Voice of Reason, never a rest Options

[RiddleMeWonders]

There's disappointment in yourself when you do something very wrong for the time. you didn't mean to do it, but you could have prevented it if only you'd been more attentive... aware of your surroundings.
Something that would cut the legs out from under your family. Emotionally, you're very clear afterward. You know what you've done and you know the consequences are coming, some to extent what they are but they only go so far and afterward it's unknown and scary. They won't hit YOU too hard but they'll hit everyone around you. Everyone that matters, truly anyway. The person you hit is lost to you, no one knows how they feel- or maybe that's you. Yes, it is you.. No one knows what it is you feel. Regret, guilt, awareness, magnified by the fact that you just hit another car. Third time is the worst. This time there literally is no money to pay for it. Your family has been broke for weeks, this time there won't be a next time, you don't want to drive anymore. This time there literally is no money for it, your family has been living in the pennies for weeks. No money, debt, guilt, disappointment, regret, AWARENESS. There is nothing to be done.
Voice of Reason: Get a job
You: Where?
VOR: Sell your car?
You: That? You want me to sell that? Who'd buy it? It's not worth anything to anyone but ME!
VOR: Run away?
But then you couldn't forget it all even if you tried. Your self pity is stupid. What lesson are you to learn this time? Ah! You know! YES YOU DO! You're very ignorant, very stupid, inexperienced, dumb. But these things can change, which is what you're meant to do.
You: What now? How can I look them in the eye? The last times I was lucky, this time not so much.
How could you? And you ran. Yes, you did. You didn't realize it, when you did, you were scared, not really sure if it had actually really in fact happened, that it wasn't a night mare. But it did happen, it was a nightmare, but this time the nightmare was real. And you couldn't lie. You couldn't act like it hadn't happened when it HAD. You went back left the information, drew a picture, left a brief "I'm so sorry" note but you were sorry. You ARE sorry. Not for him, though it really must have blown his day- it would have yours too-, but for the impact of what you did will have on your family. No one was injured, they said. What little money we have started to earn back, is now gone because of your carelessness.