HATE .., my friends. Options

[to-devastate]

HEHE. It's a long one.. sorry but I really need to get this off my chest.-

Okay. So I have two friends- and they're really close with me. Together, we 3 are called "The 3 amigos" or whatever but that's not the point. Let's call one friend Sally, and the other Karen. So on Friday, it was a really good day until pd. 6 in school. During class, my 2 friends told me that my crush had a girlfriend. I was like "WTF...!" And of course, being "infatuated" with this guy, i totally freaked. Even before, when he told me he got a girlfriend, i went crazy and freaked out. So yeah. I was freaking out like crazy.. until like 20 minutes later, Karen tells me that "It was just a joke." I got mad at them and told them that I don't feel like going to the movies afterschool anymore. So I thought everything was fine. Oh boy was I wrong. I eventually got over the event on Saturday. But Karen just randomly ims me on aim and asks me why i didnt go to the movies and tells me that it pisses them off that i would choose a boy over them. and she told me that if i keep putting guys over friends then i have just lost their friendship. then she signed off. I got really pissed at them now. First of all, I never would put a guy before friends; and i never did. I wasn't mad at them because they put my crush in the picture, i was just mad at them because they would "joke around" with something like this. I mean, they know how much I got hurt when he got a girlfriend, so ytf would they do that? Did they want me to get a heart attack? I don't know. I know it's silly to be this much crazy about one boy; but this is a special boy and he's like my soul mate; just not together yet. And this may sound silly, but I didn't want to go to the movies because I didn't feel like going, and because my mom finally forgot to take away my keyboard :D.
So today, they totally ignored me. They even got my other friends in my class (also their friends too) to ignore me as well. I got all teary but I held in my cry during school. So when I got home, I cried a river and I don't know what to do. I don't want our friendship to end this way; but I don't want to say sorry for something I'm not sorry for. Please help me. Thanks :]

[misoshiru]

you should talk to them about how you feel. yell at them whatever, tell them why you were pissed off and how true friends dont really joke about their crushes that way. hope they can understand