i miss her, she was my best friend Options

[iheartsimba]

I was 8 years old. I was at swim team practice sitting alone. This girl comes up to me asking if I wanted to be her swim partner. I said yes. We had a blast together. Like natural friends. That night she invited me to sleep over. We talked about everything. A few sleepovers later she started calling me her bestfriend. And I couldn't agree more. We were like the perfect pair of people.
We swore we'd be best friends forever. We loved eachother so much.
Well when I was 12, my friend got this disease. They thought it was cancer. They soon found out it was a tumor. She was seriously sick for a long time. I loved her so much, and we were having some hard times. She kept saying she tried commiting suicide before.
I was scared. I stuck with her through everyhting. Then a lot more things began happening, along with the disease her parents were tlaking about divorce, her sister beet her, her dad was having job problems, and they were probably gonna move....leaving me behind.
Well I stuck with her. THings started to get better. She got better, her parents are madly in love again, and they wern't moving.
Well I told her a lot of secrets about myself later....and they got out around the school. I got in this fight with her. I felt like I had done so much for her, but gotten nothing in return.
We fought for a while, and just ignored eachother for about the next year.
Well a few months ago we came back to eachother. We told eachother how much we missed it all. Now I am 13 and I miss her so much. But by now, I think she has moved on. She's become pretty popular and well....she's changed. She seems so much happier without me. And I miss her SO MUCH. I loved sleeping over. I used to hate sleeping on the floor at her freezing cold house...but you don't relize how much you loved it till its gone. I'm crying at the moment. She was my bestfriend in the whole world. She was part of me. We were eachother. When I lost her, it was like a part of me was missing. I think the part of her that I was has healed. She doesn't need me. But I need her so much.

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We have moved on
I've gone my way,
She's gone hers.
We are different people now.
But for me,
It's like a curse.
She has changed
While I remain the same
Leaving me crying
Exhailing deep breaths of tears
She has new firends
Mine are deserted
She has so much fun
With everyone
Leaving me, just hoping for life to be done.
She was part of me.
She was who I was,
That part of me is missing.
Where is the love,
We said we'd be best friends for ever.
I have the notes to prove it.
What happened to that?
Was it erased?
My heart was,
I have to many problems to face...
I miss her.
I loved her.
She was my only real firend.
We related to everyhting.
We said we'd be firends forever.
I guess not.

[whomps]

Aww, that's so sad. Have you tried talking to her? Tellin her how you feel?

Bestfriends are suppose to be foreeevveerrr!
Well I hope it gets better for you..
I suggest talking to her about this..
I mean, it'd be cool if she felt the same way riight? yeahh!

[iheartsimba]

Aww, that's so sad. Have you tried talking to her? Tellin her how you feel?

Bestfriends are suppose to be foreeevveerrr!
Well I hope it gets better for you..
I suggest talking to her about this..
I mean, it'd be cool if she felt the same way riight? yeahh!

yah i hope she would. But what if she doesnt....I would like....kill myself. I swear I can't live without that bitch

[SeoulJah4God]

its ok you will get over it. Its worse for me whenever i seem to make a good friend and nwo i have a REAlly greate friend,,, and i haev to move. Its been this way for years since my dad does siding and we constantly have to move cuz fo his work. Its really frustrating. so i understand u man

[iheartsimba]

its ok you will get over it. Its worse for me whenever i seem to make a good friend and nwo i have a REAlly greate friend,,, and i haev to move. Its been this way for years since my dad does siding and we constantly have to move cuz fo his work. Its really frustrating. so i understand u man

no. i don't think i can. we fought for a over a year. and i never got over it.
we were bff''s for 5 years. she is who i am.

[iheartsimba]

wwait...that weird, wasn't the deleted or somehting?

[starling]

wwait...that weird, wasn't the deleted or somehting?

no, it just feel behind in the boards. i found it about three pages back.

[conster]

thats so sad.. well i understand how impt she is to you but shes moved on.. and what can u do? maybe u can talk to her and all and tell her how much u miss her and how u feel.. best friends suppose to be honest and confide in each other rite? if not then forget it... shes just gonna take up more of ur time in ur life... friends are all over the corner and it only takes a minute to start a great friendship like how u and she once did

[iheartsimba]

thats so sad.. well i understand how impt she is to you but shes moved on.. and what can u do? maybe u can talk to her and all and tell her how much u miss her and how u feel.. best friends suppose to be honest and confide in each other rite? if not then forget it... shes just gonna take up more of ur time in ur life... friends are all over the corner and it only takes a minute to start a great friendship like how u and she once did

your probably right. I had her as my partner for this project thing today in social studies with my other firend, and she basically ignored me. And whenever she did talk it was something a litttle....rude....
she said things like:
"You know, Sean (my ex) never really liked you"
"I'm so much more confident now (saying as in a way I should be jelous"
and
"Hey! Amy, you're such a great friend, wanna come over!"
(she said that to amy, our other partner. completely leaving me out.)

So what should I do>?

Still be nice to her, be a bitch back to her, ignore her, or talk to her (last on my list because the "new meg" does not seem to comprehend what I wanna talk to her about and somehow includes how great her life is now)

[psychoticangel]

Well thats really sad. Pardon me, but im quite cynical to bestfriends o.o maybe coz i know too many people but none of them have proven worthy to be a friend. So yah... but anyway... try talking to her... and see what she has to say. If that doesnt work then she isnt worth the effort. You deserve better friends, and hey, move on. If she could handle life withouth you, then stop wasting your time not handling it coz she aint there. It works the same with relationships i guess.. let the walls of your room see you tears, but dont let her see your suffering. See, if she was, and IS your BESTFRIEND, she'd be there.

[mznina]

im so sorrryy. i really am, i kind of went to the same situation..not the wholr tumor thing though (btw im glad she is alright)...

if it was meant to be..it was meant to be.
friends come and go..youll learn that, your only 13..when u finish highschool you have more friends...then when u get to highschool u lose friends..it never ends.

i had a friend just like ur friend, i was the new girl in school, and she was the first one i took a glimpse at..i thought to myself "wow she is so pretty, i wish i can b her firend"....she came up to me and asked if i wanted to play "indians" with her during recess...we eventually too became best of friends! we were with eachother constantly...sleep overs..making tents..lol the cold floor..i remember all of it..but things changed when we got to highschool..she met new friends..and got into drugs, which wasnt my thing. we dont even say hi anymore..she is somewhat "popular" too...you just have to learn and move on...you dont want a friend that coundlt keep secrets right?....maybe then now you should be more careful...maybe one day youll meet a terrific friend..best of luck, and i hope you feel better!

[ichiban]

Aww ... You'll get over it, don't worry. we lose friends ALL THE TIME!! itz really hard to have a best friend FOREVER! I was best friends with this girl for quite a while, and she suddenly turned into a bitch and was saying all these mean things to me! she tld me she was glad i didn't hang out with her anymore. but i gOt over it and i'm sUre you will too :]

[PinoyOtaku]

I'm sorry to hear that happen... All I can say is, just stay strong but I'm sure deep inside, you two are still friends to the end. Heck a couple of my close kindergarten buddies are popular people while I was the nerd. I remembered one of them saying they'll be there for me, and it took me two events to believe it. Truly beyond our borders, we were still loyal to each other...and I'm sure it still the same with you two.

[xjjajeengx]

awwww!!! here's a hug... feel better...

I know exactly how you feel. I had a very very close best friend for 2 years, and when we got into middle school, she told me that she didnt want to be best friends with me since she had someone else she knew longer. but, eventually, i got over it, and now, her so called "best freind" isnt friends with her anymore, and her best friend seems more close to me than her now.
well anyways, what im trying to say is that, "dont hang onto her if she has moved on." If she's not going to come back to you, just move on no matter how much it's going to hurt. because, one way or another, if you guys were destined to be best friends forever, you guys iwll eventually be brought back together. you noe?

[angel-roh]

awww!! thats so sad.. yeah ppls change a lot... ur not the only one who is like this... i hab so many friends who are like this too.. and my friend reallie miss her, but her friend doesnt miss her at all cus shes reallie happy of wat she is...shes reallie popular in skool and she talk less to my friend-_-;; heh... aww.. iono wat to say about this, but cheer up!

[conster]

your probably right. I had her as my partner for this project thing today in social studies with my other firend, and she basically ignored me. And whenever she did talk it was something a litttle....rude....
she said things like:
"You know, Sean (my ex) never really liked you"
"I'm so much more confident now (saying as in a way I should be jelous"
and
"Hey! Amy, you're such a great friend, wanna come over!"
(she said that to amy, our other partner. completely leaving me out.)

So what should I do>?

Still be nice to her, be a bitch back to her, ignore her, or talk to her (last on my list because the "new meg" does not seem to comprehend what I wanna talk to her about and somehow includes how great her life is now)

haha sorry i didnt mean to laugh but i think she has a purpose for being rude to you, i know u wouldnt and didnt do anything that will hurt her so i dont understand why would she be so rude? maybe she wants ur attention? if im you, ill either ignore her cuz it'll get her mad and if she does get mad that means she cares about you OR ill be rude to her like she is cuz she has no right to do that to me

[iheartsimba]

wow.

tonight was so dramatic.

I had a talk with her.

I started crying and spilled to her.

She was speachless.

And all she said was "I'm sorry"
Over and Over again.

Maybe she's not who she used to be.

But it feels like the girl I love so much....just died.
And it hurts.

I'll have a new scar from all of this tonight on my life, and skin.

[rdngurl0107]

~very sad yet very touching in a way... I hope that things turn out betta 4 u 2....

[conster]

what happened?? so... whats gonna happen now??? omg i wanna hear the rest of this! its so touching i hope u feel better, time will heal ur pain and the scar takes time to leave but be patient, it'll go away soon

[iheartsimba]

oh god. I don't know what happened. I'm hoping she calls me.
I really want to talk to her.

But while I was crying to her, and she held me, and told me she wishes things could go back how they were before to.but she has just changed...I still felt like there was a little of her left. She was like my sister. When we were little, we always pretended we were twins....and everyone believed us.

But she seems happier without me...
And I feel like it should stay that way.
I love her so much, and I told her that tonight...
And I told her she seemed so much better off without me
.

I hope things get better.

[conster]

i hope things will be better for you and her, i really want u and her to be good friends again tho... lol

[inn0centmarianne]

kristin, I think I know how you feel, well this kind of happened to me and my friend, we've known each other since kindergarten, and in 5th grade, she started getting all popular, and she started to find guys who payed attention to her, and now look at us were 14, she thought she was pregnant, she thought I spread rumors about her, but it all isnt true, now she hates me, thinks shes too good for me, and all that, but you know what, if she doesn't need me, then I certainly dont need her, and maybe thats how you should think about things, my friend has stabbed me in the back more than just this time, and I know it hurts, but some things in life you just have to let go, this could be one of them, then down the road, someone BETTER will come, and treat you with respect, and watch theyll have karma, for doing the wrong, you never know, they might have problems, think back to you, and need you, but theyll know you are gone and cant get you back, hope you feel better <3

[iheartsimba]

thanks you guys so much

[thepastwillcome]

that sucks man you should go up to her door and tell her stight up about everything that u think about here tell her about the good ol' days just tell her the truth

[hair products]

yea you know after i told some girl that i liked her.. this was after the fact that i already got over her she said she was sorry we weren't better friends and thought about it giving it another try. however, she realized that the past is the past. the end.

and simbadude, you write very.. advanced.. for a 13 yr old. is that just me? i dunno. when i was 13, i liked playing with nerf and stuff. what's a girl?