Message To Anyone, Volume 11 Options

[inthemudhole]

Alec,

I'm really, really sorry, Alec. I truly am. I really hope you believe me that I'm really sorry.... because I am. You went out with Dani for over a year. You had a wonderful relationship with her, so I'm sorry to see that go. Although I'm your ex-girlfriend, I still want you to know that I will always be here for you, okay? Just PLEASE keep that in mind. I'd like to get our friendship back in action again, alrighty? So don't hesitate to call me or IM me or even come over to my house... I will do my best to help you at any given time, and THAT is a promise. I really hope you feel better soon....I hate to see you so down. Well, see you tomorrow in geometry.... Maybe we should hang out soon? I don't know. Just an idea.

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Sam,

Ah, you. I've only recently realized how much I REALLY like you. Thanks for being there the past couple of days, and thanks for always smiling at me in the hallways and asking me to be your partner for things in geometry. I don't know if you know this or not, but it really means a lot to me.

I've been thinking about asking you to a movie some weekend for a while... Would you say yes? Would you want to? I don't know, and I guess I'll never know unless I ask you, but I don't know if I physically or mentally can. It's so nerve-wracking and intimidating, even though we are friends and we have been since fourth grade or so.

You're the only thing that keeps me going back to school everyday without a complaint, Sam.

I'll see you tomorrow....

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Zena,

I wish you would f**king STOP messing around with Alec. It's just one of those 'unwritten best friend' rules to NOT mess around with your best friend's ex-boyfriend, especially when they still sort of like them, which I do! I know for a FACT that you'd be so incredibly pissed off at me if I started messing around with Bob, so how's it okay for you to constantly flirt with Alec even when I'm around? You KNOW that I still like him and you KNOW that I was really almost in love with him when we went out, yet you continue to pull this SHIT every single f**king day, and I can't stand it. I can't stand you anymore sometimes. Just leave me alone for a while.... I'm so pissed at you right now that I can hardly be in the same room with you.

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Mom and Dad,

Let me have some f**king privacy, alright? I'm sick of you invading every inch of my personal space. I know, I know....you're the authority....you've made that INCREDIBLY clear, but QUIT going through my room and QUIT reading my Xangas. Do you see me reading your e-mails and messing around with shit in your room and on your computer? No. You don't....and for good reason.

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The people of createBlog,

Eh? Why are you all so cliquey? I've just recently noticed that lately, and I've also just recently noticed that I don't fit into any of these little cliques or groups of people. I feel so left out when I come on here sometimes.... It's just like school...



-Brie

[3ssx]

We're drifting apart. and you dont even seem to care. you have no clue what that does to me, i miss you so much.







i love you.

[Looow]

You,
Ugh why do you have SUCH A bad attitude lately? DAMN. Just .. oh god.

You,
You're so cutr and nice and little.

You,
Awww litto boy likes youuuu. *kid voice*

[Heewee]

I think I've finally accepted the fact that you don't want to even try to be my friend anymore. We've been best friends since fifth grade and in the past 7 months you've let a guy destroy our relationship. We both promised each other that we would never let a guy ruin our friendship, and now look what's happened. I know that you're sick of everybody telling you how bad he is for you and how you shouldn't be with him but why don't you actually do yourself a favor and finally end it? You know that he's bad for you. You know that he influences you to do things that you don't want to do or wouldn't do otherwise. You didn't call me all summer. I called you once every day and you didn't even have the courtesy to call me until August. But you know what, I've finally moved on. I'm gonna miss you but you know what? If you don't care enough about me or respect me OR yourself enough to do anything about this, then I guess it's not worth fighting for. So I guess this is my final goodbye.

[*suddenly she*]

1. OMG. you and you? wtf. we're friends, aren't we? is it necessary to spread stupid rumors and try to use my best friend to get information out of me? i'm sorry if you're terribly jealous. :x but this is STUPID.

2. er, so what does that mean? sorry i had to get off so quickly, my mom thought i had run away since i was on the phone for so long and out of sight. it's fun talking to you. i like you a lot, and i'm pretty sure you know (i've called you every day since monday?!).

i don't want to stop being with you during school, even if it does mean nasty rumors get flung around. i don't want to stop holding hands and running down stairs and giving each other piggyback rides and passing notes and playing silent wordless games during orchestra.

what are we going to do?

3. and brie, don't feel bad because of all the cliques here. you can talk to me if you get bored. or mad. or sad, or anything.

[short_stop08]

im sorry but life isn't how we want it so stop trying to make things happen and let them happen themselves. it will be much easier.

[steezahh]

WOW. i really thought you cared. so soon to be writing this huh? i just wrote a little earlier today; wow...your a loser. i see you. dont answer your phone; but just so you realize; you live by me; so when i see you walking around; then i try calling your cellphone; you don't answer? WTH? i know... i seriously thought you cared!! what happened? im so confused right now; sad; and im haivng mixed up feelings about you now. what am i to do? if i can't trust you? i saw your ex today she tried to seem all happy in front of me; i know a fake face when i see one. BELIEVE ME! i seriously have no clue what to think; first you really wanna see me; then you decide to just what BLOW IT OFF!? man oh man; ____ was right you are a bad person to rely on. THANKS once again for letting me let go of your trust. HOPE YOU LOVE IT!
--MADD&CONFUSED?

[misoshiru]

you,
i can't stop thinking of you. it's like a disease. stop playing with my mind. i'm trying so hard, but nothing's working. and at times, it hurts me when you won't even look me in the eye. but i'm hoping, that maybe miracles do happen. and i wish they would.

[silver-rain]

I love you, and I'm so glad we can see each other tomorrow! It's been a while, hope nothing screws us over...

Eh, I really hope you aren't avoiding me... But, I promise that one day, we will have a long conversation... one day...

[KissMe2408]

God,

I'm frustrated. Very frustrated, worse off then before. and yah i know that your thoughts are higher then mine, but ahg=afg;djkldsfjlsd!!! i can't seem to grasp that maybe. I see a happy couple or someone who is happy in general and i feel bitter and my heart hurts. I feel like ur hacking down all the good things in my life? Is it because you want me to get outta my comfort zone? Well if that's it, then you've done a good job with that. Is it so I could trust you more or somethan? i have no idea. I've been kinda mad at everyone lately. If not sad tears, then they are hot and full of anger. Mad at myself, and let's face it, right now i'm mad at you. I feel like screaming at you, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!" You know the same thing has been happening to Grace too! It's like we're the same person. Steve asked her today, and she wanted to scream out, " YES! I've missedyou so much" (and believe me she has), and she had to say No. and it took everything inside of her to say no. UGH! WHY. Why does it have to be like this. My heart is killing me, and i want to quit everything and hide. and i can't. you won't let me. I feel so invisible. Not good enough. stressed. lost. and dying inside. HOW IS THIS EXACTLY SUPPOSED TO HELP?! YOu gave me somethan to do, and I did it. ok! are you happy now? I hope you are happy, cuz i am miserable. And even as i write this, i'm ashamed cuz i know better. I KNOW ur thoughts are higher, and i know u have everything under control. But i'm so angry!!!!!! and so lost, and so small. heartbroken. Then there are those timese i just want to cry, and i can't. There is a lump in my throat, and my heart is aching, but i can't cry. And then an hour later, crocodile tears. I want this stuff to go away. this pain. I want to sit at the beach, with a blank notebook, and write. Write music, listen to the waves. Get some popcorn. Smell the ocean. Right now even theatre is stressing me out! Theatre! That's like my own release! I want to draw, but don't have the time or energy between papers, auditions, homework, and everything. And yes, ur stripping everything out of my life. Yes, I know. I know . I know. You've made that very clear, especially lately. God, I need ur help please. I'm not able to do this alone at all. I'm very much lost.

[KissMe2408]

Double post, sorry.

[*Programmer*]

hmmm looking back on it now....i see i could of done way better then you....now that your trying to get back into my life...i see how jealous you have become...wow who thought i would have this type of power over someone lol.....im still deciding either to be a nice guy or just be a strait up prick....it all depends on the next time i see you... and the mood im in.....for your sake you better hope it's a good one...

[*mzkandi*]

Friend-
Aww it was good to see you today. We will have to hang out more in the future.

[Skyline Drive]

you,
i can't stop thinking of you.  it's like a disease.  stop playing with my mind.  i'm trying so hard, but nothing's working.  and at times, it hurts me when you won't even look me in the eye.  but i'm hoping, that maybe miracles do happen.  and i wish they would.

I feel the same way right now

[*jooleeah*]

- What the shit, I hate mixed signals. Seriously.

[Nugget]

I'm so glad I'm back.

Hey guys.

[KELLYYY]

Toby and Cheryl,
I think I'm not going to be on as much anymore. Blame it on my stupid teachers for giving out so many homework and projects. BLAME THEM. But, yes, there's a but. BUT, I'll try to come online on Saturday, it depends, I might go to my cousin's house and yeah, but she has the internet, too, so it doesn't matter.

[*tweeak*]

I think I cannot stand you. And now I'm really pissed. I had it first, dammit! Now I'm going to look much worse in comparison. Stop being so f**king good at everything. Perfection isn't necessary. I may have admired you for it before, but I'm sick of being discretely patronized. We were never really friends anyway. How did things get like this? Especially since we got over it that week. School is poison.

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I don't know how many times I can say this but I miss you. I can't concentrate. I keep thinking about you. I want to see you, hold you, hug you, look at you, talk to you, kiss you. I miss you. I really wonder if you even miss me...
-Me.

[*stephinika*]

you drive me crazy sometimes...in either a good or bad way, mostly good but yeah...sigh. i don't know. but its okay. i still you.
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let me drive dammit. just get over it already, fah.
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you're interesting.

[*suddenly she*]

i suppose if i called you now, you'd get an hour's lecture from your dad. bummer. please let everything be okay. i really don't want to lose what we have, whatever it is, right now just because of about ten girls that are obsessed about our private lives. please?

God, please let this work.

and fangy/steph.. you're the best.

[silver-rain]

Hmm, you lied to me. It makes me wonder about what other things you might have lied about... Eh. I really do believe we are drifting apart, and you don't seem to care. Ok whatever, if you won't care, then I won't either. I will see how tomorrow goes before making any rash decisions though.

I really wish we were friends. Then I would be so happy and I wouldn't care so much. Sigh, but it's never going to happen is it?

[*anubis*]

i wonder what you're doing right now...

i'm hoping that you're sound asleep, safe and warm in your soft bed--dreaming of whatever you hope for.

i always pray for you to be happy, healthy, and safe. and it doesn't matter what i go through. i don't care about the pain, the fear, as long as you are happy.

that is my ultimate reward.



sleep safe and sound. i would do anything to be there to protect and hold you. and i wish i could.



good night. sleep tight.

[*stephinika*]

sigh. its amazing how you make me feel so many different things at once.
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you're so...snotty, but entertaining.
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aw, you're not online.

[misoshiru]

I feel the same way right now 

awww. ilu<33


you,
The simplest things that you do can make me so happy. Maybe i'm just a hopeless romantic, thinking/dreaming too much; That maybe you're the one who'll burst my bubble and bring me back to face the harsh reality that what i'm thinking isn't true. There are times where I truly believe that you do like me, and we're meant to be. So what do you call the flirtations in the hallways, during our free periods, what about last year, in apush&english, and our vball dinner, did that really mean nothing to you? It had such a big impact on me. I know you're afraid of committment, that you're afraid of rejection. I know that you only go for the things you have 80% conviction over. That, your fear, and need for success is too great. Maybe you've convinced yourself that you don't like me when you do...or maybe i'm just a dreamer, where nothing will happen, except for me dreaming of you.