me,my friend ,her crush n my "boyfriend", another long ass topic.read if u care. Options

[LittleLulu]

ok sorry u guys for ANOTHER long ass topic that im going to post.
this one is abt ..ALMOST everything thats going on right now in the love department of my life.
(1)---my "bf"
first off my so called "boyfriend"...whats with the quotations u ask? well,..u see..--i used to like him... then i didn't but i found out HE LIKED ME at the end of last year..
but i told him i dont like him that way n e more n we became best friends....but after that he just always said he didn't like me n e more right? even though i KNEW he was lying.. but for some odd reason i just started liking him...n so the beggining of this year he admitted he still liked me...n i told him i like him..n everything's good right?....WRONG!!!cuz i dont reli like him.

n now he's telling everyone that were going out...n i bet he thinks im his gf now.. but jus cuz im dating him doesn't make me his gf...n i dont want to break up with him soo soon cuz that wud just make me look like a player...i knoe that if i do it later ill jus be leading him on right?? BUT HE DOESN'T HAVE TO KNOE THAT I STOPPED LIKING HIM ABOUT 3 WEEKS AFTER WE START DATING...then i wont be known as "a player "....im thinking of breaking it off with him 2 weeks after his birthday, which is in november.,,1 is cuz for the reason ubove.. 2 is cuz i alreayd got his present n if i broke up with him before his birthday then it'll be weird since i'd still be invited to his party...n the whole thing wud just be akward.....n besides.. he's soo sweet n everything i cant find an excise to break it off wit him right now.

(2)..my "crush"
my "boyfriend"'s ....i've liked one of his best friends since the begining of last year...n i still do.. just not as much.,..but anyways ..yesterday.. when me n my bf n all of his friends.. including that guy.. we all went to see the grudge.....that guy kept on throwing popcorn at me n my "bf"...n i got a huge ass stain on my right shoulder..n during the movie i said to him" hey ******* stop throwing it"..n U KNOW WHAT HE SAID TO ME???" f*ck you bitch".... yea.. that what he said... i was seriously offended..but i didn't want to start a fight in a movie theatre...so i didn't ne thing abt it....later on, i told me "bf" abt it... n he said" ohh he jus doesn't like u for some odd reason...he doesn't want me to spend time with you"...n i asked him if he ever said n e thing abt me n he said" yea..but i dont wana tell u, i think it'll offend you"....n to tell the truth, i didn't want to hear it ....but im just.. SOOO heart broken....n i knoe this MAY sound desparet n pathetic.. but ... cud it be that he onli doesn't want my "bf" to spend time wit me cuz he's jelous???....yea wel... i was scretly "hoping" thats what it is.... but who am i kidding?

(3)---my best friend...n the guy she likes...n ME--uhhgg
in the begging of the year, theres this new kid, lets call him barky...n one of his friends asked my friend --anna-- is she would go out with barky as a joke... but anna didn't knoe that...n she didn't knew barky very well either.. so she said no...(btw anna is native, n barky is part chinese part flip..n anna never liked an asian guy before)....but now.. anna is like.. obsessed wit him..n so are alot of other girls... barky is new n he's reli shy n all....hes a good dresser n has a cute smile n blah blah blah but i dont knoe him that well so w.e,,,..but u see anna didn't knoe that barky's friend asking her out for barky was a joke..n she's all ""ohh i dont want to tell the other girls what happened early on in the year""....n i dont have the heart to tell her the truth....that barky never siad he likes her...n NOW... on top of ALL THAT....i think i might like barky
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(4)--thank you--FELIX!!!

felix! i promised u wud be in this post... lmao too bad i didn't get to seee you at RC....n thanks for all the help n support you've given me...i reli reli appreaciate it...ur such a good friend n EVERYTHING. lol u n ur "pep talks" lmao.

n e wayz.. god bless....n thank all of u who took the time to read it....i knoe.. its VERY messed upp

i hope u can give ur opinion... or w.e...of the situations...n i hope u guys wont bitch at me

[LittleLulu]

OMG THANK U GUYS SOOOO MUCH!!!!!i really appreciate that u guys took the time to read this.

uh... my friends are telling me lately stuff like " you knoe.. daniel is starting to think u like other guys".."he wonders if you REALLY like him, or if your playing him."...but when hes around me, he acts totaly normal...well as normal as you can be when your HIM...but im actually kinda happy that he's starting to realize stuff..even though once he asked me if i was playin him n i denied it..cuz im NOT...if he thinks im playing him.. he'll eventually dump me if he's smart, which he shud be...

anyways..in the mean time.. i realize that..well my crush doesn't hate me..he's jus like that... to everyone.. so im not gona take it soo personally...n then abt my friend...the other girls that used to like barky say they dont like him anymore...n anna's been saying how the girls were telling all this bad stuff abt him to her...n she says that she thinks they're jus tryin to make her NOT like him cuz the girls think that anna has a better chance at barky.....its pretty confusing....

but ill be ok...ill try to clear my mind n set things strait.

as for the the fact that "i cant control my emotions"...well the truth is... WHO CAN???.....n its not like im madli in LOVE with 10 guys...i jus fancy SOME...which is rare..since i usually like jus one guy for 3 years..