my bf yelled at me, for sumthin i did 4 months ago.. Options

[xxmzkrnpunkster4]

my bf lives in sheridan indiana and we met online then we were best friends for awhile and then he asked me out so its been like 1 month 2 weeks since we started datin..yes we've met in person..and my bf has bad temper..but anyways

4 months i was gonna out wit my x(pat) and he was gone for 3 weeks and didnt tell me in advance so i got pissed and told my current bf(andrew) and andrew bitched at pat for not tellin me where he went and for not talkin to me well pat was yellin at me and shit for tellin andrew and i kept tellin andrew wat happened but he wouldnt listen so pat juss kept yellin at me well i was gettin soo pissed at everythin that i almost committed suicide..yeah yeah yeah i kno..but i put a gun to my head and ALMOST pulled the trigger but didnt..my bf andrew was crying and screamin at his computer b/c he didnt want me to do it..so i didnt

well 4 or 5 weeks ago my bf asked me y i wanted to committ suicide so i told him and he started to yell at me and shit so he got me in a bad mood so i was juss all bitchin and bit his head off and shit...

well last nite my bf was jokin around and asked me wat i would do if he ran around my room and i said i would kill myself jokin around and he gave me the silence treatment for 20 mins and then he finally said"well if were not gonna do anythin lets juss hang up.." so i said w/e bye..then i was talkin to my frien codee and he was tellin me to call andrew and tell him im sry and that i understand y he was pissed well i did call bak but andrew was like"y the f*ck would u say sumthin like that??" at first i didn kno wat he was talkin bout and he said" u kno were rough on that subject" and i said i kno but i didn mean to say it..

then he asked me wat were suppose to do.. and i said idk b/c i was cryin and juss too pissed to say anything or think and i put my face in my pillow and he told me to get my face out of the pillow b/c he didnt want me to try to committ suicide again well i wasnt doin it on purpose..i was juss layin there...so he told me he was gonna let me go so i was sittin there thinkin wat the hell am i gonna do?? well i was gonna cut myself but my friend told me not to so i didn..but i juss don kno wat to do..i have mixed emotions rite now.. can sumone tell me wat to do?? plz i need to kno wat i can do to fix things..

sry so long...

[lilxroxy]

it`s not your fault..honestly.

who care abt him. if he can`t even understand that you were kidding whn you said you`re gnna kill yourself....he isn`t worth it