createblog diary, v.5 Options

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary

i feel all lonley. i think i need to get out of here, and find my way to stockton.

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary,

im so bored..Just got back from Taco Bell..Plenty of left over Tacos but im not too hungry..

i havent heard from Angelita and Kim in awhile..I figure their not home because of the Tornado in florida..but still..i miss talking to them...i hope their not gone too long and i hope they stay safe..i dont know what i would do without them..

Did i mention that tornado?? i swear..im scared..its level 4 or whatever..highest is 5..thats pretty strong..i have a house in florida , a nice house at that..i grew up in that house..so many memories, good and bad..i just dont want them to be killed durring that tornado..i guess im not ready to give it up yet..its like that old saying..

"Memories are nice, but thats all they are; Memories..."

ive been so stressed and depressed lately ive tried to cheer myself up with the digital camera , but nothing..no one seems to go online now-a-days and i fear im losing my close friends..wondering what their doing , not even bothering to call..

My dad is flying out tommorow..Going to California i think..He'll be back friday..My mom is going to be working from 7:00AM to 9:00 PM straight..ill be home all alone for a week..thank god..my parents have been pissing me off lately..

i really miss school..not the work..or the teachers..or the bullshit..but being away from home for 6 hours..around my friends for 6 hours..i dont know..i like school..and this summer is going by so slowly..i want school to start already..theres only about a month left of summer..and boy, summer `05 was gay..`04 was the shit..really missin those days..

Last night i couldnt sleep , kept thinking about Joash..Then when i FINALLY fell asleep , i just drempt about him hes taking me over i swear..this morning i had to get up early for church..i sat there in bed day dreaming about Pono..guess im not over him..and in church , all i could think about was Pono and Joash..Lord forgive me this cant be healthy..stupid boys.. heh

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Okay, today has been pretty much boring, just like yesterday. I listened to a ton of new songs today. That was fun, I guess. Other than that, it's been really uneventful until Vernon IMed me. Now why the hell would he do that? He was always rude to me online before, and then out of nowhere he IMs me and starts acting all nice. It feels REALLY WEIRD talking to him. O_O

--Cheryl

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I need to get away. I just want to leave right now. I feel like I can't handle it. It's making me insane. I just want to ..quit. I feel horrible and I can't help but blame myself for everything.

[WinterNights2]

Dear CB,

Today me and roxy scared my cousin to hell and back, the nigger walked to my house and was checking if I was "dead." Ahhh that shit was off da chains. Ah well. Also today in streetball a nigga jumped up and tried to alley-oop a bad layup and ended up gettin the ball ricoheted back in his face by the rim. The nigger was shamed today. I'm teifin a little cash from my niggas today ah well. I done with this shit, i gone

[*wind&fire*]

dear cB

I WISH I STOPPED PROCRASTINATING!!!!!! GEEEEEEZZZZ

ashamed

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

still rather happy about yesterday and i do believe i've sort of come up with a solution the slight problem...its a risk, but isn't everything in life? so yeah. i'm gonna talk to him later about that. i think it'll go fine. ahh...life. so crazy and unpredictable in sooo many ways.

//edit. just adding on...but yeah. life is great. really. i certainly changed perspective in a week, but thats okay. i'm happy, so whatever.

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary..

My dad is seriously pissing me off..hes my dad and i love him and all , but he REALLY pisses me off sometimes..im sooo glad hes leaving tommorow..its only for 5 days..but FINALLY ill get a break from him..

Now that hes gone maybe i can finally take pictures without him butting his nose in my buisness.."what are you doing?" .." whats that for"..arghh!! cant he just go watch TV or something..On top of that , he shaved his moustache today..Hes had a moustache ALL of my life..Seeing him without one was scary..its still hard to look at him..

Well my birds are out of the cage..Picture time?? ill try xP

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

well, i think for these last few days i might actually get ut of the house. sage and me are planning to go to dixie landin [theme park. roller coasters, yada yada] for a day. just us two, and her mom is she makes us >_>;;
she was like "well we need to meet up for these last few days your here. how bout dixie landin. yummy fries, hot guys, and i get to show of my new green shirt =P"
that got me excited. seeing sage is awesome. she has known me since i was a little 4 year old not even in school yet.
i forgot the last time i saw her. all i remember is tha it was some time last year, we went to the mall, and i got sick and we had to go home like really early or whatever. hahaha.... i felt so bad...

anyways, im looking forward to it. 5 days till dads house. YAY! ^_^

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

i'm in here way too often, but whatever. i just have that much to say sometimes.

well, just had an interesting discussion with him about his parents and well...the past situation. we were both at fault, but i still kinda feel mostly at fault...i mean, look at the relationship status i was in during that point in time. if you look at the entire situation from a few different points of view without any bias...i'm still the 'bad' person in this whole ridiculous thing. to all those people at school, to his parents, to him...ugh. its stupid. i know i made some mistakes, we all do, but right now its just...overwhelming a bit. i'm trying so hard to focus on what's been making me so happy in the last few days, but it still ties in with everything that has been driving me mad...i just feel so lost still...not as lost as previously, but still lost.

i just wish there was a way to prove it to everyone that i'm not so horrible and that things didn't quite happen like they appeared...they really didn't. its just...i don't really care about the other people that much...they don't matter to me. i just care about the parents...it just really bothers me what they think of me and so on, because its not true and i guess i'm just not used to parents disliking me...as awful as that sounds, its true. and its just...of all parents, his. 'cause their disapproval probably won't help us any...ugh. this sucks. this sucks butt, really. i won't hurt him...really. i'll try my best.

then there's the other party involved...ugh. i don't even know what to think about him anymore. he's changed in the last week and become rather...desperate sounding so i don't know. mind you, he's gone at the moment but i'm not sure what to do once he comes back. that should be interesting, mind you it will all really depend on his mindset by now. who knows...maybe he'll be more...sane now. i don't know.

life is so great, yet at the same time so very horrible. dammit all.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm getting away in 6 days. SIX DAYS!!!

I'm so excited.

[funky_munky]

Dear cB diary,

I dunno whats wrong with me.
This girl I kinda know from one of my tutor classes... well, I bumped into her the other day at the mall and when she saw me, she looked like she saw a ghost or something. Her smile disappeared and she immediatly looked away.
I did nothing... I SWEAR. I was just sitting there trying to fill out this application form.
Another completely unrelated topic, why do people seem so mad at me lately. know I can be blunt and terribly stubborn but thats only when I feel that I'm really right. I DO accept suggestions but you gotta keep in mind... youre giving me suggestions, I don't have to take them.
The reason why I'm asking is that I'm self conscious and I just need a little reassurance.... I'm working on my self-esteem... I try too you know. Don't get mad at me for that. It's not my fault.


Thnx for listening.
Much luv, ME

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

why do i feel so ashamed when shes the one whos such a bad friend ?

[Azn_Angel13]

dear cB diary...
omg i am so happy today! i m not kidding! the guy that i have liked for awhile now, asks me out! i am so happy! i thought he would never like someone like me because i thought he wasn't over wif his ex gf ( who clearly has). i am so happy though! gosh! but i am afraid... of finding out that maib he's juss using me juss to make his ex gf jealous ( i asked him when we were talking on aim and he sayd he isnt... but do u know how easy it is to lie on AIM?), finding that his ex gf really has feelings for him ( cus his ex is mai best friend), or making the same mistakes i did like the ones from mai old relationship....but i am so happy anyways!

[yellowgurl]

Dear cB diary,

Im so sleepless. I still cry alot for some reason.. maybe hes avoiding me I still never told him yet. I loved him but not anymore.

Well Monie (doggy) kept barking last night... at 1am - 2am... she needed to go out for a washroom break whoops no one knew what was up. lolz. She woke up the whole house now we are all tired.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Ah. Okayy well I slept over at my sister's house on sunday and came back today. It was fun. We went bowling and to the mall. It made me realize how much I miss her. I almost teared up int he car when we were talking about like how she left and stuff. It's pathetic but I don't know ..I was just always so close to my sistser. Ahh she seems sooo unhappy. I know she is because she told me. At night when we were about to fall asleep, she started crying and ah it was so depressing. She wishes she could come back but she can't. It hurts sooo much seeing her this way. fsdsh

<3 Lorena

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

My day was fine. Then you. SHUT THE f**k UP AND GO THE f**k AWAY.

[lovescream]

Dear cB diary,

[8:36PM]

My internet just went down again. T_T I wonder why it does always around this time.. Bleh.

Well, yeah. I'm talking to Angie and stuff. She's moving out with her father in a few days and my grandparents move into their room. Finally! Last time, my grandma was a huge biotch. She started f**king hitting me and it pissed me off so I like.. hit her back. She was giving me the most scariest look EVER. I started crying because she told me I was worthless, useless, lazy, and that all I did was take up room on Earth. Then she told me she wanted to hit me to death, so I said "okay, fine, whatever. Hit me to death, HAVE f**king FUN. I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!" and she started hitting me with my pillow.. my favorite pillow. ;x

Okay, so I bitched at her. I started to burst into tears. My mom and her boyfriend woke up and I ended up sleeping with my mom.. but I couldn't fall asleep. so I grabbed the laptop and stuck myself into the small, tiny closet. T_T Yeh. I was so f**king pissed. I only felt like talking to certain people.. like Cheryl and Ryan and Angela. ;x

- Toby.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog diary,
Today was a pretty good day. I went to Old Navy and got the cute jacket I spied on last week..I could buy it this time thanks to my paychecks =] I saw *him* when I stopped by to check my schedule for tomorrow..his eyes never left my face. Oh god..I don't know what's going on, but I like this feeling right now. I really do.

--Teesa

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

I heard AP scores came in. I'm fucking scared. ARGH ALKSJDHFKJNASD

-Me.

[inthemudhole]

Hey..

I dropped the summer algebra retake. I dug myself into such a hole again that I couldn't come out of, and I knew it. I'm retaking it during the year and then getting myself caught up the next summer, so I can be back into the honors classes.

I'm never repeating what I did in eighth grade. No more slacking off. More motivation.

Big lecture last night and this morning.... three to four hours long.
Not thrilling.
They're taking away all of my computer time eventually, but some of it is being eliminated right now.

Hm. That's about it. I'm exhaused.

See ya later, I guess..

Oh, and it's been seventeen days. Just thought I'd mention that bit of news.

-Brie

[miss barnes]

Dear CB Diary,

is it possible to love someone that you dont know?

[*jooleeah*]

To Brie: I'm sorry. It's good that you've been able to stop for 17 days. I'm proud of you =]

Dear Createblog Diary,
5 days. I can't believe it, the highlight of my year is finally coming in five days.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary--


Why am I not receiving my A.P. scores? I am dying here. Please come soon, so I can at least know how horrible I did.

--Teesa

[SillyCourtney]

Dear Createblog Diary-

My brother is getting on my nerves. But, when do siblings ever not get on someone's nerves? I have done nothing but sit on my lazy butt and play on the computer all day. Typical summer day for me.

Is it possible to have a crush on someone you've never even *actually* met. -facepalm-

Coheed & Cambria is love. -sings along to The Light & The Glass-

-Courtney