true happiness, monologue for the uninspired, even me... Options

[*islandgirl4eva*]

True happiness. It sounds like something you wish for while blowing out your birthday candles, or on a shooting star. Something that you say while being interviewed for a Ms. Universe Pageant. The thing is, does anyone know what true happiness is? I mean, there are people who describe certain foods as "a little slice of Heaven". Does that mean that it'll bring you true happiness? Can it be bottled and sold over-the-counter?

"Aligre, the magic happy pill".

If only. That would be great. So many people stand around and wait for someone or something to make them happy, but one must understand that the only one who can make you happy is yourself.

Sometimes that means you must suffer first. I feel like I'm in that transitional stage. As a child I was innocently happy, when all my family, friends, and toys were enough to keep the smile on my face. Now I'm at the point where school causes absolute misery (on most days) and thinking about tomorrow scares me. Hopefully, it won't be long until I can look in the mirror, smile, and be happy that it's another day. A day when I'm in control of my life and doing something good with it. I'm tired of being angry and hurt...but I just figured out that everything happens for a reason. Karma...I believe in it, without a doubt. Everyday is a struggle, and yes, it may sound so typically angsty to say that, but motivation and inspiration, they are both fleeting, yet powerful. I'll look back on this piece and keep it in mind, until I, too, find my true happiness.