A message to anyone, verson 2.0 Options

[*Azarel*]

Since Vinh's topic reached 20 pages, here's the new one.
"It'd be neat if people could write about someone that's on their mind right now, in an anonymous message. It can be about love, crush, hate, issues. Just don't turn it into thread where it needs to be closed."

I wonder what I mean to you.

[Sa-Chan]

You lead me on. Sometimes you talk, other times you don't. Sometimes you act like I mean something to you, the rest of the time you ignore me. I don't know anymore. We dated for a year and a half...You broke my heart...We didn't talk for nearly a year. Then you tell me you still like me? What the hell? But still...I...blocked you off, and I thought my walls would last.

I built them to last. I barricaded myself in hatred. I berated you. I was so mean to you. You put up with it. I moved on. We put aside our differences. I want to be with you. I asked you how you would feel if I told you I loved you? I posed it as a joking sentence. You acted outraged when I said you didn't want my love, but then you said it'd be awkward if I said I loved you.

Now...you don't speak. Now, we sit in silence. The girl you left me for left you, so maybe I'm just someone to fall back onto. Then again, the guy I started dating the day after you left me, I left, and he wants me back. Do I want him? No...not really. I've made my own personal coin. If he gets up with me before I fall asleep tonight...He gets me back, and you lose me...forever.

We're just friends though. It's not like you care. It's not like you love me. You never did after all. Even now, with all the mean things you did and said to me in the past, even now that you said you never meant it (that you're sorry) I wonder if you did...if you aren't. I don't know. You confuse me. I should be over this. Over you. The silence on your part continues. I'm waiting.

It doesn't matter so much anymore. At least we talk now. At least we're close now. At least I know you better. Maybe I can't have you. Maybe I never could. You said we'd go on a roadtrip one day. Just you and me. I said no at first, then gave in. We have it all planned out...then again, we planned it all out the day we started talking again. I honestly can't wait...