createblog diary, v.5 Options

[*lolita kitty*]

ok. wow. i feel just, er- wow. i lied in about 90% of what i said in my last entry [not the last one, the one before that. and not 90% of it, but 90% of what i said about patricia and jaylyn]. then didnt delete me from everything, just banned me from their guild. they dont think im going to become a slut. well- er- they said thats 1/3 options. the other two were be hurt in a relationship and get a beatdown or something.

but the thing is, i lied and now i feel like poo. no, worse than poo. dirt. but now it feels weird. if she was reading that one, what other cb posts was she reading? i feel like i cant do anything without her or jaylyn popping up out of nowhere. i was on yahoo and then jaylyn im'd me saying i was banned from the guild. kristeen im'd me the day before that [ i think ... ?] and asked me what was wrong. people keep e-mailing me i just........ i just want to be left alone. but no. they think that im running away from my problems, and that if i try to be left alone nothing will get solved. which is why they try every way to help me. which is sad, because its not help. most of it it capitol letters cussing me out telling me how pathetic i am. then in the end they calm down and say "were just trying to help"

psh, puh-leez. all i want from anyone is to be f**king left alone. when i read that pm on gaia saying that she found out, i was like "holy fcuking shit". its like doing something horrible and your parents finding out. that feeling that......... you just feel so bad. and patricia, if your reading this........................... stop.

k im done. 9 days till i see dad again. i wish it was shorter.
life is pissing me off.

[duplicatex0x0x0]

cB Diary,

I recently got a boyfriend, and a job. I'm proud of myself :)

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary:
My dad is a f**king bastard who wants me to have no life, whatsoever.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

It's unexplicable, this misanthropy of mine, but it becomes stronger every day. I wish I could explain it. I'm cracking. Ugh.

-Me.

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Oh hmm. Well today I hung out with Francois. It was mm interesting. Fun too.

Anyways. Wow the school year is starting soon. I'm done with the past years. The whole "school is shit" stage. I'm tired of feeling like dumbest one of my friends. I'm done with giving up. I know I can do better than what I have done. I know I can. (Wow. Was I being optimistic..?). Ugh next year I will do better. I just need to belive in myself. if nobody really believes in me well who cares. (Maybe thats what has stopped me from doing better. ) jkfsdhfj. I just want to make my parents proud for real. More than anything, I want to feel proud about myself. I mean really proud. I never feel proud about myself and nor do my parents feel proud about me. They might say so but really they don't mean it. Yeahh.

<3 Lorena


EDiT:

10:47pm

Dear Createblog Diary,
Okay I'm back. I'M SO PISSED OFF. It's not even funny. I was so excited. I was going to hang out with my two best friends that I NEVER ever get to see and we were ALL available. That's like NEVER. Booty is always playing sports Cristina is always free actually and I'm usually hanging out with my friends or have other plans. I hate the "Isamar" girl. She's a little snobby 7 year old acting 12 year old. She talks too much for her own good and she think she's hella mature. The three of us don't want that snob up our asses so we were just like eff it. I cancelled. Booty is going to be hella pissed bc he had to cancel his plans. Ugh freaking frack. Stupid kid had to visit NOW. Talk about bad timing. Can Cristina, Booty and I be ANY more selfish? I don't think so.

<33 Lorena

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Createblog Diary,

i just addmited im in LOVE with him. wow. i felt..something...like rushing through my body. that feeling i got with oscar and george<3. the pressure on my chest and the feeling like my heart was caught in my throat. wow, i .. just admitted it on my 369 post. what am i going to doooo. i cant fall in love again, and ... not be with him. his stupid mother. lordy, cant he just be with me without her knowing ? maybe i really dont love him though, ahh shattup bella. |:| confused.

[miss barnes]

dear cb diary

been in bama since the 2st. i'm kinda ready to go home because i have the book to read for advanced english

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

i wish i could get out more. i wish we could actually do something at my moms house. i like the internet, but i want to get out and go somewhere for once. i just feel so... trapped in here... i want to leave... *sighs*

8 days. w00t <333

[lKVNiiKINKYl]

Dear cB Diary,
I love cB even though its only my second day.
I feel so cool 104 (well now 105 ) collective posts and 92 per day. There are a lot of cool people here I'm glad I am getting to know and so many helpful people :-).

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary.

Ohh boyy. Today was fun actually. I expected it to me akward and weird I guess but it wasn't. Hmm since Lorena has no life whatsoever let's go over the details..

I hung out with Tatiana,Andre,Lauren Wong,Lauren lee and Amanda then we went to Brians house but he wasnt home to we called him and he was like "I'm at alex's house" so we went to Alex's house and Drew, Alex & Brian were there. They took our chips and our soda. Hmm then we went to Tillman.

Afterwards, we left the park to walk to Tatiana's house. Hmm talked for a bit and Lauren got picked up so I walked to the Landing. I missed the bus so I decided to go to the other stop which was far but it was better than waiting. I saw James, Thi, Mac, Wesley.and Drew there. Yeah they told me to catch the bus with them (which wasn't going to be for another 15 minutes) so they told me to hang out and stand around there for a while .. lol. Hmm then Thi went home (it was nice seeing him.nice guy.) so Drew waited with us for the bus. (James,Mac and Wesley were going to take it with me) The bus came, Drew left and we got on the bus. yeah I was just laughing with the three guys. Mann they were soo loud. Yeah . Well Wesley was. Ha we were acting like we didn't know him. Mm hmm. I was walking home and I was craving tacos so I passed by and bought three tacos. How mexican of me ..

<333 Lorena

[toodlepops.]

Dear cB diary,

I don't understand it. Why can't I understand it? It used to be so simple before, but not anymore.

[Teesa]

Dear Createblog Diary--
Today was just the most awesome day! I called the International Baccalaureate Office and got my PIN number..I was so nervous typing it in to receive my scores, but I got a 5 on the French test! I literally screamed with happiness..everyone was so proud of me, I was so happy because of that. I seriously couldn't believe it.

Work was lovely..I got my second paycheck..so now I have about $200 for the Europe trip..I'm aiming for at least $1000, but we will see. I love paychecks. They are too great. I also saw him today, which made everything all the better. *sigh* If only life was this good every day. Oh well, I will enjoy it for now.

--Teesa

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

Today was all right. Wasn't too awkward or anything.. Only certain parts but it wasn't like the whole day was like ehh.. It was fun for the most part.

But ack. Around the guys I felt like I was watching a freaking horror movie. You know, when you feel really uncomfortable and you're scared shitless.. But you stay anyways because. Well just because. Besides I couldn't really think of a reason to go. The best way to get rid of a fear is to face it, right?

Yaaahhh.. And then I came home and went to visit my auntie. It was okay. I watched Miss Congeniality 2 and Hide and Seek.

Mmmhmm.. Summertime. But it feels like Christmas.

<33

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

somtimes life sucks. my life sucks. v__v;

--Frankie

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Dear cB diary,

if i knew they would heckle me about the possibility of me being bi-polar i would have kept it to myself. i thought i could tell them and they wouldnt be immature and try to ignite my symptoms by upsetting me, angering me, depressing, me then trying to shoot my spirits back up to happy. f**king bitches i hate them so much right now. she doesnt even care about me all she wants to do is have FUN.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I thought I knew how I felt. I thought I knew what to do .. I thought I knew the whole story. I guess I was wrong. I don't know what or who to believe anymore. I'm so confused. I'm overwhelmed. I don't even know what to say.

<3 Lorena

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

dear cB diary,

god, they forgot about me so quick. and its all her fault once she knew i was getting close to her she swooped right on in and took advantage of her vulnerable times.

[[Scr3amin][Horro...]

dear cB diary,

Whoo long day, parent gone 2 wedding I have been online seen 9:00 8:00 in the morning. where is everyone at? I feel like I am the only person typing. Im the top 2 poster of today wow I posting alot today. Almost 380 posts. I dont spam btw. I still got 9 hours or more till I go to bed... wow that alot of posts in 9 hours

-Liz

[sharerol]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Today has been boring. Very boring. I woke up at 11, got up....um. Went online. Went offline. Ate lunch. Watched television. Giants won, thanks to me. :] Um um um. Watched more television....Went back online. Talked to people. Browsed through the usual sites. Got an offer from my uncle to go see Land of the Dead. I accepted, but my sister changed her mind and didn't wanna go, so I decided not to go either. But for some reason, I didn't want to
go in the beginning, but then I did. O_O And when she changed her mind, I still did. But now, I don't really want to, but that's because I feel extremely lazy at the moment. Ugh. Summer. But next week....Parents are on vacation. Sooo... O_O Six Flags. Milpitas. Fremont. -->SHOPPING! ...And parents.... T_T

--Cheryl

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

well, its all over. i got my last pm from patricia, and i think were officially done with all this fighting shit. im glad, because i did not like it one bit. well, im going to go to ncs next year, hang out with my new friends, and my life will move on from there...

summer vacation is being shitty. i literally wake up and get on the computer, eat, and then sleep. my mom wont take us anywhere. when i ask her she throws her usual bitch fit and starts crying. my goooooodddd...

well, i cant complain. im going to see dad in 7 days, and thats where the real fun starts. im still glad were going to florida...

...well thats all for now. illwritebacktommorow, kthxbye! <333

[xldubaliciousx]

Dear cB Diary:

I feel lonely right now. No one is home.. And I don't know. Something's not right. After last summer I think I've just been trying too hard. Thinking too much.

Sometimes I wonder if I even need friends.

<33

[Unpredictable]

Dear CB Diary,

i find myself waiting online for hours for him to sign on..Pathetic , i know..And when he does sign on..I sit there staring at his screen name..Almost wishing he would take the time to IM me..

I think he last IMed me on Thursday, the 7th..but it was only to invite me to a chat convo..Liane and Sharlene are at it again with the whole "My family is better than your family" thing..They had me vote..Sharlene asked me days ago to vote for her so i did her a favor..But what i didnt expect is for Joash to IM me...i was wierd..Maybe 4 "Hi"s in the last year and then BAM he IMs me..And the convo we had carried on for awhile..Untill he had to sign off..i think im starting to like him..im not sure...hes been hurt so much in the past..and its a shame cus hes a really great guy..hes not the type of boyfriend that would hurt his girl...he deserves so much better..i guess i just want to show him that..hes really cute..like really cute too...and hes everything i want in a guy..But hes going to high school..and im going to 8th..two different schools..he'll probably forget about me -.-... depressing..

Im thinking of revealing my feelings about him to his sister, Mozelle..Maybe somehow she'll accidently tell him..maybe he'll feel the same..maybe we'll hook up?? i completely doubt it..but theres always that possibility...*sigh* the only person online right now is Sharlene..Im dying for Joash or Pono to sign on..Just to stare..and wish..and hope.. im hopeless

Until next time

[takeapolaroid__x]

Dear cB diary,

EMI'S LEAVING!!! NOOoOOO!!! WHY??!!! i'll miss her. this goes out to her..
I'll miss you...

Your ability to make me happy when i was down. Your up-lifting smile. I'll miss knowing you're only a phone-call away.
I'll miss your laugh. I'll miss the way you would text me for help. I'll mss the way you trusted me like no one else did.
I'll always remember the stupid things we did. I'll always remember being immature in the middle of Times Square.
I'll always remember the things you told me. About you. About other people. About what will happen. What could happen. What has happened.
I'll never forget the mucking around in maths. The unstoppable laughter. The unstoppable us.

=( aww i feel sad now. lol

[`SWTWiNKLE3YES]

dear cB diary,
im bored but not sleepy =| tomorrow is franco`s birthday .. we are probably going to the beach and be there for like a whole day. hah. tanning here i come! ;D

-- adrienne.

[inthemudhole]

Hey.

Whew, I'm exhausted.
I haven't slept in a few days and I've been walking a few miles every night lately.

Oh, I played bloody knuckles and quarters with Zena today.
Yeah, she won.
My hand's so swollen. It took a few hours for me to bleed though.

Hm... it's my dad's birthday today.
Great. Another holiday.

Well, see ya.
That's all I have to say, really.

-Brie