plz give your opinion, i need help Options

[miss barnes]

Whew! Where to start. Ok- to cut this short, here's the dealio.

I am a straight girl and i'm starting to have these thoughts about another girl. I've NEVER felt this way before and it freaks me out because it goes against what i believe in. I'm against homosexuality but, why are these thoughts slowly but, surely invading my head? There are plenty of lesbians at my school so if i was to pursue this it wouldnt be unusual. I wonder what my friends would think? I know some would have a lot of shit to say and some would just wish me luck. Its just all so confusing for me. I know my bf would be mad as hell.

If i was to pursue this & my family found out I would die. My family is extremely religious so i KNOW this would be the end of my life. My daddy, several uncles, and my grandaddy are all preachers so i know this would be the end of it for me. I was jokin around the other day and told my mama I was gay but i think she kinda believed it...then i told her my gf was in the newspaper. I was joking (i dont have gf) but, i was talking about the girl i'm diggin'.

I think Patrice (thats her name) tried to get w/ me at the beginning of the school year (way before i started the having these thoughts). I was in Journeys and she was all asking me my name and age and ish. I was freaked out at the time but, now i wish that i had went for it instead of looking at her like she was crazy. I wonder does she even remember that she tried to talk to me & does she like me or whatever....uhh

I dont really know what i'm asking. What i typed probably doesnt even make sense but, whatever

[_sarcastic_]

think really hard bout this. you don't want to make a decision without thinking then regret it