Never Ending Situation, ever felt so down u cant stand back up? Options

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hmm.. so i thought this place would be a good place to put my problem. The fact that not a lot of my friends or people from school read this kinda stuff... Well let me start from what happened last year. It all started when i liked this guy. Lets call him *anonymous. The way i put things is, i don't tell anyone. Well i did, but everyone thought i liked a different person. But thats a different story. I actually had a chance with this guy. But i blew it so bad. I guess i get scared to trust guys with the way i really feel. So, a couple weeks passed from that *event where i did have a chance. Like i said, i didn't tell anyone, and neither did he. So it ended up my BEST friend started liking him. so i'm like "uh oh". I just went along with it anyway. It ended up, it was ME that really hooked them up. I tried to change her mind in the beginning... but i thought that would be selfish. Towards the end of the year, when i was almost ready to move out of the place. They broke up about 2 months before that, &he went out with another girl. They broke up.. &trust me.. it was a major breakup.. since everyone love that couple so much. I found out it was ME he liked.. sucks.. that was the last day of school that i found out........

HERES MY STORY NOW
I like this guy &i only started liking him since FOREVER. well since i moved to this school at least. He caught my eye the second i saw him. I knew right away that i was gonna like him. Again, i kept it to myself without telling anyone. &yes, it is still a secret. But once again.. my friend likes him now. She doesn't know him at all. She only likes him for the looks. &he seems like the guy who isnt right for her. Should i just wait &see what happens? Or just go right up to him and tell him straight up? It just so happens i cant have a serious talk with him because we're always in class where he gets distracted by frieneds &stuff. Meaning, he's ALWAYS around people. I can't call him cuz i aint got his number.. and i dont wanna pull him away from the crowd cuz thats just weird. But should i do that? I deno... I NEED SOMEONES HELP

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join the club, i never tell anyone when i have a crush. so my bestfriend always end up liking him. but i actually told my crush i liked him this time. hehe we're together now
anywhoos, go straight up and tell him, don't make the same mistake like you did last time.