createblog diary, v.6 Options

[*mzkandi*]

originally started by faithin_felix.

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Most of you know the drill. Comment and/or quote someone elses entry but you must also make your own.


Dear cB,
My first quiz is tommorrow. I may have to pull an all-nighter tonight. Hopefully not....

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

ugh. i hate mixed emotions. really. it keeps nagging in the back of my mind and its driving me CRAZY.

[yummy_delight]

Dear CB Diary:

My former best friend has shown her true colors. That spoiled Paris Hilton wannabe BITCH talked shit about me on her xanga. Maybe not as brave as saying it in person, but having it on her xanga pretty much guarantees that everyone in Vegas AND over here will read it. Tricky, yes. Smart? I don't think so.

That whore better think twice before she messes with me. She thinks she can bully me into submission just for not doing something she wanted me to do?

OH HELL NO.
IT'S ON NOW, BITCH.
I am going to ruin you.

[shortiiex]

Dear cB Diary,
Yeah my first cB diary entry!
anyway, being a freshman in high school isn't so bad..i thought it would be horrible..but some people are just posers or too emotional. People need to suck it up, if you can't handle a little problem how can go through life? I don't think some people evern hit puberty yet, they need to grow up, they are so freakin annoying.
and i am not her friend, so why does she care so much? she knows my name but i don't know hers..i never had a real conversation with her. UGH

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

what's wrong with me? i had an effing breakdown at the end of lunch.
nothing they say means anythings. it's all fun and games. and yet...it hurt. i felt like a stupid, airheaded, annoyingly talkative klutz. godammit. then i accidentally hit chris in the head...he said it was okay and i apologized and so on but i just felt so...ridiculous. if i talk too much, tell me! godammit. then i spilt his pop and just...i felt like an idiot. yea i'm paranoid about my van. its not technically "mine" and if anything happens, i'll get in shit. i wish people would realize when i'm being serious and tell them to stop it. it doesn't help then when someone is being stupid and notices you're in a bad mood and makes an inappropiate joke about you and your boyfriend after and laughs. f**k. i was ready to kill him.
i'm so sick of this bullshit.
why do i take things so personally? i stood in a bathroom stall for the last 10 minutes of lunch crying my eyes out. i can't take this. they're my friends...some of them anyways. they don't take me seriously though.
and i hate them sometimes for that.

[o0olaalaa]

Dear cb,
today it was raining like crazy. while walking to the bus stop i got really wet, water soaked in to my shoes and made my socks wet and no matter how much i moved i still got wet. my jeans were wet all the way up to my knees. and the puddles in front of my school were huge. its pretty weird to have so much rain in new york...

-Angel

[BrokenDream]

dear Createblog diary,
so today everyone stared at me. hmm, the last comment was about my makeup. they said it looked nice. hmm. that might have been why. wow, wierdos! anyway, school was alright. the love of my life glanced at me today a couple of times. Jesus, I love that feeling. and guess what? I glanced back. hehe.
-Melissa

[yummy_delight]

Dear CB Diary:

Revenge is sweet. I wish I could take it back.

[BrokenDream]

dear createblog diary,
so today in school was pretty good. I got to have a lot of fun with my friends. I barely got to eat lunch though. we had a little assembly because of a fundraiser and that's one of the reasons why I only had 5 minutes too eat. my stomach was hurting afterwards.

that's all for now.

[shortiiex]

Dear Diary,

There is something about today that makes your mood go down.
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tommorrow is Jenn's birthday..still didn't buy a present..but i will tomorrow..blah going dancing..i hopw i see some old classmates

~sandra

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,
I think I may have messed up something between Stephen and I. Bleh, I hate this all, and I hope he gets home safe and that I can see him tomorrow.
In other news, Nov. 1 is approaching really quickly and I really need to finish my application. I handed my teachers the rec forms, so now they just need to write something outstanding. Blah, I can't wait till Jan. 2.

[to-devastate]

Dear cB diary,

Hmm. Isn't it funny that my life is so much better without guys in it? Like I use to crush on these guys and it just made my life miserable. Hmph. Today, this is what I realized. Haha. Took me that long, eh? Currently, I don't like anyone. FINALLY. LMAO. But still, having a crush is fun.. it's just when I like really really really like them, then it gets too extreme. Weird. I liked this guy alot but then today, I stopped. Just suddenly stopped. I mean. It just got too weird.. and he freaked me out. Like stop stalking, dude.. and come on. Grow up [[or act your age]]. Geez. Haha. Now my only hope is that he doesn't read this =0. I'd still like to be friends but like I would never go out with him. I know that it wouldnt last anyone. It's so obvious. He's really sweet but still; don't think he's my type. Yahh. But although I don't have a crush (and i guess im not really looking for one one either), I'd still go out with Nick. He's so sweeet and hot! Hahah. But really, what are the chances he'd talk to me. Summerlandboy04<3 heheh. The boys at my school are ugly. I need to get to dozo.. AND i'm still looking for that hot guitar boyfriend. Mmhmm. (;
Anyway, today was Big Brother Big Sister Program thing. My stupid mentor didn't even show up! Dudeee. Tardyness! lol. Her name is Min Jun Kim or something and she sounds really gay. LOL. And today was pretty fun. I mean; cutting 9th and 10th period and leaving early? AWESOMENESS. I don't know why I'm writing in cB again. I guess it's because I have like some kind of diary to write in.. which is a good feeling. Anddddd I'm going to AZ/LV for christmas! heckk ya-eh! can't wait. it's going to be super fun chilling with the AZ crew!! lol;; i miss them.. this year is lke the 3rd time to seee them. waahha. it's still cool tho. Um. What else. I still have to do Mr. Kai's homework. I better get back to working on my website ><.. ada's like pushing me to do it. haha. byeas.

[shortiiex]

dear diary

i got ROBBED today
those stupid askfucks they know they took it..and all the clues were they.
i wanted to shoot them in the balls

[TheReasonWhy]

dear cB,

i am happy today cause christy went to church with me but she seems....uh...duno...and i gotta reverse this chinese thingy on monday..OMG

[BrokenDream]

dear Createblog diary,
yay! I made my soccer team win the game! I made two goals. that rocks. anyway, I didn't get hurt or anything, but the team was making fun of me. they are just so jealous of the team, so I ignored them - as always. woot, tomorrow is my birthday. 13 years old! and I'm getting a new laptop with a CD burner. so I got to get off in a few.

happy birthday to meeeee!
I'm so excited.

[*jooleeah*]

^
Happy Early Birthday, dear =] I call the birthday thread!!

Dear cB diary,
today was tiring. but..it wasn't bad. tomorrow's aids walk. hooray :D i talked to brandon today. i missed him. he was such a good friend. i can't believe he lives in snellville, rofl. i couldn't ever imagine him actually surviving there. i mean, he is but....comeon. brandon in the countryside? the thought of it cracks me up. rofl.
the GROUP is fading away from me already. how sad
i'm determined not to get sad tonight =]
kaybye.

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

People are talking about how "ghetto" and "bad" Oakland High is. I don't really want to go there anymore. I'm glad I still have like, 2 years until I get to high school. My friend told me that a lot of high schoolers from Oakland get their education from Alameda high schools. I wanna go to a school in Alameda, but it's sort of far from here, and you know how my parents are. "IT'S TOO FAR!". Far my ass. They act like it's in Los Angeles or something.

Speaking of Los Angeles, guess who's going there. My sex buddy.

Love,
Kelly

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

so i had quite the scare on friday night but things are all good with him now, so i'm happy about that.
i'm excited for my birthday/birthday dinner with him...but they're so far awayyyy... ugh.

[*Tainted Euphoria*]

Dear cB diary,

I think I'm in love with my friend, Andrew. I've know him for two years and he's been a wonderful friend the entire time. He's always been there for me, no matter what. He's the only guy that I can tell EVERYTHING to, and he won't ever judge me. I met him in a high school gym class, and ever since then, it was great.

Now that I'm not in school, we talk even more. I love his company. He's gay/bisexual, but still finds women attractive. Right now he's in a sexually explorative stage where he wants to explore his sexual attraction to men. I'm encouraging him, when really what I want to do is kiss him. Ugh.

Saturday night we went to the movies and there was this guy trying to hit on me. Or maybe he was just being a jackass, I don't know, but Andrew came up behind me and put his hand on my ass and kissed me on the forehead. I guess it was his way of warding off the jackass, but it gave me a little butterfly in my tummy. Then he proceeding to use both hands and attain two-handed-ass-cuppage. Hahaha. It was so funny.

I treasure this friendship too much to let these feelings get in the way. I'll admire him from afar and encourage him in whatever he does. He's just one of my best friends that way.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear cB diary,
I'm scared. Again.


I need to stop thinking about this.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Homecoming was AMAZING. Ahh I loved it. It was dartk, sweaty, loud and everything. The only thing I didn't like was this one guy that danced with me. Oh god, that boy was NASTY. Ick. After the dance, we went to Tapioca Express & Jack in the CRACK. Then, got picked up by Lauren's mom and I slept over along with Lyndsay too. Funnnnn stuff.

Yeah i loved the dance. i like highshool.

<333 Lorena

[*stephinika*]

^^
yay for having fun.

dear cb diary,

my parents are asses. i'm sick and tired of them being unreasonable. i'm a fcuking senior and graduating this year but they don't seem to get it. ugh. they better let me go on friday.

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,
I f**king hate school. It ruins my life. I seriously don't know where I would be without my friends keeping my head up.

[xTINAA]

Dear Teesa,
I knew you were having a bad day. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I was having a f**king shitty day too and I didn't want to be around anyone or hug anyone or anything. I was just being really selfish I guess. Sorry. I hope you'll feel better though. I love you. This song is for you: Best Friend - Brandy.
-Me.

Dear cB Diary,
I am so f**king stupid. I hate how I'm changing and the things I'm doing to myself and how I'm acting. I don't know what my deal is. Seriously, what the f**k is wrong with me? How could I ever let things get like this? And to involve others too. God damn, I'm so f**king stupid. I'm so angry and frustrated with not only school, Phillip, people, parents, but myself mostly. I am so stupid. I'm messing up my life and I don't know how to stop. I just keep lying and doing all of this bad shit and it just grows and grows. I'm so caught up. I can't just stop and tell the truth now because not only will I be affected (severely) but so will a few others. I should have thought. That's my f**king problem. I never really THINK anymore. All I f**king think about is Phillip. He consumes every thought and look where it's getting me. I'm so messed up; doing all of these things I promised I wouldn't. I'm so pissed off. Today was such a bad day. Tomorrow is going to be even worse, I know it. And I have to think of another lie in order to cover up the one I already made. Damnit. Why am I so stupid? I'm f**king pathetic. Today sucked. Tomorrow is going to suck. The rest of the week is going to go badly. Then fall break is gonna f**king suck too. Great. f**king GREAT. I finally get a break and it's not even going to be a break. I need a break. I need to get away. I need to clear my head, get my shit in check. Ugh, damnit to hell. I can't believe myself. I don't know, it might not seem like a big deal to other people but it really is. I'm so screwed. I broke peoples' trust. I lied. I got caught. I still lie. I got people involved. Blah blah blah. I'm so stupid. And what a good way to end the day at school, getting back a D on a math test. f**king shit. I'm failing classes. I'm not even overexaggerating. I'm f**king up badly and I can't, I have f**king college to think about. What's my issue? For serious, I'm going down this road that I don't want to travel on and I don't know the way back. I'm just getting sucked further and further into it and it just becomes easier and easier. Bloody hell. I am SO BITTER and things just keep getting worse and worse. One thing after another. It won't f**king stop. WHEN WILL IT STOP? When will things finally be good for me again? When can I be happy? Why am I not allowed to be happy? Why do I always have to be struggling and going through hard shit? I know, I know. It's supposed to teach me a lesson, help make me stronger. But it's not right now. It's breaking me, I'm so weak. I can't stop even when I know it's wrong, I just can't. Ugh. I'm so stupid. I'm a horrible person. Forreals. I suck at life.
-Me.

[Aoiro]

Dear cB,

Currently, I've been kind of over obsessing over a guy. AGAIN. Yes, but it isn't D. It's now... J. But for some reason, I have a feeling I shouldn't. And now, I'm trying to. He's so sweet, and cute, and seems kind of shy. I just don't know, but right now, I don't want to like anybody.

Oh yeah... Recently, I bought a skirt from Hot Topic... Wanna see? Sure.Clicku. I absolutely adore this skirt, and got some striped knee-high socks to match with it. Black and white.

Almost Cassie's birthday. Wewt! We're both gonna wear our clothes we got from Hot Topic. Wewt again.

Oh yes. I'm thinking about going to the Jingle Ball on Dec. 1st. I'll go beg my mom when she gets home...

[*jooleeah*]

Dear cB Diary,
Yesterday sucked. Today sucked.

This whole week if going to f**king suck. f**k school. I hate it.