I have a delima, ..so confused. Options

[y0urelectrikk]

Ok. so here's there story. This summer I met a guy at a camp... and I ended up falling in love with him because he made me happy like no one else ever could and it feels like no one else can ever make me feel the same. So we were going out basically all summer and it was hard because he lives 2 hours away but I still wanted it to work, and so did he. Things were going great for a while and I was the happiest I've ever been. But soon he stopped saying "I love you" & "I miss you" and I felt things falling appart. It turns out he cheated on me..but I still wanted to be with him because i still loved him.. dont ask why.. I have no idea why. He knew I still wanted him and he messed with me a lot.. A lot of my friends and other people knew what was going on with us because I vent to my friends.. so they obviously tell me "you're so much better than him" & "he doesnt deserve you".. and stuff like that. but then he and I kinda became friends again after a little time but I still wasnt over him.. and Idk what happend but we just stopped talking eventually. and I thought I was getting over him. Recently he's appologised for everything he did to me and told me that he still loves me and always has and he said he wants to be with me again. And now I dont know what to do... because everyone will disown me if I go back out with him.. some people have told me they'd stop talking to me or they'd loose all respect for me if I went back to him. I really want to be with him again because I want to be happy again.. but in a way I will be unsatisfied because a lot of people will hate me for doing it.. I cant even talk to my best friends about it because they're already convinced that he's the scum of the earth, they cant see it from my perspective..yah know?..

.. I'm so lost.