suicide, i think it's come to this Options

[Harmony]

well yeah the title explaines it all. yeha i have been having a whole lot of problems. my mom thinks im on drugs my step dad thinks so to so they all ways search my room. i think they put a camera some where in it but im not sure. my parents moved me away from all my friends because they thought they were a bad infuelence on me. i lost the one thing that kept me happy. i can't play basketball or volleyball any more cause my new school doesn't have those sports. my mom wouldn't let me play football cause she thinks im gonna get hurt. i don't fit in at the school im at now because it's like if u don't do crack then you're an out cast. and i don't do drugs and never had cause it tore my familly apart. i was once really popular and had a lot of friends that were at my old school. im slowly loosing the friends i had at my old school. my parents are always yelling at me. my teachers at school all think i cheat because i do really good in their class but don't pay attention. but i do good because this school sucks academically. the one girl that i do love hates me now. i get into a lot of fights now because i get so stressed. it seems like my familly hates me. my grandma wont let me move in with her but she lets my older sister move in with her because my grandma doesn't like me. and if i did move in with her all this would change and i would be happy. but yeah i don't think it's gonna happen. no one really cares about me any more, and i really don't have any reason to live any more. i can't do wat i wanted to do in life cause the school i goto doesn't have the courses that i have to take to get into the college i want to. i haven't seen my dad in like 2 years. my step dad is always threatening me. and my mom is starting to get really sick and my familly blames it on me saying that im killing her because they don't like me at all and it really doesn't help. and i just don't know wat to do any more. my life has just been going down hill for a long time and i have been thinking about this for a long time. so i just don't know wat to do.

[Just_Dream]

Wow... it seems like you've been cursed or something.. I don't mean that offensively. It's sad that your step father would threaten you and treat you horribly. And about your mother... I hope she does feel better.

I really wish I could find some way to cheer you up... Does it seem like nothing ever goes right? That for every good things that comes along, it's followed by 10 bad things? or maybe even 100 bad things? I just hope you dont' commit suicide.. You maybe think your life isn't worth living, but remember that there are people out there who care about you and your deap would leave an everlasting effect upon them. Your mother probably does love you, and if you died, she might get more sicker and be hurt. Even though they think thinks are wrong, I think deep down your mother does love you. And your stepfather, I don't even know what to say about him because he seems like an a-hole from what I've read. And it's stupid that he would accuse you of such things. Just remember that you're better than those who do crack at school. You don't want to be a druggie. You also are doing good in school since you actually understand the stuff, but don't pay attention. Haha I know a selected few who actually are able to pull that off nand get good grades yet they dont' pay attention.

And I agree with Jr0h. Be thankful that you at least have a family and have a better life than others. And just try to talk to someone about it.. if not, then maybe talk to a counselor. But remember that once you hit college, you can be on and lead the life you want to. I hope everything does turn out for the better. I really don't have anything inspirational to say at all.. Just hope for the better. And have a very merry xmas too ;x

Just remember that things are not what they appear to be... there's always a chance that things could change.. just hope for the best and try to deal with it.. If you can't, you can always call social services.. although i dont' reccommend it unless your stepdad threatens you enough that it would hurt you emotionally or he physically harms you. And try to talk to your grandmother.. Why wont' she accept you? And why haven't you seen your father for 2 years? :/ This Christmas doesn't seem to be going well..

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sorry if these questions are a little too personal. Don't feel obligated to answer my questions.