Message To Anyone, Volume 11 Options

[KELLYYY]

My little friend that arrived today,
f**king bitch. Go die. I hate you.

[*mishyerr*]

i'm so lost.
i can't even look into your cold eyes anymore

everything's so lost.

you chose her over me.

i can't believe after all we went through

you chose her

still

i am so broken inside
you killed me

f**k you

why do you do this

to me

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I still can't stop crying. The only time today I wasn't crying was in class. I miss you. I'm so hurt. I seriously don't know what to do anymore but sit here and cry. It was my fault. I feel even worse. I still want you. I didn't want this to happen. You knew it. You just can't deal with it anymore because you're going through so much shit. But honestly, I'm just sitting here crying, I'm sad, and I'm hoping that you'll call or something and say you're sorry just like last time. But I don't think it's gonna happen this time around. I can't go on. I don't know what to do.
-Me.

[silver-rain]

Hey, I had a good time on our 'pseudo-date.' We really should do that again, especially since those girls ditched me! Grr... But yeah, I didn't think we would have anything to talk about, but we did, and it was a lot of fun. Tomorrow maybe? Ahah, you're great.

Hmm, something may be happening this Saturday that I don't really want you to be going to... but because of our new policy, I'm not supposed to care anymore. Sigh, we'll see...

Bleh, I think you're purposefully avoiding me. Sometimes, I look forward to the end of the day, not because school's over, but because I might have a chance to see you. Do you know how sad that is? Just end this and let's be friends again, please?

[BrokenDream]

_____: I want to know, what makes your girlfriend so special? We were meant together. We laugh together, and we help each other out in Science. I mean, right? Do you know what I'm saying? Ok, just three words:
I Love you

_____: Okay, you are just starting to make me cuss, and all that crap. I hate to do this but stop acting like a slut. You just want to get a hold of that dude I like. Stop it. I swear, I will come over there during Reading class and slap you.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Weee your cute.
I just cant seem to like you ?
I dono. Not like i knew how you felt, nor will i find out.
Im not motivated enuff to find out, i just dont like you that much.


"When you left i lost a part of me
its still so hard to believe
come back baby please"
=\
Iunno. I should be over you, and i want to be so bad.
Why did have to start talking ?
It wasnt even that much.

"... Im tryna keep it together but im fallin apart.
I need you back in my life"

I hope we can start talkin` .. deeper.
Theres always an awkward air to you. I seem perfectly comfortable and i know , for a fact it looks like i havent a care in the world but talking to you means a lot.

I still remember the dance. How it felt .. how you smelled. how i kicked out campus supervisor and the flashlight flew out of his hands.

whoo. good times ?

[lilliannnn]

K-
I write to you so much in this thing. There's nothing really to say except I love you and I hope you're not grounded this weekend because we are both long overdue for some... touching.

_______,
Ooh, you're so cute. I think I have a crush on you. I love how you have a nickname for me. I hope we become good friends.

BS,
You made me really happy that you called the other night and now I'm kind of mad at myself for not talking to you. Hopefully, we can talk again soon. I miss you.

[cheerbee07]

you- happy birthday, I love you!

you- you beat me to it…guess it gives me a reason not to have to ask him to homecoming. but still it kinda sucks.

you- I told you I don’t want to go with him to homecoming!!!! arg!

you- thought you said that it takes awhile for you to get over people. I hate it when people lie to me, especially when they say they won’t. maybe it’s good you moved on, because I sure as hell have too. and I’ve found someone nicer. a guy who is not 6 hours away for that matter.

-Jess

[Looow]

You,
How sweet of you to walk me to my locker and all the way to the front of the school. Hmm..Yeahh. Now what?

You,
JHSGSAJHGASJ. No more.

[Aoiro]

V - Your pocking hurts, but you giving me food is so sweet! Someday, I shall repay you.

A - Don't worry if he puts the question off until tomorrow. You never know what will happen, ya know?

J.J. - I've been wondering why you were crying in Science class today, but I couldn't ask you because you were... Crying. Does it have to do with B again?

J.B. - Thank god you broke up with R! Either way, the next time I meet him, I'm going to slap him. He seems like he's a pimp, like most boys are today in high school. But don't worry, when you get to high school, your gonna find more.

K - Can you ever stop going to my house?! Overreacting about JD and everything annoys me. I don't answer my door for a reason. I also don't talk to you at lunch for another reason. At least your leaving real soon.

D - STOP STARING AT ME! WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?! Just because I was playing with V, you won't stop staring. Does it have to do with C again?!

C - I don't know why, but at school, you are... Somewhat mopping about. We don't talk much, and you aren't at cheerful. What's wrong? Is it because D said I wouldn't go out with you? Or that nobody would?

[*impostrous*]

How are you doing this to me? I've never even met you, never touched you, never physically saw you.. It's been over a month, shouldn't I be over you? Why did you choose to come back to haunt me today? Why not last week? Or next week? Do you still think about me? Do you still wonder? Because I do. It couldn't end the way it did; it's not right. It's not over. Something so perfect can't just.. stop so simply; forever isn't just four days short of four months. You have so many ways of reaching me, and I have no way of finding you. Please, send me a letter, a sign, anything.

All I have left of you are memories, and even those are fading. I haven't opened the conversations, looked at the photographs, thought about you in weeks. I don't understand how you managed to spring up again so suddenly. We can still make it work - do you still dream on? This story has not ended, not yet. I still believe; my love for you is still alive. It will always be.

You've heard the lyrics, "I could never love again as much as I loved you" - and it's true - I couldn't. I guess you must know about him, somehow - I don't want to talk about him, don't want to let you know, but you deserve it. It's been three weeks. I don't think I gave myself enough time, between you and him I mean. He's.. sort of a replacement. Do I love him? Yes, but not nearly as much as I loved you. Love. If I had to choose between you and him, I believe I'd choose you, though. Despite the lies, despite the tears, despite the unspoken tensions between us.

Ever hear the quote, "If you can't have the one you love, love the one you're with"? I suppose that's how my relationship with him is; he doesn't think so. We throw around the I love yous and I miss yous just like I would've expected. I compare him to you all the time, and you two could be polar opposites if it weren't for the fact that you're both writers. I want you, I need you, I'm looking for you in him - and it's not fair to him.

I am too immature for the sort of intimacy I have with him; it should be with you, not him.. I gave my virginity to him; I broke my promise - it should have been yours. I have yet to make you fried rice, too - and a bunch of other promises. Lately, my mother has been pushing me to apply to Yale, Harvard, and more importantly - Stanford. I know I could never get in to such prestigious colleges, but there's the what if lurking at the back of my mind. What if I run into you in two years..?

I still picture myself growing old with you, not him. I remember being so happy even when I wasn't talking to you; I'm only temporarily happy when I'm with him. There are times when I think that I'd choose him over you, but deep down, I've already come to the realization that that's a lie. He doesn't know any of my doubts and hesitations, none of this second guessing that I'm doing. He doesn't know that I'd choose you over him, he thinks he's first. And I should feel horrible for not telling him, for thinking these unspeakable horrors - but I just feel horrible because I don't have you. The way he is in our relationship really reminds me a lot of the way I acted in my relationship with you. I guess that should say something.. shouldn't it?

Twenty-four pages, and counting. I'll never run out of things to tell you. And only day forty-one. I am such a failure.

Come back into my life, my love - you are my only one. I love you; I always have, I always will.

And all the while, you have no idea, do you?

[*suddenly she*]

maybe i shouldn't have taken what you said seriously anyway. maybe i wasn't really that important to you. maybe i wasn't that exception. maybe you were screwing with my head all along. maybe you weren't. i think i'm just overreacting because the phone line's been busy both times i tried to call. i don't know. i don't understand you. or my geometry homework, which is also another reason i kind of need to call you.

[audory]

_________________:
i'm so glad you're alive and okay. when you told me you got into a car accident, i freaked. it came as such a shock. thank god you're okay.


_______________:
if you think you're fat, work to get slim. don't complain to me about how "fat" and "ugly" you are. work to get better. don't wear pajamas to school and baggy t-shirts, and your glasses! put some effort in your appearance... school is school, NOT your room. and i know you say "but audrey, YOU'RE skinny" BITCH, it's b/c i work for it. two hours of water polo every day does NOT add up to NOTHING. work okay? and shut your trap. kthanksbye.
and the whole confronting thing? not going to work. you're just going to end up whining about how EVERYONE is "ganging up on you". we're not. we just all have problems with you. problems that YOU need to address.
and i cannot wait until the ski trip. i know you'lll get pissed at me for "flirting" w/ chris. suck it.

[to-devastate]

What the f**k?
Are you all against me now?

[*salcha*]

Dear Coach,
I feel like I want to quit the team. At least let me play second doubles. Pleaaaaaaaaase.

[whywasisostupid]

seth,
we argue all the time. all the time. why? can't we just stop.

vinnie,
you're cute. <3

[*jooleeah*]

Createblog Friends, Ilu all.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
Here I am. Crying. Sitting. Waiting. Wishing you'd call me. I miss you. I love you. There's so much I need to tell you. I need to show you. I'm going crazy. "Every little thing that you do, I'm so in love with you...I want to spend the rest of my life, with you by my side, forever and ever..." every love song makes sense. But now the sad, heartbreaking ones do too. "I know you said that it's over now but I can't let go, every day I want to pick up the phone and tell you that you're everything I need and more, if only I could find you...I'm missing you.." "every little thing I do you're on my mind, the way I feel baby is driving me crazy, every little thing I do you're on my mind, I can't get over you, I think about you all the time..." "Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes..."
-Me.

[Chii]

guess what?

i'm NOT lost without you anymore.

[ANG33ZY]

This fool tripping over some stupid shit, I swear. Nothing gone bad. Okay. Shit, like he never done that type of stuff before. He's probably done worst.

I hate people telling me shit and they're so wrong. Your ass wasn't there, you didn't see me .. so how the hell you gonna tell me what went down. They're fake feeling it, for real.

[Teesa]

To Christina:
He's a complete jerk, I cannot believe he did this to you. No boy is worth all this pain and crying. I'm so sorry, I wish I could make it all go away. Just know that I love you so much.

To _________ and __________ :
You guys are the two biggest assholes on the planet. And I don't even know one of you at all. You two have made two of my closest girls miserable. Can't you see that??? All they can do is think if you. They miss you so much. Do you people no think before you do something?? Honestly. I seriously dislike you two very much. Go to hell.

[b0st0ngrl]

__ _______- I'm not going to die from the hurricane.

_______- I would really really really like to get to know you better. I love the way you smile and -aaaah- Your hair! I'm really glad I actually got to meet you this year instead of just seeing you around the halls. (:

[Anonymous82]

to my future girlfriend - I LOVE U!! 4 ever and ever and ever!!!! *HUG*

[*suddenly she*]

you. i'm sorry for doubting you. everything's cool? and wow. i don't know what to say. thanks for everything you've done today, it's just been amazing.

and you. are also one of my greatest friends, ever. you've been really supportive of me, even though i treated you like poop in seventh grade. you've encouraged me, helped me, counseled me, everything. you're like another brother. it seems really crazy though.

both of you. are we going to give up dvorak so we can compete together? i'm having a hell of a time choosing between you two.

[zZlAydEexNoTtYZz]

John...I know in a way i've already lost you..but could you at least talk to me one last time? I swear to you, I can't eat cause I can't keep anything down...I can't sleep...everytime I doze off I wake up in tears. I basically stare at the ceiling all day hoping you'd call. I'm sorry for all the shit we had to go through...but I put it on everything I meant everything when I said I loved you and never want to lose you. I don't even know where the hell you are...I feel like some crazy stalker trying to contact you...please get back at me...I'll give you my word I'll stop trying to call you and stuff..just please tell it to me so I don't have to second guess whats happening. You already know that you're my everything...now a days I don't have anyone to turn to...no one to hold on to when everything goes wrong. I know I was being stupid for not talking to you about things; I know it pisses you off. But please try to understand I didn't mean for this to happen. I feel crazy trying to beg for you back..my mind is telling me to stop and just leave you alone but my hearts telling me I still need you. What about all the plans we made John...I thought you and I put our words on it...I know things change, but John I really do love you. Please don't pretend I never existed in your life...because I know meeting you changed everything. If there was anything you'd want me to do, I'd go out and f**king do it. Anything...to prove I love you but this isn't you John...I think I know you well enough not to give someone the cold shoulder...and me. I thought I meant something to you...but now I realize that maybe I was just jumping ahead. I might be unsure about everything else in my life but John, I love you. Please don't do this and hurt me. Whatever you're trying to tell me; I know I f**ked up, and I'm so sorry. But please talk to me. Even though you might not answer this and ignore this too...at least know I love you. And to see the one person you love walk out like nothing...it's the worst feeling in the world.