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[me1issaaaa]

Melissa has a problem. Wow.

Kayso... I have a boyfriend, and I have never been happier. However, I'm beginning to realize just how hard things are becoming. It's a long-distance thing. I'm in Georgia, he's in Texas. He's coming to visit me again this weekend and he'll be here for a week. I'm excited, but I have a feeling this will be the last time I see him. It's just too hard to be away from him all the time - I hate wondering what he's doing all the time, where he is, what he's thinking. As dumb as it sounds, I just need his touch. I need to feel him and know he's real. Chatting online and phone calls just aren't cutting it for me. He always has girls hanging off of him, they LOVE him where he is. I know he's not doing anything with them, I know that for a fact, but just knowing what could happen irritates me to the very end. I trust him, but I just don't know. I DON'T trust those girls at all.

I've been asked out quite a few times in the last few months, and I'm starting at a new school next year, so I'll be meeting loads of new people. I don't really want to be tied down to someone so far away when I could have someone here.

I've been feeling this way for a few days now, and I can usually convince myself out of it, saying how it'll be worth the wait, but... I'm young. I have a lot to experience. I have a lot of stuff I want to do without having to feel guilty, like just talk to other people. My boyfriend gets really jealous when I talk to other guys - he hates my guy friends. He does feel really bad about it, like we had this whole discussion on how much he hates to be like a controlling boyfriend, you know the thing.

My mind is just racing now. I'm at the point to where I just have no clue what to do. I don't want to feel so tied-down all the time, but at the same time, I know this is something I may never have again.

I'm so confused, I'm just blanking out. I'll probably have to edit this or add more on later because... I probably left out a bunch and I'll think of it later.