things happened altho i try to forget it, dirt under the rug. You just .. i dont know. You did me f**ked up though so i aint tryna mess with that triflin shit.

Your so gdamn shy you a-hole. SPEAK !

You .. well yea well me and you should talk more.

You .. stop messing with me. I just want to kiss you Lol. you have the nicest lips ive ever seen on a guy... Gdamn ...