Be Honest Options

[michelina0kudelk...]

Okay guys read my rambling and please tell me honestly, am I hopeless, or otherwise, tell me in your posts.

I have liked this guy all year, even more recently, during the last month of school June, I began talking to him more than usual. During the whole year I walked to some classes with him, and we always sat near eachother on buses to places. I've always gotten along with him well, sometimes he acts like a d**k and you have no idea if he's even your friend when he does this even for a little at the end of a day I worry all night that he hates me, of course the next day I go to school and he's acting normal again, it's so strange. On our end of the year funday we were hanging out in a group with our friends and when we got back from my house swimming the other people were getting water and stuff so me and him went outside and went on the big blowup obstacle course things (yeah my high school is the GREATEST ) and we were supposed to meet the other people in a bit, but hes like no lets go over there on that one so yeah then we hung out for awhile and didnt meet the others until we went to one that they were waiting at this other thing, anyways yeah, i think too much sorry if this is spamming, but I have a huge crush on him, and its more than a little crush I have liked this guy for a lnggg time, and I think about him a lot, and it just makes me so sad to think that I may never get up the courage to tell him how I feel ( I'm painfully shy about that type of stuff ) and I think he knows I do, everyone else knows, even the guys at track, they could just tell, but am I hopeless, I think about him all the time, and this hasn;t just been for a couple weeks, huge amounts of time.
P.S. When some peopel made comments about us walking around together out loud (because we were together for quite a long time) he didn't say anything he just kept walking, I was afraid to look at him.. Guys I'm hopeless and confused..