createblog diary, v.5 Options

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
2 days.
Oh my god.
!!!

On another note...this food is getting on my nerves, but I have to finish it. Gross.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

today was truly wonderful. haha again, it was worth the wait. he came over and we hung out for a good long time...played some burnout3, watched the phantom of the opera, played some doa2 as well...took webcam pics too. but oh man...it was just...great. the things he tells me... sigh. i just keep falling more and more...really. i love it. he makes me so happy and its just amazing because he says the same about me...and i love it because he's so very sincere about everything he says, i can just tell. but really...wow. what a day. oh man. i'll never forget it.
071505

[so0o_contagious]

dear cb diary,
hmm ive never done this before. but ill start. im infatuated with a boy and he doesnt know it. or i dont think he does. i want to see him and meet him. even boys here, that like me dont interest me. yesterday, for the first time. i thought these guys were digussttingg.they blocked me from both sides trying to get my number. bleh.

on a different subject. i want to feel loved by my parents. my mom has gotten better at understanding me. my dad.... i cry every time i think of him. i wsh i was a kid to start over. i want my dad to be proud of me. he doesnt show that he loves me and tells me im a mistake all the time. and im worthless.

my best friend is fading away from me. friends for 10 years. i never thought it would end. well. i dont want to get too worked up....

<3 tran

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

i should have gone
tomorrow, i shouldnt go.
its costing me friendship. happiness. a place in my "crew". instead i should be there. with the boys. the boys will make me feel better. i know. but i just hope i can sleep over at joes place.

[teeners4]

dear cB diary,

today was fun ^^ hehe it felt special. and hopefulli we'll last. i like him a lot, i never thought i would haha..well i knew i was intesreted in him, but its like to a higher leve. and hes so sweet =) and even though the park is known to be dangerous, i felt safe with him there

[inthemudhole]

Hi.

I'm really f**king sick of my friends ditching me all the time.

Kthx,

Brie

[funky_munky]

Dear cB diary,

I was walking around the library yesterday and there were soo many university students there studying.... then suddenly, I feel so scared because I'm not ready for college/U myself.
When september comes, I'm not going to be returning to the school I used to know, but a different place. New school, new courses........ my friends won't be around me for lunch. We won't be meeting up everyday during lunch to discuss our day... I'm on my own and the thought of that scares me so much.
My parents often encourage me and tells me that I can do it but I don't feel that way.....

Me

[miss barnes]

Dear CB Diary,

my house hot like a muthafucka right now..damn i cant wait until that man comes and fixes the damn air conditioner because this shit is unbelieveable.

reekah

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

mom: come on, lets go to tracy and i'll buy you clothes !
me: do i have to ?
mom: yeah were gonna go shopping ! i'm going to buy you clothes !!
me: okay.

*spend the whole day sulking because my mom argues everythin is too "pricey" (altho the shirt is the regular priced shirt ) and "not nice" and we'll come back for it later *

later that night, when they return from their shopping exscursion

me: gee, thanks mom for the .. erm plastic comb.

[SillyCourtney]

Dear CreateBlog Diary--

I feel as though my friends feel it's ok to hang out with me during the school year, but when it comes to summer they could care less about including me in anything. It hurts my feelings.. but watch. Come start of school they'll all want to be around me again. Argh I hate it.

--Courtney

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I feel horrible horrible. I can't believe this. I made things worse. I didn't think he was going to act this way. I should have never said anything. He's so stubborn, I swear. It's like he hates me now. I guess I did need my time. But will time make things awkward and worse? Whatever. I don't even know why I care so MUCH.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

sigh. i can't stand my parents. they suck. i want to leaaaaveee...they better lemme go to the godamn university i want to...i won't take night classes obviously. fine its a bad area, but whatever...i'll be careful. fah. i hate them. really. theres so many things i just want to scream at them and tell them how godamn bitchy and hypocritical they are, and that i really think of them as horrid people buuut that'll have to wait. sigh.

and guess who's back home. um. yeah. interesting msn name at the moment too. bah. so there goes my hopes of that trip helping him...i suppose not. sigh. mind you, theres not much i can do but i still have to talk to him about that one last...issue. then hopefully things will just...blow over. besides, i NEED it to...

then there's that whole other factor of that situation...i hope things will work. i know they will yet...i'm still scared. obviously. naturally. so yeah. its just...i don't know. baaaah. i think too much. and i hate that.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary.

why does she do this to me.

[BrokenDream]

dear Createblog diary,

here I am again. I haven't written in awhile. well, right now my friend is over. *sigh* too bad she moved to Kansas she moved last summer. it may not seem that bad because I still get to see her, but it takes longer, and she has to go back and forth. it must be so annoying! but, she missed Texas. I would. of course I would. ermm, anyways, I haven't spend time with her anymore so that's why she is over for 2 whole weeks! yes, yes, yes. but she gets too wierd sometimes. especially if she drank alot of caffenie and she was bouncing of the walls, haha.

speaking on caffenie.. my sleeping problems are still horrible. it's my legs and eyes. my eyes never shut and my legs have all these cramps!! it's so annoying, I could just scream right now!! *cough* anyways, I just now took a pill that makes my legs relax when I try to go to sleep. it helped last night, but it's already almost 1:00 AM, and I don't feel a bit sleepy. .... okay, maybe I lil' sleepy, haha. it's only because of the pill. not the "real" me. the "real" me in loaded with sugar, lol. the pill is making me sleepy.

in other news (haha) going to a water park tomorrow with my friend. I don't think she has been there. no, not Krissa, someone else. haha, why would Krissa move to Kansas and not even tell me!? but she didn't, lol. thank God.

w00t! also, on the trampoline, me and my friend totally got soaked with the hose. yeah, it's that hot out there. it's just so crazy. but too bad summer is almost over . it seems like it has only been a month. I will miss it so much.I only have around 6 weeks before school. no! no! please, no! but, it is true. 7th grade shouldn't be TOO bad.

ooh my, my. I forgot to tell you - I am Standard on the game dance dance revelation (I spelled it wrong..) ultramix 2! man, it's not that hard. now, instead of Light and Beginner, I am almost to a Heavy dancer. woo hoo!

-- Melissa

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I'm just going to shut up and not say anything. I quit.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

Only a little while longer. I'm doing better, I think. At least I'm eating now. Sort of. And sleeping instead of going out. Yeah.

-Me.

[so0o_contagious]

Dear cb diary,

my friend called today. i confronted her. for the first time, i didnt let her just brush me off. i told her everything and honestly, i couldnt have done it better. i left her speechless. this friendship doesnt mean anything to me anymore now that she hasnt been in it lately.

i feel dead. my parents wont let me go out, nor stay on that late. ive only gone out 4 times this summer.

im in love with this boy that i dont know very well. =| .. sighhh. i miss my cousin. i wish i lived in cali. then id get to meet him and see my cousin. im so lonely.

i havent been eating as much as usual. i lost two pounds so far. im 100 pounds, i feel heavy though. hmm. people have said at the end of school that ive gained weight. ...

i want a puppy. my OWN puppy. i wish brick were here so that i could play with him.

<3 tran

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

What's the point of going for something that you don't really want anyways? Maybe it is better to just not do anything at all. No chance of messing up.

<33

[Looow]

Laurenn ^

Dear Createblog Diary,
Maybe I shouldn't have said anything. yeah I think its better just to go back to normal. He just doesn't get it. At all.

[yummy_delight]

dear cB diary:

"Your ex is really cute."
Super. I'm glad you think so. And you're telling me this why? How am I supposed to react to this?

"He told me he think I'm cute too!"
Well, that's simply fantastic. I'm jumping with joy for you, really. Again, what do you want me to say? Well you can go f**k him now, I don't really care.

What am I supposed to say when my "best friend" tells me that she likes my ex? It shouldn't bother me, but it does. I'm over the whole relationship. But what about her? I'm still mad at her for abandoning me for her boyfriend. That incident obviously means that guys are more important to her than her friends. That was a stab in the back.

And now this. Telling me about Andrew is a punch in the face. I should never have given her ride on Friday. I should never have forgiven her when she didn't even give me a real apology. I should never have put myself in a position to be hurt again. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN SO f**king NICE.

She doesn't get it. She doesn't understand that these things that she does REALLY hurt. I feel physically sick just talking about it. Is there nothing sacred anymore? There's a clause in the nspoken girl code that says your BEST FRIEND'S EX IS OFF LIMITS. NO EXCEPTIONS. EVEN IF SHE'S OVER HIM. Isn't there? Well, there should be.

I've been a great friend. I'm not ashamed to say it. I've talked her through bad relationships, bad days, bad EVERYTHING. I thought she'd do the same. But, now I see the truth. She'll turn her back on me when her boyfriend snaps his fingers. She'll betray for one guy BOY. I'm sickened. I'm more angry with her than I've ever been with anybody else in my life.

But the only person I'm more angry at is myself. I am the only person I can really blame for this. If I had never forgiven her the first time, I wouldn't be in this whole "fool me twice" situation. And, when she told me that, I didn't even react. She doesn't even know that I'm mad. I didn't blow up at her or cry. I just shrugged and changed the subject... and COMPLIMENTED HER. I was so thrown off by this act of betrayal that I lost all feeling in my head. I didn't think. I just reacted in the nicest way possible. What's wrong with me?

I literally trusted this girl with my life. She was my best friend. Now I'm not sure of anything anymore. I'm going through all of my friends in my mind and I'm not sure if any of them will stay loyal to me or betray me. I just don't know. I'm not sure of anything anymore. I'm confused. I don't know who to trust. I'm crying.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

I am such a slacker and procrastinator. Damn this ocd. I need to start my AP gov shit and get offline. I said I would get offline three hours ago. -_-;

-Me.

[maia_dc]

Dear cB Diary,

He's still hot.
Naturally, I react in classic Maia fashion; I avoid him. adfasd;fjdasfkjf. This is just the way I am. I don't really care that it gets me NOWHERE, because at least it keeps me safe. It's better to avoid humiliation then throw yourself out there.
At least when it would really HURT if you fell.

So I guess I'm not one of those people who wears their "heart on their sleeve." That's a dumbass thing to be proud of. Believe me, I should know. So lock it up and keep yourself safe.
Yeeeeah.
Hah.

But the good news: my face didn't turn red when I saw him. The bad news: I didn't actually see him long enough to validate this. Hmmm, maybe "Inside of Love" still fits me...

I wish I could read minds at times like these... but then again, his mind is probably a very dirty place. On second thought, I'd rather not be corrupted.

xoxoxo
Maia
<3333

[*salcha*]

Dear cB Diary

Been fighting for a year about this, and I finally give it up...I'm still sad about it though.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,

It's making me insane. I don't know why I care so much. Yeah, maybe it's because he is one of my best friends but I've never felt this way towards any of our arguments. This is bad. Real damn bad. Miranda said they talked and he got so pissed off and just told her to deal this shit with me because he's not. What is that?! He would never say that no anyone. Esp. Miranda ..I mean what the hell did she do? Ugh he's just being an ass.

I called him today but his mom said he wasn't there. maybe he just didn't want to talk to me. It was rather odd. Whatever. I just DSUITHGNJS. What if I leave for Ohio and we're still like this? His birthday is coming soon and whattt? Ahh lalala. I want to fix things. Now.

I'm JIRUIVDXFH.

<3 Lorena

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary

i hope she chokes and dies knowing i hate and despise her every being. i hope she feels the bubbling loathing i have for her, the way i abhor her every little move and every single trait of her personality. the way she walks dresses talks bleaches her moustache asks me to pluck her armpit hairs demands i color her hair and shit. ew i hate her.