createblog diary, v.6 Options

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
Gosh. I've been so much happier in the past like two days. I love him. I'm scared but I know I do.
-Me.

[shortiiex]

dear cB diary



sge got scarded today because there was a stalker, i thought she was over reacting...but whatever..we ended up leaving early..phew

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

Mm yeah. This week was just bla. BLAAAA. No kidding. I was in one horrible mood and I just couldn't manage to SNAP OUT OF IT. Rawrrr. I just don't know why I'm so mad and just frustrated and I don't know, disappointed? And I KNOW it's not cuz I'm PMSing. So what IS bringing me down? I don't freakin understand.

I know I should find some outlet. Or get a hobby or something.. Ack I don't know some days I can go to school and be laughing and just in a great mood the entire day.. And then other days I wake up and the world is gray. I can't help thinking about other people and constantly comparing myself. I know I shouldn't be trying to amount up to ANYthing. But it's just so hard sometimes.

And then I wonder.. What ABOUT those people? Even complete strangers that I've never talked to.. On the outside they look so happy. But do they have bad days too? Does it even make a difference if they're constantly surrounded by people? They might feel just as horrible inside.

AH I'm just all mixed up inside. And I don't know what to do about it.

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
OMG..Tomorrow is the drill meet, and I'm on the competiting team! Kind of scared and nervous, but I think I'll do alright..Wait, I think I'll do good ,not alright..lol..
Today was a ok day..
Can't wait till tomorrow..Very excited..
--Nancy--

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

please, someone, help me escape this hell hole called home and parents. i need to get out of this.
all i want is control over my life.

[Mulder]

dear cb diary,


my computers breaking down. and its depressing me.

plus im failing pre-cal, and ace-ing physics without understanding anything.



ughh.


-michelle

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,

Borders=the best place ever. That place is my new sanctuary. Love it.

SAT II's this morning, went by fast and glad to be done. College apps still to do, but hopefully, they will be done by Monday, since I have my Sundays without work. I saw him yesterday when I went to pick up my last paycheck..he is gorgeous. I wanted to say hi, but it would be too silly since we've only talked for a few minutes at most. I want to keep visiting without making it seem so..I don't know. Arhg..whatever though. Tonight family is coming over and we're going out to dinner. Hopefully, I will still be able to go to the movies. I haven't been out in a while.

--Teesa

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

This week was Spirit Week. It was a fun week.

Monday: Halloween Dance/Wear Costumes.
Tuesday: PJ Day.
Wednesday: Twin Day.
Thursday: Jersey Day.
Friday: Pep Rally/Student vs. Staff BBall Game.

7th graders lost the pep rally. That sucked.

[*reflection*]

today was ok.
my brother was here so i was annoyed
i wish he would stay on campus and leave us alone but my mom is always saying how he should visit

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm really confused. About everything. I either think too much about certain things or I don't think enough about other things. It really should be switched because some things deserve more thought than I give them while others don't. I'm pretty pathetic. I'm psycho too. He even said so. Jokingly, kind of, but still. I need to talk to him. I need to see him in person. I need to tell him I don't think we should get back together, yet. Anyway, the days are getting better. Only because I talked to him and he said those things. I don't know if they're lies or not.
-Me.

[redpeony]

DEAR CB DIARY

My weekends are perfect... except for the fact that I have no time to do homework!
I loved the quiet night with the boyfriend last night, looking back. I loved sleeping on separate couches and missing the entire third period. Then ripping my jeans was worth climbing the fence and sneaking into the golf course and seeing the amazing stars.
Work was fun, I love my coworkers and the overall atmosphere, plus I get paid! Dinner with the family was enjoyable tonight; we never get to spend time together anymore so the three or four hours tonight was quite nice.
Tomorrow church will be good, just to refresh the mind... then checking out Emily Carr with the boyfriend again... but just spending time with him will be amazing.
Ugh I love him so much... It's disgusting. I can't live without him... and I feel safe knowing that. (:

love, me :)

[*torngemini*]

Dear cB Diary,

I have decided to start a paper journal too, not just an online blog thing. For some reason a lot more of what I'm feeling actually comes out more during writing physicially. I don't know why that is. Even when I write other things ... I tend to actually write a lot more when I ACTUALLY write it down rather than typing. Plus it's good therapy. I can look back at it ... look at my writing ... you can really look at a person's mood, personality more when you look at their writing especially when you see their writing through a set of pages and dates. ?? Maybe it's just me haha. I need to get a new book though. I wanna start over fresh. Plus my old one has entries about when Lucas and I started dating and stuff and I really really really really want to avoid all that. I'm planning on just hiding that journal somewhere so I won't have to look at it ever again.

I want to get just a regular big coiled notebook and use that as my journal. It's not like I'm going to carry it around everywhere. Well ... I might bring it to school and write in it when no one is around. I used to do that all the time. It's a good way to archive how I feel during the day and see how it fluctuates because I notice that my moods just go hardcore up and down. It really all depends on what happens to me during the day but yeah ... still ... I can be sad one minute then all of a sudden I'm chipper. I think it's because I'm trying hard to forget about Lucas but once he enters my mind just a little bit my mood just shoots down.

I think it's also that I completely repress everything. I don't like talking about Lucas out loud. Everytime someone brings him up or anything related to him, I just shut up or sometimes I try to walk away without anyone noticing ... I just try not to be affiliated with it in any way. There are times where I can take it and thank you for Clinton ... he doesn't bring it up and when he does, he doesn't say his name ... thank you for respecting me that way Clinton. It means a lot.

It's funny because I try so hard to forget him but it's kinda inevitable that I will never be able to ... argh.

[*reflection*]

dear cb diary,
i quit xanga again

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

its funny, i use this more than my actual written diary now because its just so much more convenient...that and i prefer typing. but anyways.
yesterday was weird. my parents got pissed again and so i got mad, had fun at lazer tag, then ryan was being an a-hole so he pissed me off and i got home and cried again...ugh. too much crying in the last few days, i don't like it.
adrian makes me so happy though. really. he's amazing. we don't say the "i love you"s as often as i did in a past relationship and its so much better that way. it means so much more...before, it didn't seem to mean much at all and i didn't even remember the first time. now, it truly means something and i remember exactly when we actually said it for the first time. it STILL makes me giddy to hear him tell me those words. its funny because i'm so happy yet so ... not because of different reasons. he always manages to cheer me up though.
i honestly don't know where i'd be without him right now.

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

I bought a new jacket. It's so cute. dsfjhdskg. I need to change my dressing style. And so far, I'm doing good on that.

- Kelly

[yukichan]

dear cB diary..
I am confused, mad, frustrated, and a bunch of other emotions..My gosh..Every since I started going out with J, I've faced so many problems..Gosh, its like he's like a magnet to problems..I mean I kind of like him, but maybe it was better if we were friends, and not boyfriend and girlfriend...I use to like him so much, but now I don't..Since I don't like him anymore, should I just dump him? I can't believe I developed feelings for another guy..My gosh..I feel like shit..It's not right for me to feel this way..I shouldn't like another guy..If I tell mom and dad that I'm not going out with J, I don't know what they would think..They think I should go out with him..They don't know that I am going out with him..I feel really stressed out right now..I can't even remember what I had for homework..I'm worried about J..He kind of was acting weird after school..Like, he left me without saying bye or anything..He told me that he felt like no one cared about him, but what was I suppose to do?I mean, I guess me caring about him isn't enough..Sigh..I don't know what to do..But I need to give up on K..But I kind of think he likes me..I DONT KNOW!!!And the thing is, I kind of like him...I would still have liked him, if L hadn't gone out with him..Hmmm..I don't know...I feel really confused...Hopefully, things clear up in a couple of days...
--Nancy--

[Heewee]

Dear cB diary...
I'm dying and I'm so f**king scared. I'm trying to make the most of everything these days and stay positive but in the back of my mind, I still know that it'll all be over soon. I don't know why I'm killing myself with all this college stuff. I mean, maybe it'll be a fluke and I'll live past the spring but reality is harsh. I'm so upset and I don't have anybody to talk to because I don't want to tell my friends because I know that they'll feel sad and treat me different...and I don't want that. But I don't want to cry myself to sleep every night either. Man, this is tough.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Today was a horrible horrible day. I cried twice.

People are ignorant.

[*torngemini*]

Dear cB Diary,

Wow ... today has just been the worst day and it's only Monday. Usually, when a week starts off this bad then the rest of the week is going to f**ked. Grrr.

I am still wondering how I managed to rack up $400 for the damn cellphone bill. I don't really call people and I DON'T USE the internet on my phone. Apparently I downloaded a bunch of shit. NEVER. I downloaded ONE ringtone and that's what ... two dollars!! Holy shit man. Mom was quite pissed off as hell. It was a great way to start off a day ... hearing my mom yell at me early in the morning. Jesus.

Well ... gotta find some way now to kill time before my next class. I really don't want to go but then again ... I don't really want to go home knowing I'm just going to get yelled at some more. Boo. It's times like this I wish I was living on my own. If I only had the money ... that would be great.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

i went to kohls and jamba juice with cami today. i spent my giftcard on some boots, pajama pants, and sweatshoirts, and me and cami got matching thongs.
HAH, WOW. my first thong <33

it was fun.

[RiddleMeWonders]

Dear CB


I'm not up to snuff. My mind is anywhere but historical essays.
I'm thinking about being sick this morning.

I need time.

[*jooleeah*]

Hilary, I hope you feel better soon. Don't let all that stress get to your head. Ilu.

Dear cB diary,
so much shit has been happening, and it really...just sucks. i don't want to say anything to anyone, cause i don't want people feel sorry for me and pity me. goddamn, things just keep piling up. i'm so scared of what might happen. blaaah. i just want a break from everything. a vacation and a long talk with a couple of friends would be nice.

[mzbbc]

dear cB diary,

i get so scared sometimes. i'm always f**king myself over. i get in these situations and then i realize that there's no one there who's gonna step up and save my ass. i can't bs my way out of everything, i know that... but it's like, there has to be a way out somehow...

see i need somebody. i need somebody who can protect me and be there for me, but it's empty. i can't keep thinking about him like he's gonna pop out of thin air and make a difference. but it's not about that. it's like, where am i going? i'm always f**king around with something in my life, changing shit, like it's gonna make me happy. but it doesn't. why? because i'm always in love with something or someone that doesn't love me back, or at least the way i want it to.

just a couple more weeks and then i'll be free.

please please please help me.

xoxo
Maia

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I had a dream that I was pregnant. =X

Ahahahaha. Oh gosh that was the most randomest dream .. ever.

[faithin_felix]

dear CB Diary,
i'm not longer an offical member. phooey

Felix