createBlog Diary., Version 3. Options

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

i feel like spring break has just begun whenever it has really ending. i kind wish i didn't go onto that trip because i didn't really have that much fun. i mean, i did have some fun and i did have alot of laughs but i would of rather been here doing something other than riding around in an RV hitting things. i really don't want to go back to school but if i must...

--Frankie

[CUTEBUNNY160]

awww same here i dont want to go to skool...

[*tweeak*]

my mother is driving me insane. what does banning me from the computer on a weekend accomplish when i have nothing to study for, and would not spend my entire weekend that way anyway. im sick of being treated like a little kid. i can watch r rated movies. im not naive and innocent as she thinks. ive seen this stuff before. its nothing new. she should be thankful im not joining my friends and actually doing it. im so good all the time. i dont know what she expects from me. i cant keep this up, and still not be appreciated.

[inthemudhole]

Hi again.

I love Joe. I really, really love him.
My mind is consumed by him.
We never run out of things to talk about.
He's so sweet.
He makes me feel good about myself.
He always says nice things to me.
He always compliments me on what I do.
He is always there to talk with me.
He always tells me I'm pretty.
He always tells me he loves me.
Everything he does is just wonderful.

I am in love.
I have never felt this way about anyone.

There is only one problem, however.

.... He lives in Texas while I live in North Dakota.

This was by far the cheesiest, most cliche entry I have ever made.

[Skyline Drive]

Dear CB Diary ,

Well spring break is soon to be over. School starts tommorrow. I really don't want to go back.. I can't wait till summer break. At least my research paper is finally done so now I am stress free. I actually started to miss the easier tasks we had to do in class.. I'm glad that research deal is over and now it's back to normal work. I'm going to try alot harder and do all of my work so that I can pass this year with good grades. Let's hope everything goes great tommorrow.

Love .x. Lilly

[*tweeak*]

that jackass just moved the date back to normal. did he really think that it was on july 04 for no particular reason?. dammit now im pissed

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,
I have a C in math..there is no hope for me to raise it in time before spring break. How can I be so dumb in that class? I work my ass off to get a good grade in bio and now I'm stuck with this. I am so dissapointed in myself. I wish there was more time to raise it so I can make the honor roll, and now it's over.
-teesa

[inthemudhole]

Hi.

Hm...

I stayed home from school today.
My parents kind of talked me into doing so.
I felt like shit when I woke up.
I feel a lot better now. That extra sleep/rest did me a lot of good.
I'll be back tomorrow, though, unfortunately.
Oh well. Three days of school and then we get a short break. I can do that.

So right now I'm listening to the one of the only Metallica songs that I like.
Yes. "Enter Sandman."

There is rarely anyone in the createBlog chat.

I've realized that some of the mods here don't really post anywhere else unless they're "doing their job"....Meaning closing topics and moving them.
Just a random observation of the day.

Still in webcam-crazy mode.

I think I'm going to go.

I surely hope Joe comes back before I have to sign off.

Just another day,

Brie

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm going crazy. I have so much homework to do and so much studying and I'm trying so hard to do it but it's taking forever. God, I'm stuck on this stupid biology project because I can't find any information for it. My topic isn't even in the book. I'm seriously going to have a nervous breakdown. Why does it have to be like this? Why is everything so hard? I need to raise all my grades up before spring break but of course that's hopeless. Spring break is in 4 days and how am I going to raise up two F's? Especially when I try so hard and all of my efforts seem like a waste. I just want to go in a corner and cry. I hate everything right now. Not even one thing is going well. Ugh..please kill me.
-Christina.

[jambaJUICE]

Dear CBdiary,
Omg, I just want to bite all their heads off, and slice their torsos to bits as they sleep. They piss me off so much. At times I can't even believe it's so real. Ugh, I even have to pinch myself at times just to make sure I'm not dreaming. Motherucker. I hate how sometimes it feels like, I'm not even living at all.

GAH. Oh, and I think I have asthma.

Bye
<3 Stephanie

[*salcha*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
everything has turned against me, i dont know what I have done wrong. Ever since the start of this year...2005.

after a whole year of planning this retreat..i was so excited..so ecstatic to go. it's what made me hold on to school, and stay in. but now, what am i supposed to do? I am now officially failing a subject for the first time in my life, and i feel like there's nothing to live for.

the thing i looked forward to MOST this summer, this year...and it's taken away from me. I've already been deprived of my social life at school, what else do you want?!! what else do you want...

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

the perks of being a wallflower has completely depressed me. i dont know why i let these things affect me so much. why does smoking bother me so much? why does the prospect of having sex scare me so much? why do i care when ive never even had someone ask me out? im in a terrible mood right now. i dont understand people at all. i dont like that the back cover says that its what its like to grow up in high school. because thats awfully degrading. not everyone takes drugs either because theyre upset, or just for the hell of it. not everyone has meaningless sex. not everyones parents dont care what they do and dont notice when they come home in the middle of the night stoned and stinking of smoke. most peoples parents dont encourage them to have sex. high school is not like that at all for me, and for some reason that almost pisses me off more than the rest of it does. because i don want to live in that world. im not particularly happy with mine, but for some reason, im set on living a drug free, mostly asexual life. of course, the sex bit may change as i grow older, but i dont see the need now. of course, that comes back to the lack of boyfriend bit again, but still. for some reason i fear the future. i fear the change. what it could be, what it wont be...i dont even know. why did i pay so much damned attention to all those little anti drug and sex etc talks when i was little? im letting it make me miserable. but then, i dont even know what im talking about anymore

also, it pisses me off that we have to leave the clothes we wear up to designers and the srotes that buy the designs. they never can seem to remember that not every teenager is slutty manequin or enjoys dressing in bright tacky colors. cant i have simplicity in nice styles that actually flatter more than one body type? i dont know, maybe im just a freak and the only one shaped this way, but i kind of really doubt that.

on the brightside, i have roommates for new york that im actually happy with

[love-issosweet]

Dear Diary,
Today hasn't been what I've been expecting. Everything just fell apart but fortunetly, I have my friend Andrew to comfort me. He's really a great friend and helps me in everything and I appreciate that. Even though my day was terrible, I have someone always by my side.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was boring as usual.
yesterday, i finally realized how much i hate some of the people at my school. most of them are so stupid. they think and act like they know everything and that the whole effing world revolves around them. it pisses me off so much!
and now we have leadership elections coming, i am very upset because today i read all of what the so-called "popular" people's responses to the questions and they are effing lieing bitches. they just straight pissed me off! i know that they were just putting others wanted to hear and read. and ya know what? i don't care if i don't make into leadership because i don't really want to be in that room with all of those pieces of shit. i know that i am being really rude and probably really shallow but i don't really care right now because i am almost positive that i am not going to make leadership because of those bitches but i still have hope and faith in myself because i know that i am just as good as them if not better.

--Frankie

[inthemudhole]

Hi.

Back in school.
What a sucky day.
Today was by far one of the longest days I've had to endure in a long time.
The fish I'm making in art sucks. I'm not artistic. Why did I even sign up for Clay and Sculpture? I knew the teacher graded hard and put a lot of pressure on his students, yet I still signed up for it.
Oh well. I guess it could be worse.

Onto a lighter note, I'm talking to Joe right now.
He bought a webcam. yet again.

I have just come to realize that a lot of the people here piss me off to no end.

Oh well.

I like writing here somedays.

Hm...
Well...
That's all for today.
I had a boring, regular ol' sucky day.

*sighs*
I guess I have one more thing to say.
The more I post here, the more I want my spot on the mod team back.
It's almost depressing to post here, as stupid as that may sound, but it's how I feel.
I was so ecstatic when I received the spot. It was one thing I really, really wanted ever since I joined back in June, and I finally got it. Then I had to choose between it and another mod placement on another forum within five days of having it.
Now I feel like an outcast.

I guess that about wraps it up.

'Til we meet again,

Brie

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

im still hurting from the fight me and patricia had yesterday. i cant believe were not friends no more. i mean im seriously a loner now
*sigh* well i still love cb because posting in topics helps me forget about it. but i can't believe she was so blunt like that. she called me an emotional bitch and told me i needed to suck it up because she crys herself to sleep every damn night.
i couldnt even talk for most of yesterday, i cried for awhile... ... i guess my emotions are dying again.

luckily, brie was there, and i got to rant with her about how patricia is such an a-hole... and the fact that jaylyn is on her side really ticks me off.
like my dad said, three on one friendships never work out. anyways-

im so happy i got into the modeling thing! they accepted me... YAY!!! i thought i wouldnt make it but dad said i did. man i cant wait to go back to dads house again. even though i wont be able to get on the computer... ill still be with my daddy man speaking of cb, i really wanna be a mod. god i sound desperate huh? but yeah ever since i joined in july i wanted to forever. then in october my dad punished me from the computer and my chances went
DOOOWWWWWNNN! ergh, oh well. ... well... i guess i should go be a postwhore again lmao!!

[*tweeak*]

this lack of photoshop or paintshop pro is driving me insane. how the hell do i get them to download? im completely f**king up my computer downloading all this crap. arrrgh damn

meanwhile, i think ashleigh is back in town, but i didnt get to see her, because i didnt know she was coming so i went home

[to-devastate]

Dear cB diary,
Why do you act like you hate me?
I IM you and you're almost like annoyed that I did.
I do not get you. Why do you make me so agrivated to think that you're mad at me? That you don't like me? I don't get it. I thought we were best friends. I guess you don't feel the same way as I do.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was the election! i am so nervous! i just tomorrow to be over!

--Frankie

[xbr0kensmil3]

dear cb diary,
today sucked. my dad said he found people who are gonna buy the house. I wish we didn't have to move. I wish things were back to the way they used to.
School was ok today. I kinda talked to him. I still don't know if i like him or not. I'm confused.
<3

[inthemudhole]

Hi again.

Hopefully Joe's only having computer problems or something....because he won't answer my IMs. We had a wonderful, very deep conversation last night (it was positive), and now he's not talking. I'm confused. I just hope he's having an issue with his computer or that someone else is on his screennames.

Anyway....
Finally we get out of school after Thursday's done. Yesss. Then a long weekend. I really need one.
Too damn stressed.

I'm so obsessed with Iowa that it's not even funny.

Today sucked.
My friends suck.
My grades suck.
Etc.

31 days 'til concert-time,

Brie

[yukichan]

dear cb diary,
this is my first time writing in here..
sigh..everything feels like blah...every break makes me feel depressed..theres nothing to do..no one really understands how im feeling..he just had to tease me about what i write..that really irratated me..i mean i try hard to write normal, but english is still hard for me..my gosh..he should try be me, and c what its like to switch from one language to another..ok well thats it i guess...
*~Nancy~*

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

i am retarded

note to self: EXTRACT AFTER OPENING IN WINZIP

[ANG33ZY]

DEAR CB Diary,

Okay so I went to school 3rd period. Boring, boring boring. Tomorrow we're on minimum day schedule cause of the Multicultural assembly ish. Damn the assembly is gonna be 12:33 - 3:03. are you kidding me? Hell no, I ain't staying for that long. I'll find a way to leave.

In other news, some boys are the gayest people on earth. Forreal though. These boys, acting like I have no clue. HOW YOU GONNA DO ME LIKE THAT. I ain't dumb.

yay for spring break.

and i love john.

[*lolita kitty*]

dear cb diary,

today wa a bit different. i woke up really late... ergh x.x ... anyways, i had a really bad headache all day, so yeah... ouch. brie and i chatted again.. haha shes so awesome. im still trying to get high scores in the arcade because im SOOOO close! lolz. dad called today... hearing hid voice made me so effing sad >< but its okkkkk...

meh, im still wondering about modeling. dad said you half to call for another appoinment or something since they already let me in. now im confuzed. i met frankie from cb yesterday, hes such a sweetheart! i showed him a few things i made with his tutorials and we chatted for awhile hehe.

people on cb are so mean to me. we were in this one thread 'would you kiss the person above you' [yeah i know, retarted] and everyone was all 'HELL NO! HAHAHA!'
geez, break my heart. ugh, last night ws freaky. i had a dream that me and timmy were going exploring or something and we broke the roof on someones house by accident? it was reallyt confuzing. then we were swinging from ropes over natomas blvd.
ok i have really weird dreams 0.o ... anyways, i gotta go post some more, see yah laters. LUV YOUU!

- cassie ^_^