message to anyone, volume 12 Options

[redpeony]

sometimes i get confused about you just by thinking
and then i remember all the things that have happened between us
the good, the bad, the misunderstandings, the joys
though the bad times are bad, the good times that i have with you are really good
and everyone tells me to leave... but i want to stay
i'm just scared that in the end i'll have made a terrible mistake by not listening to my friends
but i guess i won't know unless i do it, and i don't want to regret not doing anything
ugh i don't know. before you came, i loved my life and was perfectly fine with what i had: awesome friends, good interests, a fun life. you add something that wasn't there... complications? maybe. but maybe i like the complications. or maybe i just love the fact that there's someone who cares about what i'm doing all the time?
i don't know... i'm confused. you confuse me..... and hahahah man.. i'm so off track with school. but i'll snap outta that. let's just see where this goes.

[Aoiro]

J - I guess I scared you away in a way, huh? Hehe...

C - Still waiting for you party. Seriously can't wait.

M - Yo, ranting with you is like the best. One of my ranting friends! Heck, yes.

[*tweeak*]

You know, I don't think I'm in the wrong at all. I do wish idiots like you wouldn't comment on my xanga. You don't know me. What I said about her wasn't even insulting. Even if it were, it's none of your buisness. It's one thing to comment randomly if you have something to say, but if you're going to attack me, don't. If you have a real point to make, then fine. That did not. I mean, for heaven's sake, you judged me a whole hell of a lot more than I did the girl in my homeroom. I didn't do anything to her. She was the one who said ridiculous things to me. Yeah, I've had pregnant friends before. Blame never crossed my mine. I'm not so self richeous that I'd not talk to her or look down upon her. In this particular case, I overlooked her pregnancy entirely, up until the point where she felt the need to provoke me. ugh. People like you - all about the trendy politically correct ideas with no real opinions or reasons to back them up - disgust me. Wait till I say something that could actually be considered offensive, then get mad. Until that point, f**k off.

[*stephinika*]

haha talking to about all my old msgs to you on here and stuff in the cb diary and just...all our thoughts from so long ago, ahh that was fun. i'm quite happy with the way things turned out though. but omg after school when you said that... eee! hahaha XD

[*Azarel*]

Stop making such a big deal about it, for Christssake. You're twenty-two; stop acting like this is all new to you. Strange of me to be saying this to you, but honestly, grow up already. This is part of what I couldn't put up with it anymore. Learn to face reality. I'm not going to change my mind. Too bad.

[creamyxlicious]

To that someone..

Those words you said.. They hurt.
They're like knives, not to just my heart.
But my entire being.
You called me the cruelest, uglyest things..
Yet I don't want to fight your words,
I don't want to argue, with you..

I don't want to yell,
embarrass you in front of so many,
look at you with such hate..
As you did to me.
You were my everything, my hope, my dreams,
you were what I wanted to be one day..
but now I am not so sure.

Now I speak to you with such pain in my voice.
I look at you and I can only think about that day.
Nothing you can give me will ever change what happened.
I can't even look into your eyes..

You don't know me. Yet you accuse me of things I certainly am not.
How much I wanted to tell you how wrong you were.
But my words were choked from all the tears.

I thought you were the most wonderful person in the whole world.
But now, I look at you and see someone so, hidious, so ugly.
Just today I learned how beautiful someone else was..

Yes it took me so long to find out.
The person for me was right next to me the whole time.
My trust in you is gone,
betrayal is all that comes to my mind when you are there.
But I don't think I hate you, but because of you. I feel so broken inside.

Maybe one day I'll tell you this secret of mine. But it won't be now..
My heart has not mended yet.. Not for a long time.
But just so you know,

I've loved you.
I've been loving you..
And no matter how many times you hurt me..
I will always love you.

[silver-rain]

Haha, I had a great time with you after school, just talking. I'm glad you feel close enough to me to tell me a few things. Hah, we should do that more, it's really fun.

Aww, it feels like everyday we get closer. And, it's a nice feeling... We haven't exactly reached the point where we talk all the time online, etc, but I have a feeling we might be getting there. And then, I'll have to be careful because that was what happened between Stephen and I. You're a great guy, and I like you, but as a friend.

Heyy, we have to go shopping tomorrow for PJ Day! I really want to get something, but it's so much more fun with friends!

[*tweeak*]

Heh. Don't be embarrassed. You asked for it. But I'm glad you liked it. Just don't ever end things like that again. gahhhh. It took me a full 3 seconds to realize why you said it.

[megan_x3]

-.- everysingle day at school, you make me laugh and smile like a retard. i just dont know what to do without you.. you care about me and try to be there for me.. and you understand and respect everything i do.. you are the greatest thing that i've ever known in my life. i <3 you dearly and i hope you do the same.

[BrokenDream]

to my love: well, i can kind of tell that you want to be with someone else. i liked it that time when we flirted. ehhh, you must think i am stupid. you seriously need to look for quiet, funny girls like me. stop flirting with her! she's been dating alot of guys lately, and i haven't had one yet. i still like ya hope you know that..

to my lover: stop flirting with me! just stop! i don't like you. you are trying to take me away from my love and i hate that. just let me be and let me go.

to my sister: thank you for being there. ilu!

[me1issaaaa]

The other Melissa - You're cute. We need to talk more [:

My darling - callllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm staring at the telephone. RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING. PLEASE. I miss you. And we need some pookie. :x

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I don't know anymore. I just don't know. I can't decide what to do or anything. I'm just confused and hurt and I can't stop making all of these stupid mistakes. Now I'm affecting other people and I really wonder if this was all because of you. Honest, I think yes. But it's all my fault. My fault it ended. My fault you won't talk to me. Mine. Everything is my fault. I'm so stupid. Last night I read all of our old conversations we had together when things were good and then I read the bad one. I cried for a long time and I cried hard. It hurt my heart, like honestly, it did. I don't mean that as a metaphor or whatever, but there was a pain in my heart. It felt like getting it ripped out and stabbed a million times back and forth. I couldn't stop crying. I finally just went inside my bed and I started crying harder. To the point where I was choking and almost threw up. I eventually cried myself to sleep and dreamt of you. Why is this happening? Why can't you come back, I miss you. Why don't you see that? Why? I have so many questions and they all begin with why. I wish I could know the answers.
-Me.

Dear You,
Wow. I could have never imagined. Ever. That's why you're so skinny. That's why you act the way you do. That's why you always need money. I get it. It all fits. I can't believe you. What happened? Why is everyone and everything changing?
-Me.

Dear You and You,
You two are such jerks. Get over it. I'm older and have done more than you think. I'm smarter than you think. I know what you're telling me so don't bother lecturing me because it doesn't matter. You saying one thing isn't going to make me change my opinion about another.
-Me.

[Skyline Drive]

Dear Bravo,

Thanks for hiring me. Maybe now I can get off my lazy ass and do something productive.


Dear Waiter Boy @ Bravo,

I think I'll be developing a crush on you soon.


Dear Best Friend,

Thanks for everything.

[OverratedStupidi...]

Hey hun,

Yeah, I still think I like your friend, you know, the one who dumped me about 8 months ago. I can't help it.

[Rachel]

______- God damn I LOVE YOU. You are so good and give me so much. You take a lot of shit from me and still manage to keep loving me. You are my rock and my savior. Without, I'd be lost. Whatever happens this summer will be hard but at least I will have had this time with you now. I am sorry for all of our drama lately, I just don't want to think about college anymore. I love you times a trillion Snuggles,

Love
GooGooBear

[Looow]

You,
Oh god, you're so cute.

You,
STOP IT. Shittt. You're really annoying me.


You,
YOU need to stfu. God damn.

You,
Eh stop flirtinggg. goddd.

[*lolita kitty*]

________,
that was mean today. i can't believe i cried, though. but really, it was un-nessacary. i cry too much. roar.

____,
you didnt seem yourself today. you seemed grumpy. ah well, i still love you dearie

______,
hehehehehe, science was so fun. we kept laughing at those flash cards.

[sharerol]

Mrs. Black,

I meant every word I said in that letter and much more. I really don't know what to say about this whole situation. I miss you so much, and I really hope you get better. This whole thing is so crushing. Wow, I'm so sorry. I'm anxious to seeing you this Friday, but thinking about it just makes me cry. I can't believe all this happened. But whatever you do, stay strong, and don't give up.

-Cheryl

[silver-rain]

It seems like everything is so impersonal between us. I understand how you're busy with college and all but argh. And, sometimes it feels as if you're using me or something. We're supposed to be two people madly in love with each other, but I don't see it that much anymore... Well I hope my little project works...

[*salcha*]

I can't believe I didn't play today. So much for improvement.

[*Azarel*]

I've stubbed my pinky toe twice in the past twenty minutes. See how you're rubbing off on me? :( I hope you are doing well and having fun on your business trip. Take care. I miss you.

[*Solipsist*]

Dear Azarel,

That one white flower on your sig looks better than the rest. You should blur everything around it so it would stand out more. *nod*
Also, you're cool.

- Jose

[Retrogressive]

I'm sorry I can't tell you that I'm completely in love with you. I'm so sorry that you know I want to say it but won't. I know how your mind works, you get me so completely and I hate you for it.

I love you, if that means ANYTHING.

[*Azarel*]

Jose,

you're weird. But in an awesome sort of way.

- Anna.

[*Solipsist*]

Dear everyone on CB,

Anna tried to sneak into my room 2 minutes ago and failed miserably. Everyone point at her and laugh.

- Solipsist