About my re-markable birthday..., yes it's going to leave a mark.. Options

[xj_liana_tx]

ok before you guys yell "STOP TALKING ABOUT YOURSELF YOU EGOCENTRIC B****"
I am not really going to brag about oh how many terrific gifts i received... because i didn't. so basically, this is another of my complaint.

all right, so yesterday was my birthday, and in the morning, my mom made me clean out everything for about 2 hours, and then they remembered my birthday so my mom like "ok so you want to go to the mall, let's go" and then dad was on the computer and we lost another 2 hours... I mean, i don't want to go to the mall with them anyways since everytime i go it's like a disaster. So blah blah blah, off we went at 3 o'clock. and yes, it was very boring, none of us said a word for the next 2 hours. and whenever i was trying to get a peek of Seventeen, my dad would be like "hands off, that's going to poison your mind." and whenever i was in Claire's or whatever store I like, my dad would go "Stop looking at these stuff." So yeah, you do the math..

After we left, we just basically went grocery shopping and to the stores my parents go every ordinary weekends... ok so it started when we were at Target, first, i spotted a pair of cool sunglasses, well, my parents wouldn't buy it for me because it was expensive (it was 20$), so i was like ok since i don't want to act like a spoiled brat. So then since i was planning on coloring my hair for a long time, i was at the hair section right?? Well so it went down hill from there. My mom told my dad that i want to color my hair, and then in the car (I was still quiet)... THEY started to talk, and the more they talked the more intense the conversation got.. and my dad spent the next 30 minutes of the car ride telling me how shallow i am and how bad my handwriting is, and how i am going to die like a worthless dog if i keep doing it, and how i am chinese and i shouldn't learn from other people's bad influences (like coloring my hair, and shopping), and then they just kept on ranting and i don't know how much but i shed about 30 drops of tears like a loser...

then i got home they were still yelling and screaming, it was almost like they had forgot that yesterday was my birthday, well it wouldn't make a difference. So i kept crying silently like a loser and i .......




well.. cut my self


i mean, i can't really hate my parents, and i am really overwhelmed by all the pressure and just everything, and all i can hate is myself. i am really sensitive to pain and i thought about the consequences, but still, i slashed my arm and i engraved "12/18/04---15" on my arm, it stinged for the whole night.
then i went to bed at about 8:50

I don't know, well just leave some comments. I don't know what to think now. I am all too shocked by what had happened... i don't know, maybe i shouldn't be.

[Spirited Away]

First, your situation is not news to a lot of kids, but you know, the majority of those kids come out better in society than others. It's how you face the situation that makes or breaks you.

Bad parents... A lot of times, teenagers do not understand what they have until they're older, and sometimes even until they're too late.

Second, you think you have it tough so you cut yourself? What's that going to prove? That's you're suicidal? That your parents are horrible? Even if that's not what you want to happen, people will think it.

And before anyone say that I don't know what I'm talking about, think twice about assuming my situation. I'm where I am today and I am in love with my family because I worked it out.

Third, parents are people, just like you. A few are bad parents (bad people), others are loving (good people) and the in between just DO NOT KNOW HOW to be good parents even though they try (people who try to do better). People flaw, and if children can understand that, they will have a better time getting along with their parents.

I have a question or two (or several). How do you celebrate your parents' birthdays or special occasions? How about, how do you treat your parents everyday? Do you greet them as you come home or say goodbye to them when they leave the house? Do you ask them how their day was? Do you talk to them about yourself so that they learn more about you? Do you know who your parents' friends are? Do you know your parents' favorite things?

How's your overall relationship with your parents? Notice the word relationship and think about what it means.

I am sorry that didn't have a wonderful birthday. That isn't something that a young girl should miss out on. I hope things will go better for you next year.