A message to anyone, verson 2.0 |
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A message to anyone, verson 2.0 |
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#301
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![]() <3<3<3<3 ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 3,177 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,779 ![]() |
.hi
i don't know when it happened but it did, i miss you so much. i guess you don't like me that way anymore, its okay i can deal with it but you could have told me. i thought we were friends. good friends that tell eachother stuff even though it might hurt the other one. i think hearing it from would have been better then me thinking about it and crying because you never told me anything. we can still be friends still right? i mean i hope i didn't ruin things by not calling you..i really try but then i think about how all our conversations have silences at the end and we just sit there doing nothing, i think about how boring i am so i don't even try calling you because thats what happens. i just hope we can talk like we use to. just hope. |
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#302
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![]() ¢¾ Wanting it. ¢¾ ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 2,060 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 39,234 ![]() |
no offense, but i never really liked you.
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*Azarel* |
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#303
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You will always be the one that got away.
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*stephinika* |
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#304
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dear lolo...
i love you. r.i.p. i'm sorry i didn't get to see you before you left... ![]() |
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#305
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![]() Yawn ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 9,530 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 65,772 ![]() |
My Strider,
It is 8 am here and i'm still awake. That's right. Since i've gotten off the phone with you i haven't been able to sleep. A couple of reasons. (1) i had some work to finish (2) i got on cb and of course spent atleast an hour posting (3) took a very long bath....and soon it was 6 am. When i laid down in bed trying to go to sleep, all i could think about was you. What you said last night to me was so important to me, and i kept thinking about what you said, playing your voice in my head over again. I miss you right now...I miss you so much. I know i could of wrote all of this in our notebook, but i wanted you to read it today. lol, i'm very tired right now. But i can't fall asleep!! I tried, believe me! I tossed and turned for atleast two hours or so, before getting up and typing this post. I think i'm just going to stay up all day. Right now i feel like painting. Don't ask me why, lol. Baby, i'm so very tired. lol I wish i could sleep. I wish you were here to hold me. Then i know i would be fast asleep. Right now i feel very much at peace...i feel very happy. I just feel like getting up right now and doing somethan ya know? But guess i need to sleep, lol. I'm going to go back to bed right now and try, but i just wanted to post you somethan and tell you that you are on my mind. I love you baby ~your evenstar<33 |
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#306
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![]() E=Fb Musicians Theory of Relativity ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 711 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 109,045 ![]() |
I hate this class. The only thing that gets me through it is the thought of seeing you at lunch. But even at lunch there will be those who feel that they must interrupt. That have to follow us around, even out to my car, and I never tell them 'no', because I don't want to be rude. When really, all I want is time with you. All I can think about is you.
See you soon, melndanya. Amin mela lle. |
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#307
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![]() Another ditch in the road... you keep moving ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 6,281 Joined: Jan 2005 Member No: 85,152 ![]() |
is it cruel or kind not to speak my mind, and to lie to you, rather than hurt you?
cold little boy kicked out at the world, the world kicked back, a lot f**kin harder now. trust in me it is shocking how many libertines lyrics relate directly to my life. i love them so much. PETE DOGHRTY YOU NEED TO SORT YOUR LIFE OUT MATE! YOU'RE NOT ONLY KILLING YOUR SELF, BUT ALSO DESTROYING ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS EVER. o and ditch kate moss. |
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#308
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![]() HAAAAAAAA. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 4,472 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 75,068 ![]() |
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. period.
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#309
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![]() who ma bitch? you ma bitch, bitch. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 1,920 Joined: Oct 2004 Member No: 55,278 ![]() |
i know were just friends but im getting new feeling and i think i like u and.well i think u like me 2.
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#310
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![]() crushed. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 9,432 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 20,026 ![]() |
I'm glad I had the chance to talk to you today. Even if it was only a few minutes. I wish we knew each other more, you are the sweetest person! I hope our friendship grows.
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#311
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![]() your sweetest sin. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 416 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 18,960 ![]() |
OH MY GOODNESS. HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT???!?!?!? did you mean it? or did you just not realize how b*tch-like you sounded? "and what do you know..." you know WHAT? how about you double check w/ how your stuff sounds before you click "enter". i'm so offended i don't know WHAT to say. i just know i have to say SOMETHING. and YES. i AM mad at you for ditching me for that RETARDED GAME. since when did a GAME become priority over a PERSON? let alone your GIRLFRIEND. at least bryan was a GOOD FRIEND and stayed. IT'S NOT EVEN HIM I'M GOING OUT WITH!!! you are not the ideal boyfriend. not even close. you constantly ditch me for that game. but i never mention it to you b/c that makes me sound selfish. want to know a secret though? I AM SELFISH. i'm a selfish BITCH. so DEAL. can't you understand that i just want to spend more time with you? is that so hard to comprehend? i'm feeling underappreciated here, okay? but how am i supposed to mention this to you, without making you feel bad or making me look retarded?! there's just NO WAY. i am so pissed it's just.. GAHHHFJDSLFJpoaijdglkajdfajeipofajlk;fj! STOP DITCHING ME! STOP STOP STOP! then NONE of this would happen. UGH. this is so frustrating. i don't even want to admit that you choose WOW over me. BRYAN can even see it. even though he's only experienced this once. and i'm SURE that other people see it as well, they just don't mention it to me b/c they don't want me feeling bad. but do you even care? no. no you freaking don't! and may i ask why not? wait, i know why you don't care. b/c you don't freaking like me anymore. i bet that's it. i mean, if you did, wouldn't you show it with signs of affection? you treat me worse than you treat your friends. i don't treat you like shit. what did i ever do to deserve this? it's like your getting me back at something i didn't even do. you know what? i should be mad at you. but i refuse to show it. if i mention it to you, it's like admitting it. the final resort will be to talk to you, ya'hear? the FINAL RESORT. and you always leave early from swim practice! i get out as FAST as i can just to see you, but do you care? NO. right as you come out, you call your parents and they pick you up before i even get out. can't you just shut your freaking phone and WAIT? all the other boyfriends do that. we don't even look like we're going out. it's like friends w/ benefits and that's all. i don't know how it affects you, but to me, it hurts okay? i'm saying that it f**king HURTS. i have all this emotion for you, about you, bottled up in me, and what do i get? nothing. i get nothing from you. no goodbyes no waiting for me, nothinggggg. i swear. any other boyfriend would wait for his gf. what is it with you and going home to play wow? or going home? am i that horrible? why don't you just... BREAK UP WITH ME IF YOU REFUSE TO EVEN ADMIT WE'RE GOING OUT?!?!?!?!? just freaking break up with me if you don't even like me. okay? do you know i had to hold in tears today when bryan told me that you were ditching me? i had to hold in f**king tears! i was going to cry in front of everyone b/c bryan told the obvious truth. sure, my friends tried to cover it up, only b/c they KNEW it was true, and they KNEW that i knew it was true and they didn't want me to feel hurt. but you don't even f**king CARE. GOD. okay? just. break. up. with. me. i don't care how much it'll hurt me, at least i won't have to hurt this much eternally anymore. if you refuse to aknowledge me, then DO IT. it's not like i refuse you, push you away, it's YOU doing all of it. i always ask myself, if it's something I'M doing wrong. maybe it is. if it is, i am sorry. but this gives you NO EXCUSE to act like this towards me. APPRECIATE ME FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. i have never been treated like this. i am in shock and angry beyond reason. i should tell you, i know. but i would only explode upon you like i am doing right this instant, so it's better to explode on createblog rather than on your face.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i feel like i must continue to rant and rave about your unacceptable behavior towards me, okay? this is how much it hurts me. i never write this much to someone. i'm shivering right now from all the emotion and anger and sadness. i can hardly type, that's how hard my fingers shake. FINGERS DON'T USUALLY SHAKE OKAY? a;ljkf i can hardly BREATHE i am so pissed. yes. i still love you. or do i? i know i do. but the reaction that my love gets from you is certainly bringing that level of love down. maybe you don't care, but i sure as hell hope you do. i know you apologized today, but it was only because you felt i was pissed. it's not even like you cared about how i felt. i feel, as i said, underappreciated, used, i feel like i'm you second resort. shouldn't a friend at least be up on that list? what do i have to do? play WOW to gain your attention? do i really need to do that? i need to play a f**king game to gain my BOYFRIEND'S attention???? sometimes you can be the sweetest, most lovable guy on the planet. but times like these overrule those times. i'm sorry. but it just hurts me so bad. i just can't make you see it though. your eyes remained closed to this topic. i guess i can understand. you love WOW. it is your number one priority. i can understand that taking place over me....or any other non-wow player.... NOT. okay? i cannot, for some unfathomable reason, grasp this concept that a game is more important than a person, or spending time with a friend! a GAME is NOT reality. i hate to break it to you, but you are way obsessive. i could care less about this freaking game, i only put up with it b/c it means so much to you. AND b/c i never thought it would go so far as to drive me over the edge. usually, i am easy to get along with, but i cannot stand being snubbed, by my own boyfriend; by someone i trust in! I WISH YOU COULD JUST UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT FREAKING HURTS ME!!! do you want to know? it hurts so much that i'm crying right now. i am crying just TYPING this out to you. imagine how much it would hurt for me to tell you this! i was never the type to dump my problems on someone else, so no one knows of this yet. what if i tell someone and i start crying? then, what if that person refuses to see the big deal of it? they would just think of me as overreacting. i know, i shouldn't be so concerned about what others think, but is it my fault that i am subconcious? NO. if i could just let you GRASP a fraction of my hurt, would you stop? that's what i'm afraid of. if i tell you this, will you only see me as controlling and dump me? [look how insecure i am! i think you are going to dump me over a game!!!! ] or will you continue to play this game and ignore my ill attempts? thats why it's put as the last resort, because i'm scared. okay? I AM FREAKING SCARED OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN. i know this makes me sound like such a drama queen, but i can't help it. all this has been piling up within me for so long! it just became too unbearable. so much is being released, but nothing will change, b/c i'm not telling any of it to you. i know what bryan said had some effect on you, but i denied it when you asked me. was that the right thing to do? the smart thing? it seemed so right at the moment, but now? not so much. not at all. not at all. |
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#312
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![]() ~*~KatieSue~*~ ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 32 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 63,984 ![]() |
To my love,
I can't believe tomorrow we will be together for 10 months. It seems only like yesterday we met at yearbook. Somehow the day I met you I knew we were going to be together. We've become much closer. We've been through a lot, and we've grown because of it. Your my best friend, and I will always love you! ~Love your sweetie! |
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*stephinika* |
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#313
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to a.
oh my god...you don't know how much that meant to me. i loved it. so much. ![]() ![]() i luf you...always and forever. |
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#314
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![]() hello : ) ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 4,227 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,139 ![]() |
Dear You
Do I like you or not? I can't tell. Honestly, I know that there is some feeling towards you, still there, lingering. But I'm not sure why. It was a long time ago that I really felt like head over heels for you. But WHY do I still feel this? I mean, it's obvious you will never, EVER, feel the same, so why do I bother wasting my time thinking about you, imagining things, talking about you, etc. Sometimes I'm such an idiot; especially when it comes to love, crushes, and relationships. Dear You Okay. You apologized YET you CONTINUE to act the same way. I don't know, maybe I'm just a cynical bitch or something, but it seriously is annoying. Can you PLEASE sometimes stfu? Dear You God, I miss you so much. I miss all the times we spent. All the moments we shared. I can't even think about certain things because it leads to you. God. Why did it end up the way it did? Why??? |
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#315
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![]() hi, my name is hillary ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 352 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 76,591 ![]() |
im happy... for once in a while- for once in this school year, i've been happy. we're not together... and i dont even know if we ever will be but that doesnt even matter to me right now. as long as i can talk to you now because i really do need someone like you in my life. so thanks. thanks for talking to me. sorry i wont ever see you again after this year.
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*Azarel* |
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#316
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This is pathetic. Unmoor my heart.
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#317
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![]() yan lin♥ ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 14,129 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,627 ![]() |
i think its time for this all to end. it's time for me to move on since you're not going to do anything about it.
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![]() hello : ) ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 4,227 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,139 ![]() |
MANNNN I want you haha. Why must I be so freaking stupid, sheesh.
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#319
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![]() <3 ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 831 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 74,326 ![]() |
i dont know what has happend to you now...
i feel like pushing you away the past is nothing to me looking back into the past sometimes makes me feel like breaking down but then i let it all go its like a big race in my mind i thought you fell for me why? why did you fall for another girl why i ask... i thought you liked me and i thought i liked you but i guess not i guess this is goodbye... forever.. |
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#320
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![]() Tupac's BabyGirl ![]() Group: Member Posts: 6 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 110,442 ![]() |
Well I do like someone, he told my friends he also liked me, but the only reason he won't ask me out is that some other girl likes him. I don't get that if he doesn't like her, but he likes me then whats the problem. Well I really don't know anymore if I like him b'cos he is bieng mean 2 me for a while. So I am not sure, well i am starting 2 think i dont like him!!!!I want a boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!One that is sweet.
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![]() none of it seems real ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 2,469 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 73,889 ![]() |
I know your my best friend but I kind of wish you weren't there. I feel like your watching my every move when I speak with him, it makes me feel uncomfortable. I wish I would of never told you to switch into my class.
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#322
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![]() hi. call me linda. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 8,187 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,475 ![]() |
I love you, you know that. And I know that you love me too... but how come you can't show your love once in a while? I feel that I care too much, or at least more than you. I'm always making you things, writing you letters, etc., and yeah I guess it's a girly thing or whatever... but it would be nice if you could do the same to me. Show me, prove to me how much I mean to you. Just saying that you love me... I believe you... but I also want more...
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#323
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![]() to be loved by someone you love is.. everything ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 1,207 Joined: Sep 2004 Member No: 51,205 ![]() |
I'm confused. Do you love me or not?
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#324
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![]() Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 4,799 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 37,450 ![]() |
I just wish you were here sometimes.
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#325
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![]() dripping destruction ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 7,282 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 21,929 ![]() |
why do we have to still be friends? so you can torment me so more?
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