is this my breaking point?, guys come & go right? Options

[inn0centmarianne]

Okay, so here's my crappy real life story, I started going out with a guy named JAN, I just recently broke up with him like a month ago, we went out for about a year and 4 months, my longest relationship so far. I started going out with my EX, MARK, and now I feel that I've made the worse decision, we were better as friends, I mean, he talks to me for like 2 minutes a day on the phone, and at school, he goes pulling off my earring, It's like wth? that hurts you know! So I feel that our communication with each other sucks really bad, then a week ago or something like that, a guy named MICHAEL, started talking to me and hes a really cool guy, he only sees me as a FRIEND, which totally sucks, I think I'm falling for this MICHAEL guy while I'm going with MARK, MICHAEL just found out that I liked him through a poem I wrote him, which is on my xanga, and he understood it, but he still only sees me as a friend, I know our friendship is better than nothing at all, but I fell HARD for MICHAEL, and now I don't know what to do, I dont want to break MARK'S heart, but I don't really feel anything for him anymore, what do I do? someone help me for real! I need advice, it's killing me inside, I'm hurting alot of people and I hate it, but I can't help stop my feelings? they are just too strong for me to handle! i'm going crazy here, and now this JAN guy, for a year and 4 months, wants me back, I don't want to go back to him, he put me through alot, and it's so hard to hear him cry, he said he sees me everywhere even when he tries being with another girl.. but what now? my head hurts... HELP! okay, wait theres more! this guy MICHAEL, hes my bestfriends EX boyfriend, she said it was ok to go out with him, but I couldnt hurt her like that, MICHAEL doesnt even like me? so this is weird huh?

[inn0centmarianne]

yeah, I just don't know when the right time to do this will come, and michael, I can't give up on this guy, if he'll stay my friend, i'll be the happiest person ever, he has a good heart and told me a billion times how girls just leave him and BREAK this guys heart, I feel so bad when he tells me, because he deserves the best out there, not saying it's me, I wouldn't want to hurt him with anything...he just so different, gahh I'm falling hard for him you guys...