my life is 1 big jerry springer episode.., some1, other than jesus, please help me? Options

[integra_honey]

hey urrybodii.. not to be so upfront in my life, but for now, let's pretend that "my friend" has this problem.. (it sucks that you all probably figuered that i'm referring to myself) BUT..

i was in a relationship for 2 yrs. with this guy, he found out i was pregnant with his baby, ditched me, & while i was pregnant, he found it so entertaining to call me a fat beached whale & how nobody would want me anymore because i'm ugly & yada yada.. but i mean i knew i was a beached whale at the time kuz i was pregnant.. 9 months of torture, 9 months of crying & taking tylenol PM every night just to get a decent sleep without waking up every couple of hours in the morning to feel depressed & suicidal.. blah blah blah..

finally had my baby, i was nice enough to let him stick around & then he's nice to me while i'm in the hospital & then all a sudden, couple days after while i'm still slowly recovering from pregnancy, he says "that baby doesn't look like me. i want a paternity test." i'm like WTF??? whutever on him... but now, 15 months later, after my baby's birthday, he still calls.. how do i get on with my life & forget about him? i know it's easier said than done, but this was the guy that i thought i would live the rest of my life with & thought that we would be a family kuz i thought he would grow up & take responsibilities for his side of his actions in bringin' out my baby... WHAT SHOULD I DO? gosh, i just finally realized that this entry is too long.. god bless anyone and/or everyone who actually responds to my problem.. or would it be easier for me to call a TEEN CRISIS HOTLINE??? love ya xoxo (that's my baby below, the one i was telling you all about; 1 yr. old)

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[integra_honey]

thanks everybodii.. yeh, its been hard on me... i even tried my best to be nice to him to try n make him see the lengths that i would go to for him.. but he doersnt even appreciate my generosity.. yeh.. i tried telling him that i didnt wanna talk to him anymore & that he should leave me & my baby alone now, but he thinks its a joke that i'm saying that.. i guess he THINKS that he's got me "wrapped around his finger?" kuz if he did do or say something nice, itwould be that i would fall in love iwth him all over again.. i mean he does wanna take my daughter like if i have class during the day or if something important is going on in my schedule, but other than that, i wish he would take her because he loves her, not because i'm busy and i really need someone to watch her.. he doesnt get it; i think if i wait for him to grow up & realize his responsibilities, i'd be waiting a really long time for him to realize it & by then, i might've already made a decision & met someone new.. thats a long way from now, but i never thought i'd end up with anyone else but him...

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