There are some times that I do hate some of my friends, I mean i have friends but not really any good friends

, all my friends are people i talk to at school but other than that never hang out with, and only talk with on IM. Most of the time i am on my own, studying, playing guitar, or working on the comp. But the people at school who really piss me off

are the peole that are nice to me so that they can get me to help them with test reviews and questions on hw and stuff but then just shun me. (I am currently our class leader in grades since my friend Keith, whom i was competing with developed a brain tumor last June and is still on chemo and cant come to school, he was a good friend tho) I think the biggest reason why i don't really have any good friends is b/c i am on a completely diff. level from the rest of the kids in my grade. I am in 9th grade and this year i am taking Algebra2/Trig. and Chemistry. Keith had been the only kid that was in my advanced classes from my grade, so i get the worst of the 2 worlds, the kids from my grade are behind and every time i mention something about one of my classes they are like "You are in that class! woah! oh yeah you said that before! wow you must have a bunch of frinds from your classes" and i really don't relate with them much, but the kids from my advanced classes are upperclassmen and don't talk with me much especially when thay are pissed b/c i got a higher grade than them (They are all like,"why dont you g hang out with the kids in your own grade"). So I am stuck in the middle, w/ no way out b/c the door is closed on either side.

Yippee. welcome to my life. So yeah, I do get mad at my friends sometimes but i have prettymuch learned to accept the fact that I am discluded and tht is just a fact of my life :satisfied: . No I dont feel sorry for myself an you shouldn't feel sorry for me either, if you want to feel sorry for someone feel sorry for Keith who is stuck at home teaching himself Alg.2/trig this year.