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[FoOd]

It makes me feel as if YOU are the one who goes for girls. It seems like, you just like girls for who they look... But I might be wrong about that...

It seems as if.... your just playing with every girl's heart. Wtf is going in your puny stupid little brain of yours?

Its like.... your stealing my life away. All my friends now have shunned me because of the so called "truths" that were told. I just want you gone...

[*stephinika*]

i'm so confused.
i want to know...but i can't ask. do you? do you not?
stop being so damn hard to read.

//edit.

i have more to say i realized.
you are so intriguing. i know you so well, but at the same time, there's so much more to you. we trust each other with our lives...yet we still hold back secrets. thats one thing i'm actually sure of. i want to help you somehow...but i can't if i don't know...and i know you won't tell me unless you want to. i don't get it though...you act like it so much sometimes...but then you pull back. actually, now that i think about it...it sounds like me sometimes. perhaps because we both know it can't be? perhaps that is it. we'll never know...because of that. hm. what a coincidence. why does the timing have to be like this? if things were different right now...if it could work...would we? would i feel the same? would you? i don't even know how you feel...so how can i even start to guess? i guess i wish that you do...actually i know that i want you to....even though it would never happen to work out the way i want it to. but of course...life isn't fair. it never is. just when you think things are perfect...something has to happen to mess it all up. always.

This post has been edited by stephinika: May 7 2005, 02:18 AM

[sm0kinm0nky]

I fell asleep on my computer since I got home from a broadway show with school band and choir. Pretty angry, and i like chicken

[Kneuklid Romance]

.....I shall be praying for you...always.

-Kevyn

[Ballpointpencil]

Call me, you dork. I'm not going to pick you up until you call. Are you still asleep or something?

[dreamerOi]

i can't wait til summer and can't wait to see you. first thing im going to do is give you a big hug and tell you how much i love you. unless you beat me to it haha. i can't wait til night when we'll gaze under the stars and you can watch the moon. and when we take a walk in the park and visit the museum. then you can get bored from it then i'll wake you up hah. it'll be fun.

[banthisaccountno...]

The very worst part of you... is me

[*stephinika*]

i've just realized something.
i think you've practically been on my mind 24/7 for the last few months...
wow.

[_sarcastic_]

you say you love me but i don't know if you mean it. you ask me if i get jealous easily, i said no. i lied. i do. you seem like you're making me jealous on purpose, i hope not.
i stop my whole world because of you, i stop everything just to come online to talk to you, i used to be so eager for summer to come so that i can finally see you and go out with you, but now you're giving me the benefits of doubt. i used to fantasize bout what we'll be doing during summer i even think that i'll get my first kiss then. but now i don't know. i'm lost.
nine months together, we didn't even do anything special for our first month, nine months of holding on, is it still worth holding on? are you still worth the pain?
you tell me you'll definately be there for summer and now you're telling me you're going some where else for summer, it breaks my heart, you just don't know that.
i love you more than you'll ever know...

[one_wishful]

Can you stop asking me for things? Can you stop glaring at my face or starring at my back? Can you leave me alone for once? Can you stop telling me that I'm stupid? If I was really stupid, why do I get better marks than you? You said marks didn't matter, but they matter to me. Am I not as important to you... as you are to me?

[misoshiru]

should i feel honored or should i feel used? the fact that i'm the one you asked to help you write out the orchestration for ff. then again, i'm glad that you didnt ask anyone else. but how come you treat me differently at school. stop being so confusing. it's been nine months since i started liking you. it's the longest time that i've liked a guy since i came to this school. wow.

[Angel_Cece]

i'd just wish i'd taken the time to treat you right and be mature for once. i wish you'd forgive me instead of getting angry. and i wish you'd just call me one day

[banthisaccountno...]

I like it... I'm not gonna crack
I miss you... I'm not gonna crack
I love you... I'm not gonna crack
I killed you... I'm not gonna crack

[x LUV x ALWAYS x]

i don't know what to think of you anymore. you were a great friend and for a short time i liked you as more, but that faded away eventually and i just liked you as a really really good friend. shortly after that you started hating me. I don't even know what i did; or if i did something. i know i was never the nicest person to you, but i have to let you know that maybe you didn't realize but you weren't the nicest person either. i really tried to be nice to you all that i could, because i didn't wanna lose our friendship. we fought and argued a bunch, but i still thought we were good friends though. tight. i didn't think that the school year would end something like this...and i miss you.

please change back to yourself and start talking to me again. i miss being with you and just hanging out and having fun. i don't like you as more than a best friend, but i miss having you as one bc you werent just a typical friend.

while im at it, you really didn't have to turn all your friends against me too just because you think im a b***h, which i am (and I'm trying to change, if you haven't noticed. i really am...), but you have to realize that you act like an ass**** often and you should just admit it and try to change too...not everything is someone elses fault. learn how to accept blame and learn from it.

please think yourself over. then ill come talk to you again, and i hope you'll talk to me. i miss you, but not the you that you've changed into.

::leahh xo
(yeah i really needed to get that out. i was gonna post a whole new topic about it but decided not to...this place was good for this)

[megan_x3]

To 'him'
weee.... i haven't seen you in 2 days ! it stinks a lot because we're not in each other classes.. but glad you had moved into 4 of mine. =D i know we hadn't been talking a lot lately with each other... many people making tons of gossips that makes you really angry. i know how you feel. you just never express them out. i know how you don't want your friends to think that you suck and that you can be so cool. i understand you, but please don't try to act like you're all that in front of your friends. i like you for who you are. and im sure you like me as who i am too. just becareful and take care of yourself when im not here with you around june 23rd. i hope something special happens between us before i leave for hong kong.. which i won't be able to see you in like a month. i would remember you and would await for you when we're back in school. =P it was very fun at camp hemlock.. where you twirled my hair and goofed around with me. playing around with my pig tails. =) you just make me smile once when you do something like that just cheer my day up. once when i''ve thought of you, my heart and whole entire body began to build up heat when it was 40° and i was wearing a capris and a sweater. just when i've thought about you, you just build up my heat because of the love that we have between us. thanks for all the things that you've done for me and you make up my day everyday. between all the things that we had happened between us and we had gotten through it. i love you ~
__megan

[banthisaccountno...]

How many times do I have to mistreat you?
..Constantly biting my hand as I feed you

[sharerol]

Honestly, I need some space. You're a little too obsessive, and it's intimidating. Please, just stop. I'm flattered, but please stop.

[lovescream]

I miss you very much. Along with Kawai & Cierra. It seems that I talk to you online most. Kawai is never on, Cierra is never on, Gul is.. on.. but.. annoying.. And you're on very often. But.. I feel like I'm slipping away from you more and more each and every day. You seem to be talking to people I'm not familiar with, and it makes me jealous. Mainly because they're girls and I liked you.. But I guess that has changed, huh? I guess I have to move on. I can't even see you anymore, and I'm getting jealous over something silly.. I should just laugh it off. Heh. I just really should.

[me1issaaaa]

I don't really know what to say right now. That was probably the best moment of my life, but at the same time, I was petrified. It really gave me a chance to prove to myself that I know what I want, I'll go after it, and still not regret what I do or don't do. You pressured me into something I wasn't ready for, but I said no. I'm proud of myself.
I'm really confused, though. I loved it, but then again, I didn't.
...Okay fine, I did. But still.
This is one of those things I'll never, ever forget.

[vampireduster]

we are gonna be partyin it up!

[topsyturvy]

>< Oooh i luv u.

[*stephinika*]

to ____
i just realized tonight how much i missed you...god it was so good to be with you again. made me realize again how much i do love you.

to ______
i miss you. oddly enough. *shrug* i keep dreaming about you...each dream becomes more...interesting so to speak. but yeah...you keep on confusing me more and more each day.

[Ballpointpencil]

Yesterday was nice, my dear. Being with you from morning until night like that is something that I would not mind doing for the rest of my life. I will miss you today, but I'll see you in the morning Monday.

[_sarcastic_]

you're never there when i need you.

[xbr0kensmil3]

I'm sorry for not being the perfect daughter. I'm sorry for all those times that i've made you cry and worry. I try my hard to be how you want me to be.. i REALLY do. I love you and i don't know what i would do when you're not here. You're the best mom anyone can have. I know you've been through a lot and i sometimes seem like i don't care.. but i do.. i really do. I just wish i could make everything how you want it to be. I just wish that we could go back to those good times.. those times that we used to spend together. Now all we do is argue. You have to work all the time and we barely get to talk anymore. And when we do talk we argue and never seem to understand each other. I'm sorry for not getting you anything today.. today on your day. But no matter what happens, i'm always gonna be your daughter and i'll always love you.
Happy Mother's Day!