im really upset

............my cousin who was like 24 yrs old had cancer..........she recently died and we werent only cousins....we wer best friends.........going to her funeral was the worst experience of my life...........sitting around with a bunch of ppl and i was thinking that none of them knew her like i did.........well maybe her mom but ther were even sum of her cuzins that wer just talkin and even laughin

thru it whil i was hystericaly crying

i felt liek goin to them and just smackin them in their faces

.......but i didnt

........losing her was like losing the sister i never had......i feel life will never be the same and my friends dont understand exept one whos cousin also died but a long time ago...........i just need cheering up.........plz thank you