i dump people after 1 day, like this is gettin annoy.. Options

[DoOdOox3]

iv had a few of bfs that i dump after just 1 day..
itz really queer cuz itz nobodyz fault
sometimes i just feel that i dont deserve the guy
or hez just so much of not a cheater that im afraid i would hurt him in the end
cuz i kno that i wont put in my whole heart... i just wont. cuz im too afraid to get hurt so i wont put all of my heart into anyone.

if itz once or twice itz ok.. but itz gettin way too many times.. pplz gonna start 2 think im weird man... ='[
well for one thing i dont wanna reject anyone.. but itz not like i accept everyone...

nd now my current bf.. itz been 2 days.. nd i start to havin doubtz nd worri that imma hurt him. hez actually the singer of a f**kin band.. i thought id be the one who gets hurt. but hez 2 nice nd sweet nd he just... he doesnt f**k around at shows... or anywhere... but im scared again... im almost 95%certain.. imma end this again..

this is gettin really annoy..
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[DoOdOox3]

tru that i cant keep commitments
but iv laid off for a while now
itz to the point that im numb i dont eve kno if i like the person

i really want to have the feeling like "omg i love this boy/girl.. " those excitements [not necesarrily obssessions] but im just feelin so numb. itz always like "ok you like me. thatz great" or "o you wanna go out wit me? cool."

iv gotten hurt so many times b4.. i really wanna trust pplz nd put my heart into someone. but itz not happening.

nd i kno that im lack of self confidence sometimes.. but i really dont show those.. if anything.. they say im aggresive nd confident. so i really dont have to worry about that part. but thanks for replyin.
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