A Message to Anyone, v.6 (continued) Options

[mai_z]

You're gone, and I already miss you. You're going to be gone for so much longer, but I want you to come back.

[inthemudhole]

Heyyyy. I'm so glad you're finally around. It seems like it's been ages, I know, but it's great talking to you again and just hearing you say all of those sweet and adorable things you say. I can't wait until I get my phone back so we can talk. I still miss you though... I watched all of these sappy romance movies last night and thought of you and how things will be in the future and if this long distance thing can work out, you know?
Oh well.
Love you.

- Me

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Hey. Remember after we broke up we said we'd remain friends? Well, neither of us really took it to heart and did anything about it, and now... I think it'd be nice to be friends again. You were a really good friend and we had a lot of good times. It's almost been a year since we broke up, so I believe that's enough time. I think we could be friends again. I hope you feel the same.

- Me

[Looow]

____:Okay, so I have the phone next to me. I have your number and I think I know what to say. Why can't I do it?Why is it that all I want to do is cry. Maybe its because I'm not over the fact that you're not here. Even after years and years. I just wish I could stand up to you and just tell you that I hate being ignored by you all the time. That I hate thinking that you're going to call because you tell me yourself that you are because you've changed. It's all lies though.. But maybe by calling you, I'd push you away and that's the last thing I want to do. I want to have a decent relationship with you. I've always wanted to. All these years but it was always me who wanted to. I'm tired of it. I want to see that YOU really want to. I want to see that you REALLY care. Not just care for two weeks and then forget about me. fjksf. Uhm. Thursday will be better ..I'll call then

[*takingbacksandy*]

I hate you.

[whywasisostupid]

dear seth,

i saw you just a few minutes ago, but i miss you. :( im a bit obsessive.
i love your kisses.

[pyoon]

To the people of earth,
DEATH FROM ABOVE!

[nhj_2006]

dear you,

i hope one day i can be strong enough and just leave you, cuz i can't take all this shiz anymore. what a freakin jerk yet u got my heart.

[PinkTrash]

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why'd you have to do that to me? :( why didnt you just tell me? maybe i didnt LOVEE you that much either, and maybe you weren't that inlove with me as we acted like infront of everyone else but you know that i was HAPPY when i was with you. i dont know if its a friendship thing, or if its a romance but i know that now you're gone as a friend & as a lover; you stole my happiness & im definetly not happy without you.

[yummy_delight]

to You:

You aren't interested anymore. I can see that. I could feel you slipping away. I'm not even going to entertain that idea that actually committing myself to you would have made you want to stay with me. I'm just going to pretend that nothing ever happened. Honestly, I'm better off that way.

But before I attempt to erase my own memory, I want you to know that I meant every word I ever said to you. I wasn't lying when I told you I loved you, that I wanted to have you, that I thought about marrying you. Every word drenched in love or in sex that I whispered in your ear, yelled to the world or scribbled on paper and tucked in your pocket was true. I wouldn't take any of it back for the world.

We were a secret, but was your love a lie? I'd rather not know. I'm content with the idea that we had a mutual beautiful something, but you craved change. However fleeting it was, I want to believe, I need to believe it was real.

If anything, please remember that I loved you with all of me, and I'll never stop.

I TRULY LOVE YOU.

[*Azarel*]

Four thousand. Let's make this memorable.

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I'm no writer, but I love the way it feels just trying to express how I feel, no matter how cliche, how cheesy. I finally understand how those people feel, and it's amazing. These feelings just always keeps coming, ceaseless, never ending - just how I feel.

You are most dear to me; everytime anything reminds me of you, I feel my heart momentarily stop, and everything freezes. Then, expectedly, it comes flooding back the next second, and my heart races, the sides of my mouth crease into a smile. And each time, the sensation is just as exhilarating as it was the first time.

It still strikes me as unbelievable, incredulous, impossible even, that I've found someone like you, someone who complements me in every way. I never thought I'd find that person, the one made for you, and now that I have.. I know it's you. I know this will last. This isn't anything close to puppy love anymore. I don't believe it ever really was. Maybe we're naive, but it just adds on to the thrill of being in love.

It gives me such a high, it makes me giddy, I feel like I've fallen back into the sixth grade, when children get so worked up about crushes and doodle the name of their love of the moment. And it's funny in a way, I do that alot too now. However silly it may be, it makes me smile when I do it. I think about us. I think about you.

Just the way you say the simplest, but sweetest, things always leaves me at a loss for words. You're so wonderful, and I wonder sometimes how I ever got you, how I'm even keeping you with me - but then I realize, you wonder the same about me. Our story, it's really quite far-fetched, but that's the way some stories should be, right? How some love is? Of course. It's amazing.

Nearly three months has felt like so much longer, and I'm still excited for "us." I hate that people scoff at online relationships, at how "fake" they think the relationship is. We'll show them. I can't wait to meet you, to finally be able to hold you, cuddle, lay my head on your chest, just physically be with you.

People always question the meaning of life - and I've tried to be an optimist by always replying, "Simply to love and be loved." And now, I believe it so. I can't remember how I got along without you, I can't remember me without you. I don't know where I'd be without you; these past few months have been hard on me - family problems and grades - but you've been there despite your own problems. That's all I really need for now. Sometimes, though - actually a lot of the time - I lay in bed, yearning for your touch.

And it tears me apart - I've missed chances where I could've met you. In the winter, your visit to UCB & Stanford, just a few weeks ago when you stayed in Gilroy.. God. You have no idea how badly I want to meet you. But then again, we always describe things that way between us - "you have no idea how.." But I think we both really do know that our love is unfathomable.

Haha, I find it amusing. I've broken out into tears of happiness just writing about you. It's not the first time either. I've never felt like this about anyone; I thought I knew what love was, but you've proven me wrong: you've shown me so much more. After sixteen years, I've managed to stumble upon a love that will last me the rest of my life. And I love that.

I used to always dream about you - I didn't know it was you at the time, or that you even existed - but I wished so badly for you to someday appear, to come sweep me off my feet. It felt like someday never came, though; what's ironic is that when I stopped looking for love, you came along: the love of my life, who I've been searching for my entire life. Someday has finally arrived. My prince has come.

That's just what you are, Justin: my prince. This is my fairytale that I thought would never exist. Maybe it's not a fairytale, but it's as close as I'll ever get. The thought of meeting you, I've toyed with it so much. I'm so excited, and the anticipation is killing me. Babe, come home. I need you too.

"They say it makes the world go round. Money can't buy it. And it conquers all. They say all is fair in love and war. So make love, not war. They say the first one always has a special place in your heart. They say it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. They say love is blind. Love is colorblind. Love is a many-colored thing. There's first love, puppy love, platonic love, unrequited love, true love, unconditional love, love at first sight, the love of your life, the one you want your mama to meet, the one that got away... So we ride through the Tunnel of Love. Make out at Lover's Lane. Say our vows at the Chapel of Love. Take a cruise on the Loveboat and reserve the Honeymoon Suite. And sometimes we gotta stay at the Heartbreak Hotel. But hey, love is a battlefield. And I'm a soldier of love."

[haostar]

i hate you and u know why. so dont act stuped!

[*Azarel*]

i hate you and u know why. so dont act stuped!

... oh, ironies.

Jared - I really don't believe you love Rachel as you claim to. All you think about is the sex. I never believed you when you told me you loved her. That you love her. It's not love when you keep questioning it the way you do. It's not love at all. I shouldn't be one to judge, but you admit it yourself that all you think about is the sex, or rather in your bullshit terms "making love." You simply don't get it, do you? I'm sorry to say, but I just don't believe you really know what love is..

[silver-rain]

Oh, I'm so glad I got to see you again. Really, the past week has been so hectic and bleh, but you've always been there for me. And yes, even though yesterday didn't go as planned, it was still enjoyable in some parts. And, you have to admit, watching the fireworks with me would be better than watching them somewhere else with other people hah.
But eh, we talked this over last night, but I don't like how you don't ask me abut my day, comment on how I look, and other small stuff that shouldn't matter but I still make a huge deal out of it. But I'm glad we can talk it out and get through it.
And, I really liked today. I like being with you, and hah thank you for introducing me to Boston Market. Another place to add to that list of places you've shown me. Hah. I love you so much, and it was true that I said after our "fight"; I will always love you, and the fact that I can't get too mad at you (or you can't get too mad at me either) is because we love each other so much that in the end, it isn't worth getting so mad. We'll always have each other <3

[ANG33ZY]

omg o_o

[[Mediocre]Artist]

I asked you about the virgin Mary because I've been praying to her lately and its been helping and I don't know what that means for me because I'm supposed to be Baptist. I don't think I could be a Catholic. I hate church and I don't believe the pope is anything more than a great priest for the world. Blah, wasn't I an athiest last summer?

[PinkTrash]

I avoid everything & anything that will remind me of us and our past.. everytime i take pictures with my cellphone, everytime i smell that familiar cologne of yours & everytime i sign online and see you there but can't speak to you because we're no longer friends nor more. you made me really happy; and you were nearly one of the only people in my life that could actually do that. more than happy. i remember my happiest weekend everr; and that was the only one where you stayed home from your cottage. even though you were dating Brittany, and we weren't inLOVE then yet, i was so happy and optimistic about life. but now things changed. . . sometimes people say "I wished we were always friends, and never more because it ruined our friendship" but I dont want to believe that with you because then I would've never experience my high high highh happiness with you during the time together. yes, it did ruin my happiness from before, but hell we had too much fun, but now its overr. all overrrrrrrrrrr.. OVERRRRRRRRRR;

[*stephinika*]

to _______
hey. thanks for the great talk on the phone...i needed it and i think you did too. it was nice to just talk about...well, everything. i learned some new information too...it hurt, but its good to know. thanks for everything.

to ______
wow, i'm so glad that you're okay. you scared me so much...oh my god. don't ever do that to me again....i'm just so relieved that you're okay.

to all you fcukers who won't leave me and my life alone
i hate you. you come here to read my shit just so you can formulate more gossip and rumours don't you!? i hate you. i hate you all. leave my godamn life alone. you don't care about the truth...you just like to have someone's life wrapped around your little finger to make and tell stories about, don't you!? i don't care if you don't want the truth because here it is right here, right now.
no, i didn't cheat. i would never do a thing like that. perhaps i did some flirting and slightly inappropiate things...fine. but i did not cheat and that does not give you the right to call me a slut so fcuk you all. your own lives are just that much more pathetic so stfu.

[[Mediocre]Artist]

You're so jealous; afraid he'll make a move on me and that I'm not forceful enough to say no. He's not who you should worry about. I'm the one that wishes I could kiss him. Just once. Just to see. And I hate to say thing, but I probably wouldn't if you hadn't paid him so much attention.

[this__love]

dear blah blah blah,

i'm wondering how you are doing and whether or not i should give you a call.

[sharerol]

-Gary, aw, feel better.

-You never talk to me anymore. Plus, you're always away.

-ANNA, I think I might be going to the Great Mall next week.

[nopattern]

-Why must you be such a...jerk? I used to be able to trust you. Now, I never know what may happen. You can't form your own opinion anymore. You used to be so carefree and didn't take any note to what others thought. Now you're just like them. At least, you're turning that way. You go with the crowd. You don't care what you do to me or anybody else who isn't them. They won't be there for you. They will be gone in 5 minutes. And if they aren't, they still won't be what I was. At the very least, learn to form your own opinion. They won't always be there telling you who or what you should like. Quit trying to make me look like the badguy. I've done nothing wrong. I haven't changed. It's all you. Quit trying to make me feel like crap. I don't deserve this.

-Quit trying so hard. If people don't like you for the way you are, screw them. You're cool enough. Make your own opinions. Quit lying. Nobody cares what you do or don't have or what you do or don't do. It's not a big a deal as you make it out to be.

-Stay the way you are.

[*jooleeah*]

Why do you act like a bastard and get praised for it...?

f**king bitch. I hate you.

[Looow]

- Oh crap. I'm sorry. You knew it though. I feel baddddd.

[heyyfrankie]

dear mother f**ker,

i am so pissed off at you right now. i can't believe that you are doing this to me. we have been friends for going on 6 years now and i had enough courage to do what i had to do and i was just WAITING for you but no. you always insisted no. i always knew the truth but never really said anything. it REALLY sucks what you are doing. i hope that everyone finds out at school and makes fun of you until you cry.

love your BEST good friend, Frankie

[*Azarel*]

-ANNA, I think I might be going to the Great Mall next week. 

Cool. Let me know when. I might be busy, but I'll try my best to make it.