Don't know what to do. Options

[x3chrissyx3]

Today, or...yesterday...July 3rd was my three and a half year anniversary with my fiance, Micah. I'm very deeply in love with him and I know that he's in love with me too. However, a lot has happened in our relationship to make me not trust him, one of the most significant being he cheated on me twice, and one, after a year or so, I found out about in May, though I had previous suspicions. Anyway, the cheating and lies made me mistrust him, a lot and I've turned into this person who doesn't want him to have distractions and just to focus on us and getting our relationship back on track. But for the past few weeks, he's changed from being a sweet, caring, helpful person and also a very good listener (yes, even when he was cheating on me) into a person who does things to spite me and says things that will hurt me, mocks me , invalidates me, and says "I don't want to deal with it" and walks away whenever I need him the most. I've been getting really psycho when he goes on AIM and all that stuff and I get so pissed off because if you have priorities I'm sure that your fiance would rank pretty high on that list, but now it's like he's putting me, my feelings, my concerns, our relationship on the back burner. He doesn't listen to me anymore and he doesn't show he cares anymore. I forgave him for every wrong thing he's done, including cheating on me twice and nowadays he won't give me 5 minutes when I gave him a F*ing year to CHEAT ON ME. I want it to be him and I, and I want him to be the person that he was, and start treating me right again. I don't trust that he's going to do this, and I don't know how to put it so he'll want to do what I ask him to. He doesn't like when I give ultimatums. I don't even know if it's worth it anymore if I can't trust him and he's going to treat me this way.

Maybe I should let him be and have his space, but it's not wrong to want him with me and just focusing on me is it? I'm not asking him to give up his job or anything, I'm just asking for him to listen and to make me a priority again.



I don't know what to do about us anymore. We've been together for a pretty long time, but I can't handle him anymore. I love him though...

I don't know what to do.