i blew it.., will i ever get that kisss Options

[lollypop036]

ok well what happened was that i recently went on a trip to spain and i found out from his sister that this guy called patrick liked me and that he was gonna make a move on him and i told her that i dont think im ready cuz ive never kissed a boy before and she said its best to get it over with with someone youll never see again(they live in ireland) but i want my first kiss to be like really special lol, i didnt tell her that though..so the next day they somehow managed to get us alone and he was about to kiss me then i backed away cuz i was like really scared and nervous and had all sorts of thoughts runnin through my head like wat if im a bad kisser?, will the dinner i head take its toll on my breath?, wat if my little brother and sister see? and stuff like that, so ya, i backed away and he looked really upset, but he understood cuz his sister told him im frigid..but now im wondering if ill chicken out everytime i guy tries to kiss me..and wat really sux is that i think he was the first guy that ever liked me..so ya wut do u think? will i be frigid forever?