sigh....., im so depressed right now.... Options

[sarason]

last night i was talking to my gf... we dont really talk too much in person because when i approach her she seems to act all diff and shy... Well, she was talking about how seeing me as her bf made it real awkward and she couldnt get the feeling down that she has to be perfect around me.., she says she cant help but be like that.... you see, normally shes this really enthusiastic,hyper girl...... well.. she said that maybe we should break it for a while and just get to be better friends...and maybe go out again later on when we know eachotehr as good friends..... well, ive been soo depressed all nite thinking about this.. and the way she would say "This is so hard... but i think we should..." then just stop and talk about being better friends makes me think that she wants to break up but shes trying to be nice... My head hurts.... Plz input what u think...... If this is really the end... i'll still love her and probabluy never get over it.....