I'm thinking about qutting,, Createblog that is... Options

[ag3nt_sm17h]

I'm thinking of qutiting createblog, because even though it is an outlet for some of my problems, it doesn't help me as much as real friends do, people that actually care. But since I have nobody out on this side of the computer that cares, I am just going to outlet right now, for the last time, I am going to post on createblog. I t just isn't worth it anymore, anything at all, I'm tired of the endless parade of fake reality, the endless parade of fake smiles, and of "Oh yes it's fun to talk to you" and then when you turn your backs, you snicker and laugh. Or you say "ohh that's so sweet" when i say something but then you are really thinking what a creep, that's so creepy, why is he even talking to me.
I am tired of socializing, I am tired of being a social person, however little social I am I hate it. I hate friends, I hate being "Just friends", I hate it when she looks at me, not because I hate her looking at me, I hate the feelings I feel when she looks at me. I feel safe, and everything feels right. But I have been told before, that this won't work, and that's why I am sad, I am sad because I'll never get to have that one kiss from her, I'll never have that one dance, I'll never have that one hug, that one wisper, or those three words. I'll never have it, not from her, or anybody.

Sorry... I was venting towards the one person that I truly loved, but she didn't back. We're friends *shudder* though, but it seems all of my friends are slipping away, and on my senior year, the best year of high school, supposedly the best year of my life, I am slipping through the cracks. Please, please somebody help me before I get any worse, please convince me that this is worth it, and please, please help me find some way to even start to feel better about myself, and about others, because I am at the bottom. I have been at the bottom for forever, what I THOUGHT was the bottom, but it wasn't. I could go lower, I could feel worse, and I a mdefinetly near the worst feeling in the world.
I am not asking for pity nor a handout, I am just looking for a reason to continue this masquerade.


Edit///
I am definetly thinking of quitting createblog, but not only because of her, because of everything I get every day, all the masquerade, all the lies, all the bullshit, all of the emotionless shells that think it's ok to toy with you.
I am seriously considering killing my username, and quitting createblog/

[*jooleeah*]

Wait...are you really quitting createblog? Or not?

Well. If you are...then good luck with life

[*krnxswat*]

Jeebus, it's not the end of the world. Get over yourself.

[*mipadi*]

Look man, here's the dillio: sometimes in romance, things don't work out. Often there's a reason for that, especially when you are still in high school. It's not always evident at the present, but down the road, everything will make sense. For now, just pick yourself up off the ground and get on gettin' on. Yeah, it sucks that this girl isn't interested back, but it's not the end of your life, man, and there are other people out there. You won't see them, though, if you always have your head down, so chin up. Look, you seem like a pretty good guy. You definitely have great things to offer to people, so just make sure you recognize what those things are and remind you that you do indeed possess them. Then get out there and use 'em. Things won't improve unless you want them to, and you proactively try to make a change.

[Im So Vain]

Hey man if you feel its not worth it , then its not. It's your desicion. And your senior year is supposed to be the best year in high school, so if I were you. I would stop feeling sorry for myself, get over whoever it is that dissappointed you and enjoy yourself. -Bye

[lbjshaq2345]

ok i didnt read that cuz it was way too long and i have to get up for a NASCAR race in 5 hrs. but i can tell by ^^them^^ that its about some girl thats f**kin up ur life simple as this get away from her not that hard just walk away ok easy as that she'll take a hint try it

[Mr. Slowjamz]

i understand how you feel man , truly , but if you keep on dwelling on the negativity things wont happen , things wont concure to how you will like it ....it sucks for me cus my senior year sucked . actually my whole time in high school sucked , but know im just erasing that in my mind and startin a fresh ..college is coming up and i cant wait to make the many new friends ill make this year..and the new experiences that ill be taking .......and there are plenty of other girls to go around

and about cb :

i believe that leaving cb isnt worth the time .....you can find some really nice ppl to help you when real life friends cant set in , i know its awkward to say , but you could gain alot of things in here ...that you havent really noticed in hi school.....but thats just me and how i look upon it .

[OhXiet_ItzDonnA]

You're leaving CB. Well, I guess there's more to life huh? If you're quitting, hope you come visit us.

[technicolour]

Look man, here's the dillio: sometimes in romance, things don't work out. Often there's a reason for that, especially when you are still in high school. It's not always evident at the present, but down the road, everything will make sense. For now, just pick yourself up off the ground and get on gettin' on. Yeah, it sucks that this girl isn't interested back, but it's not the end of your life, man, and there are other people out there. You won't see them, though, if you always have your head down, so chin up. Look, you seem like a pretty good guy. You definitely have great things to offer to people, so just make sure you recognize what those things are and remind you that you do indeed possess them. Then get out there and use 'em. Things won't improve unless you want them to, and you proactively try to make a change.

^ I applaud you mipadi. And I totally agree.

[HoodieObsessed]

umm, if you wanan quit createblog, than go ahead...It's just a forum site, it's not like it's an emotional bond or something. If you actually had friends on here than you can talk to them through msn anyway...sooo, what's the big deal?

As for your gf problem, I'm sorry about it, but I'm not sure exactly how to give any advice soo...good luck.

Look man, here's the dillio: sometimes in romance, things don't work out. Often there's a reason for that, especially when you are still in high school. It's not always evident at the present, but down the road, everything will make sense. For now, just pick yourself up off the ground and get on gettin' on. Yeah, it sucks that this girl isn't interested back, but it's not the end of your life, man, and there are other people out there. You won't see them, though, if you always have your head down, so chin up. Look, you seem like a pretty good guy. You definitely have great things to offer to people, so just make sure you recognize what those things are and remind you that you do indeed possess them. Then get out there and use 'em. Things won't improve unless you want them to, and you proactively try to make a change.

Well said

[*tweeak*]

well, um, i'm not really sure what some girl not liking to has to do with quitting createblog so...

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