HATE .., my friends. Options

[to-devastate]

HEHE. It's a long one.. sorry but I really need to get this off my chest.-

Okay. So I have two friends- and they're really close with me. Together, we 3 are called "The 3 amigos" or whatever but that's not the point. Let's call one friend Sally, and the other Karen. So on Friday, it was a really good day until pd. 6 in school. During class, my 2 friends told me that my crush had a girlfriend. I was like "WTF...!" And of course, being "infatuated" with this guy, i totally freaked. Even before, when he told me he got a girlfriend, i went crazy and freaked out. So yeah. I was freaking out like crazy.. until like 20 minutes later, Karen tells me that "It was just a joke." I got mad at them and told them that I don't feel like going to the movies afterschool anymore. So I thought everything was fine. Oh boy was I wrong. I eventually got over the event on Saturday. But Karen just randomly ims me on aim and asks me why i didnt go to the movies and tells me that it pisses them off that i would choose a boy over them. and she told me that if i keep putting guys over friends then i have just lost their friendship. then she signed off. I got really pissed at them now. First of all, I never would put a guy before friends; and i never did. I wasn't mad at them because they put my crush in the picture, i was just mad at them because they would "joke around" with something like this. I mean, they know how much I got hurt when he got a girlfriend, so ytf would they do that? Did they want me to get a heart attack? I don't know. I know it's silly to be this much crazy about one boy; but this is a special boy and he's like my soul mate; just not together yet. And this may sound silly, but I didn't want to go to the movies because I didn't feel like going, and because my mom finally forgot to take away my keyboard :D.
So today, they totally ignored me. They even got my other friends in my class (also their friends too) to ignore me as well. I got all teary but I held in my cry during school. So when I got home, I cried a river and I don't know what to do. I don't want our friendship to end this way; but I don't want to say sorry for something I'm not sorry for. Please help me. Thanks :]

[xj_liana_tx]

girls.... *sigh*