i've been feeling so depressed lately. |
 Dec 20 2004, 06:13 PM
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me & my boyfriend, kt broke up a 3 weeks ago because i needed to figure out my feelings for this other kid, nam. so i basically dated him for a bit & one day.. i was really really really really mad at kt because he was my date for the winter formal but at the formal, he never danced with me ONCE & grinded with erica for 6 straight songs.. then he'd see me for 2-4 minutes then leave for 20 minutes to go talk to his friends. i was hurt so much.. i told him my feelings that night on the phone but he said "well, you should have told me then" & didn't admit that it was his fault. i turned to nam & he made me all happy. so nam came over the next day & we sat on my bed [no groping -_-]. one thing lead to another.. & nam put his hand into my pants & he fingered me. -_- i allowed it.. i thought about kt & his feelings & my feelings.. so after a minute, i told him to stop bcuz i said i still love kt & that i felt incredibly guilty. he understood. so the two of us said that we'd make it seem like it never happened..
a few days later, me & kt made up & i was starting to feel like i was falling deeper in love with him & less feelings for nam. i realized nam was just an infatuation & a substitute when kt wasn't there.. & even tho nam & i had so much in common [incredibly freaky amount of things in common].. there was no feeling like there was between me & kt. but then.. he asked me a question after finding out that i hung out with nam after the formal. "what have you done with him?" he was getting mad.. bcuz he knew that i had done SOMETHING with him. i told him the truth.. he said that he wanted me to be honest in this relationship.. & well.. i was. *sigh* i feel so stupid.. for telling him.. now he can't stand to even LOOK at me. he says.. after that night that i told him, he lost all romantic feelings for me which sucks.. i gave him so much of me.. all of my time.. some of my money [i gave him gifts.. while i got ZIP from him].. i friggen gave him my virginity too! when i was with him, i had the most happiest moments.. now when i see him in the halls & my heart just starts to pound & my eyes start to water a little.. i love him a lot [even if i'm too young to say it.. it's just the way i feel].. my mind is just going "just look me in the eyes.. just once." sucks even more when i was making friends with his friends.. now i can't talk to them at all. he told me that i was the first girl i ever loved.. he told me when i was making my decision that he loved me deeply & waited so long for me.. he told me that i was the only one that could make him happy [which i believe because all of his friends said the same thing].. damnit. i ruined my relationship with him.. he'll never forgive me & he'll hate me forever [HE HAS HELD A GRUDGE AGAINST THIS GIRL SINCE THE 3RD GRADE BCUZ SHE GOT BETTER GRADES THAN HIM. that means he held it for 8 years.. -_-] sigh. should i go to nam? try to forget about kt? or be ms. positive, be happy for him & see what happens next? |
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Dec 21 2004, 10:29 PM
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 BIOTCH!!!! Group: Member Posts: 121 Joined: Nov 2004 Member No: 59,655 |
booo you whore!!!!
jm peace out ~ the one who calls random people whores |
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babyxsmilez i've been feeling so depressed lately. Dec 20 2004, 06:13 PM
sammi rules you geez, you horny little people...
if you don... Dec 20 2004, 08:08 PM babyxsmilez ^ haha horny, i guess you could say that. but i ha... Dec 20 2004, 08:11 PM SupraS15 Ok... here is what I think...
First... if you br... Dec 20 2004, 08:52 PM mouse_3k move on. simple. Sh!t happens, find someone ne... Dec 20 2004, 08:58 PM sweetdreamsx3 If you really still love Kt, then stop messing aro... Dec 20 2004, 09:14 PM dahding 1. no offence, but uh, yeah, ur a whore. u let a d... Dec 20 2004, 09:16 PM babyxsmilez QUOTE(dahding @ Dec 20 2004, 9:16 PM)1. no of... Dec 20 2004, 09:42 PM sweetdreamsx3 It didn't offend any of us. We were simply put... Dec 20 2004, 09:49 PM babyxsmilez but you guys got the wrong view of my story. i did... Dec 20 2004, 09:51 PM sweetdreamsx3 QUOTE(babyxsmilez @ Dec 20 2004, 9:51 PM)but ... Dec 20 2004, 09:53 PM babyxsmilez QUOTE(sweetdreamsx3 @ Dec 20 2004, 9:53 PM)No... Dec 20 2004, 09:58 PM SupraS15 QUOTE(babyxsmilez @ Dec 20 2004, 9:42 PM)DO Y... Dec 20 2004, 09:59 PM sweetdreamsx3 QUOTE(SupraS15 @ Dec 20 2004, 9:59 PM)kids ar... Dec 20 2004, 10:10 PM WishfullDreamer well....what you did with nam was wrong...you made... Dec 20 2004, 10:37 PM The 1 and only JJ wow i understand how KT feels cause thats basicall... Dec 20 2004, 11:07 PM krnxswat Looks like you got taken advantage of.
You seem e... Dec 21 2004, 10:32 PM Shattered_Hope Why don't you just go to him and tell him how ... Dec 22 2004, 12:40 AM Azarel QUOTE(babyxsmilez @ Dec 20 2004, 4:13 PM)one ... Dec 22 2004, 12:43 AM iloveyourname I think that you and Kt should just talk it all ou... Dec 22 2004, 10:57 AM
lilteardrop kt is too grudge-y. talking is good. make sure you... Dec 22 2004, 01:16 PM |
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