four months, now nothing but memories Options

[Winter]

We weren't mean to be
Fate didn't want us to be together
I knew that
But still
We defied fate

We clung onto each other
Determined to not let go
Determined to pass fate's test

But somewhere along the journey
I realised
That fate isn't going to give up
So I loosen my grip
And I let go

Four months
For four months
I was in love
I was loved
and I was happy

But at the same time
For four months
I was in pain
And I was suffering

Now
those four months
Are nothing but memories
Memories to smile and laugh at
Memories to cry and whisper at

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Sorry about the crappy poem. I just broke up with my BF...

I feel so bad right now... Just before I broke up with him, we were having so much fun. He sang Happy Birthday for me, his future wife. And now he's gone.

Was that the right thing to do, I don't know. But we'll see as time pass I guess. We said we'd meet back in seven months, after my national exam was over and after he completed his Marines training.

Then... maybe if he still has feelings for me, and I still have feelings for him... We coul maybe just work it out... But people change and their feelings change as well... So I don't know... Gawd I don't even know what I'm typing. Everything's all blur and fuzzy right now...

But I know for sure, I really do love him and those four months were the best time of my life...