plz give your opinion, i need help Options

[miss barnes]

Whew! Where to start. Ok- to cut this short, here's the dealio.

I am a straight girl and i'm starting to have these thoughts about another girl. I've NEVER felt this way before and it freaks me out because it goes against what i believe in. I'm against homosexuality but, why are these thoughts slowly but, surely invading my head? There are plenty of lesbians at my school so if i was to pursue this it wouldnt be unusual. I wonder what my friends would think? I know some would have a lot of shit to say and some would just wish me luck. Its just all so confusing for me. I know my bf would be mad as hell.

If i was to pursue this & my family found out I would die. My family is extremely religious so i KNOW this would be the end of my life. My daddy, several uncles, and my grandaddy are all preachers so i know this would be the end of it for me. I was jokin around the other day and told my mama I was gay but i think she kinda believed it...then i told her my gf was in the newspaper. I was joking (i dont have gf) but, i was talking about the girl i'm diggin'.

I think Patrice (thats her name) tried to get w/ me at the beginning of the school year (way before i started the having these thoughts). I was in Journeys and she was all asking me my name and age and ish. I was freaked out at the time but, now i wish that i had went for it instead of looking at her like she was crazy. I wonder does she even remember that she tried to talk to me & does she like me or whatever....uhh

I dont really know what i'm asking. What i typed probably doesnt even make sense but, whatever

[Shattered_Hope]

To be honest I've never been in this situation...but I think it could be that you're trying the possibility of liking the same sex..you are against it and now that this girl has made an approach to you..you can't help but overthink it. Meh, I doubt it's anything serious...