Too long..., imy... Options

[x3chrissyx3]

Today my boyfriend of 2 years and 11 months (tomorrow) left for treatment in California. He said it could be anywhere from 4 to 8 months until he gets back. He said he'll call and email me as soon and as much as he possibly can...and I know it's what he needs to do to get better, but I'm kind of selfish. I really miss him, and I really wish that he didn't have to go. I know it'll be hard for a while, possibly for the entire time he's gone...but for now, I've been upset. I honestly, have not stopped crying. I was hysterical at one point, but now it's just...the tears keep falling down. I look at the sky and I thought "well, at least we're under the same sky" and I started crying again, I made pizza and I was crying, I don't know. We're still together, but I feel like a huge part of me has been broken into pieces =/ Maybe I'm just over-reacting?

I hope he doesn't find someone else - he says he won't, and I know he loves me...very much so, but even the thought that anything could happen is killing me. At the moment, I don't think it will, but you get how I feel.

Lets just pray he gets better. maybe if he gets better sooner he can come back sooner.

Any uplifting words or something? I don't know the point of this, but I really needed to vent in a short paragraph and maybe get some feedback?

Thanks a lot...

[_sarcastic_]

aww i'm sorry, smile, write him letters, email him?,